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Congratulations, hon!  Rest easy, the hard part is over.  Now its time to heal.  :goodjob:  :score:

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Congratulations and welcome to a new world!  The first few days are rough but they pass quickly.  The shock of it all will soon hit and you'll feel really good.  Today I am three weeks in and I'm feeling better every day!  Now your body needs rest to focus all your energy on healing.  

Jani  

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9 minutes ago, KatherineR said:

Sending more positive thoughts for a healthy and successful recovery ??

Thank you. With luck, I will be able to virtually join the group next week.

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Heal quickly dear.  That requires rest and doing what your told.  I am never very good at that normally but surgery has taught me it's necessary.

 

Big gentle hugs,

 

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Best wishes for an uneventful recovery and safe travels home

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Drains were removed this morning. So was the bandage on my breasts. I was a bit surprised that the tightness I was feeling wasn't all from the bandage.

I'm feeling good. Only one more day until I return to the clinic.

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I am back at the hotel. I'm sure I will do a write up later, but if anyone has any questions or is considering Dr. Chettawut, I will gladly answer anything I can. I was very pleased and impressed with the care I have received.

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I'm glad it went well.  Are you beginning to be able to enjoy the great cuisine of that area?  Hope so and enjoy the sites gently as you are able.

 

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Charlize

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It sounds like you're doing well.  That was my general experience as well.  Despite the intensity of the surgery, the pain was minimal and recovery was smooth.  I do have one issue with a small piece of one graph that did not survive that is annoying.  I'll have it fixed when I have my follow up in a week.  How long do you plan to be in Thailand?  As you gain back strength and energy maybe you can take in some local sights.

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Right now I am on a soft diet, eggs, pancakes, ice cream, until the remove my packing on Thursday. After that I hope my friend can start bringing me some takeout.

i am here through the 27th. I hope the last week I will be allowed to leave the hotel. To be honest, other than the food, I was never that interested in sight seeing.

it feels kind of odd really. I know they did the surgery, and I know me penis is gone, but since I haven't actually seen the results, it doesn't quite feel real yet.

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I'm not surprised you feel that way.  When i had my orchiectomy it took a long time to understand they weren't there any more.  Oddly i still have the rare "ache" but then again nerves are strange.  Time and healing has brought a new reality.  Enjoy your resting time as much as you can.   Healing requires rest.  Normality will come.

 

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Charlize

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Glad to read you are doing well!  And yeah, things will feel "odd" at first but that will change.  Pretty soon you'll be bouncing down the street singing "A Whole New World" (theme song from the Disney movie Aladdin...).  LOL

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I appreciate all the encouragement and support of you ladies on here. While Houston has a large trans community, I am not very active in it, and don't know very many if any that have done this part of the journey. 

Right now the time difference is really hard because I'm 12 hours ahead of everyone I know. It makes even simple chit chat hard.

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9 hours ago, TexasLibraryLady said:

it doesn't quite feel real yet.

I think this is quite normal.  It's the feeling I had also.  Part of it I believe is that the change is physical and not necessarily mental, so you'll take a short while to adjust to the change.   But it won't take too long.  

Enjoy your time there as soon it will all be a blur.

Jani

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My packing has been removed. Aside from the catheter, I have now seen my new body. The best description I can give is that after 41 years I finally feel right.

i had my initial dialation which was 6-6.5 inches so I'm very pleased with that.

i really do not think I could be happier with the process or results so far.

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Awesome and good to hear!  Pretty soon the cath will be out...which I think you'll greatly appreciate.  It's really a barbaric little thing when you think of it.  Like Jani said, enjoy your time there cause it will go fast.  There's a lot to see...and taste!

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Catheter with dilation? That does not seem comfortable....glad you are doing well though!!

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8 hours ago, TexasLibraryLady said:

I have now seen my new body. The best description I can give is that after 41 years I finally feel right.

Isn't that a wonderful feeling!  You're at the point where the work begins but it's no big deal as this is what you've been planning for.  I hope all continues to go well. 

Jani

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4 hours ago, MarcieMarie12 said:

Catheter with dilation? That does not seem comfortable....glad you are doing well though!!

Actually the catheter didn't bother me before they removed the packing, now I feel like I'm peeing all the time. Plus if you're doing your surgery in the us, they tend to speed the process up.

Not having my first real dialation yet, I can't say really how it is. When they did it yesterday, I felt a very mild pressure, no pain.

My biggest worry was how it would feel when they removed the packing. After all, removing something from a cavity that wasn't there before sounds painful. Again, just a little discomfort, but no pain, and over before I knew it.

Yours will be just as successful and painless, I'm sure.

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Well I have to admit, dialation is kind of peaceful. You just insert and lay back. Put on Netflix and binge something. I must admit I'm still wondering how I'm going to work 3 50 minute sessions in once I return to work.

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That sounds quite nice actually but i can understand your difficulties at work.  Perhaps you can arrange something at lunch break but regardless i'm sure you'll work it out as many before you have managed to do.

 

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Charlize

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26 minutes ago, TexasLibraryLady said:

Well I have to admit, dialation is kind of peaceful. You just insert and lay back. Put on Netflix and binge something. I must admit I'm still wondering how I'm going to work 3 50 minute sessions in once I return to work.

It is peaceful and do I dare say enjoyable. A year later and I still enjoy "doing it". I remember being out on a road trip and that middle of the day dilation, I did in the back of my F - 350 (it has a cover). You just get creative about your time. 

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