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Sorry i havent introduced myself until now  anyway  my name is Alex  am FTM  married with no children just cats   lives in Scotland  i have gone  from being N0N-BINARY  AND FTM  for a while  i have been going in and out with that for a while  am really struggling with this This time around  i am only out to my husband and one friend  tried to come out to myself sister  but she was like moody with like i know that  i am  going to try and tell my dr about this she already know am NON- BINARY but not FTM   she didnt do anything or reffer me to anyone am also coming out to my psych as well so hopefully she helps me i have mental health problems and i dont work my husband is also my full time carer and dont work either  my mother is very bigoted  and says am doing this a for attention:banghead: and that am  female she will not accept this at all  this time i feel like telling her if she will not accept me i will not accept her and her  hate.:witch:

anyway thats me :typing:

 

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Hi Alexx

Welcome to the forums. This can be a very hard journey at the beginning. It's something people who don't feel oit often cannot relate to or imagine and it makes them frightened and uncomfortable as well when they love is.Because it means something, someone , they love has been an illusion and they will have to change with us. Change is not something most humans embrace unless it's their idea.

The  good news is that there is no time limit or set path so we can take each day at a time and just do what we can that day alone. And we only have to carry the burden of that day and not the whole journey.

There are also some amazing times in finding and affirming yourself so it isn't all negative. We'll be here to listen and encourage and share our knowledge and experiences with you. The forums literally made it  possible for me to get through those challenging early months of transition.

I'm over 6 1/2 years in and they have been the happiest and most fulfilling times of my very long life.

Looking forward to getting to know you.

Johnny

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Hello and Welcome Alexx.  As Johnny mentions it is a hard journey at first, not only for us but others who surround us.  Some come to understand and accept this is about us while others mistakingly think your choice to be out affects them and their gender.   Hang in there, you'll be all right.  Please join in the conversation when you can.

Jani

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Hi Alexx,

I am so glad you're here!:D It's wonderful to see your introduction.

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf?

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Welcome to Trans Pulse, Alexx.  I hope that soon you can find a good therapist to help you with all your issues, including the gender ones.  Best wishes, and good luck!

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

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Hi Alex! I'm also ftm and married with cats (six of them, ha!). Nice to meet you! I'm sorry to hear that your family has been so unaccepting so far. You'll find lots of support and love here. 

Best,

Kendall

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Hello Alex.  I have only one cat but a great many goats.  None of them seemed disturbed by my transition.  The people in my life also have gained acceptance with time.  Glad you've joined us.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Hi Alexx

I am non binary, but essentially MTF

I find things change constantly, and my understanding changes constantly.

People seldom seem to understand - All you can expect is that they accept.

As I live to do - be as you are and live in peace

Tracy x

 

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Dear Alex, hello! My husband is FtM. I'm trans too, post-op. He is 68 and I'm almost 70.

Years ago when I had SRS, after many years alone playing piano for a living, I met another trans female. That was 30 years ago. He's now my husband. My everything. I'm retired now and penniless, but I have him, and he is worth the wait.

As far as family goes . . . the thought of the day:

"Blood is NOT thicker than water. Water flows, while blood coagulates." 

My husband's family ran in every direction, just like mine did 40+ years ago. They totally freaked.

I was born in Baltimore and had to leave town at 15, and again at 28. I didn't know any people like me. I went to Philadelphia and somehow landed a "gig" with Philly-Jo Jones. I had SRS there and met my first husband.

Things just happen, Alex. You have "set the Universe in motion" and the momentum is bound to have deep and lasting impact on your life and the lives of others.

In the end, you have to either answer the Call or do things the "normal way".

If you are truthful with your self, then I say, LIVE. We have only this one life that is Sacred, I feel.

I never liked "normal". Not enough fun, little or no room for sex, drugs, and rock'n'roll!

When we change our bodies and minds, we strike at a family's world-view. It upsets everyone terribly.

Other people, especially family, tend to like stasis, stability, harmony and sameness. While we are, by our seeking nature, restless, imaginative, gifted, sensitive and easily hurt.

A side-note - the scientists are finding that autism is linked to being trans. I am autistic as all get-out, and some of our finest people have been different in the way we are. 

I'm thinking of Alan Turing. I just saw Benedict Cumberbatch in the movie, "The Imitation Game". It's really worth watching. Turing was very different and very gay. Also, he was autistic, as was the pianist Glenn Gould. And there's me!
I wish you luck and love.

 

 

 

 

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