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Jennifer T

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Jennifer T

I watched a movie recently called "Backtrack". It was a movie that focuses on an individual's repressed childhood memory (I didn't know this when I rented it).

A recent conversation took me back to a day when some repressed memories of my childhood came flooding back:

"Shards"

In shards of broken memory

A child cries

For refuge from a torrent of rage

And disdain.

Through fear and pain

The betrayal finds,

in sequestered austerity,

An asylum for the soul.

Years pass.

The haven of repression

becomes a prison;

Anathema.

Contempt for self

And a shame indiscernible

lies dormant; an awareness

Waiting...

A woman,

Silenced in debasement;

Coped with a struggle

Meant for two

The burden too great

She became a product of duplicity

An onus mismanaged

Brought distorted solace;

The provender of life became the

furtherance of despair.

And the child cried.

The shards reassembled

Provide a shattered reflection

Of a child remembered.

Jennifer T - June 2003

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Charlize

I also know the feeling of being a broken and a distorted vessel. Life has seemed unfair. I have ben damaged by events, perhaps broken at times.

Events in my life as well as my gender issues have caused this. I'm sure no-one gets through life with a perfect vessel. As a person who has worked with clay i know that regardless of how perfectly i throw a pot and prepare the glazes the kiln is the final arbitrator. I also have seen how the distortions in a pot make it more interesting and beautiful patched or not.

Hugs,

Charlize

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Guest LesleyAnne

Wow!

...... I get it!

Powerful, poignant! :wub:

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