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Sharon Aml

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This is the first time writing anything anywhere about myself as a transgender MTF. 

I have struggled with my longing to be feminine since I can remember Within the last year I came out to my wife with some extreme ups and downs.I did not at that time know that I was ready to transition. I told her I needed to explore my feminine side which she finally agreed to.

A little background : We have been together a long time and are soul mates  

I took a few months to dress up. And  along the way did a lot of research. I came to the conclusion that I am transgender. I have been on HRT 4 months now and feel better than ever !

I still do not know where this journey will take me . Like a vacation to a far away place it's going to take awhile to get there . It's just great to be on the road

                Sharon 

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Welcome Sharon!  I'm glad you found us.  Writing for the first time can be stressful, I know!  It sounds like your wife is being supportive of your exploration.  Remember to take it easy as she too is transitioning, in her own way.  

HRT has a way of making things better by calming the noise in our heads.  It did for me.

You don't know where you're headed?  Good. There is so much to learn that each day can be a revelation.  As we progress forward, some find a good place to stop where they and their spouse can peacefully coexist, while others move further along.  Remember there are no rules about what you do or how "far" you go.  My journey is different than yours, and every other person here on the forum and so will your journey.

Please take a deep breath and relax.  You've found a good place.  Please join in the conversation when you can and make a new post if you want. 

Cheers, 

Jani

   

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11 minutes ago, Sharon Aml said:

This is the first time writing anything anywhere about myself as a transgender MTF. 

I have struggled with my longing to be feminine since I can remember Within the last year I came out to my wife with some extreme ups and downs.I did not at that time know that I was ready to transition. I told her I needed to explore my feminine side which she finally agreed to.

A little background : We have been together a long time and are soul mates  

I took a few months to dress up. And  along the way did a lot of research. I came to the conclusion that I am transgender. I have been on HRT 4 months now and feel better than ever !

I still do not know where this journey will take me . Like a vacation to a far away place it's going to take awhile to get there . It's just great to be on the road

                Sharon 

Thank you for welcoming me.I have read a lot here and plan to read a lot more .I think this is one of the rest stops on my journey that I really need.Because I do feel the need to communicate with someone else that truly understands what I am going through  Thanks again

                      Sharon

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Hi Sharon,

Welcome to TransPulse! Now that you're here, you're not alone anymore. Glad you found us.

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf?

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Welcome Sharon.  I remember the joy i found when i found this place.  It has certainly helped and as time passes i still find the connection with others who understand issues i deal with day by day to be remarkably comforting.  Glad you've joined us.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Where is a good place to begin ? Do I open up more about myself And which forum is best for new members 

               Sharon

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Hello Sharon,

Welcome to TransPulse. We have topic specific forums for a variety of issues. If none of them fit your specific question, you may post in the General forum. You can say as much or as little about yourself as you wish. Just don't post any personal information that could identify you. Such as your actual address or phone number, etc. Member safety is a top priority here.

MaryEllen :)

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Thanks again for the warm welcome 

This is such a whirlwind of change that it is almost unbelievable When approaching my Wife with my desire to explore my feminine feelings I was scared for what would happen.She cried a lot we talked a lot she let me dress fully wig makeup and clothes 10 moths in  I realized that I am transgendered Fast forward to now into my 4th month of  hormone therapy. I feel better than ever. My wife is very excepting of my journey.My plan is to take it   One day at a time. At this time I don't have any plans of coming out to anyone else. I'm very content and selfish in a way to just be me for me.

Timeline 

1 Began hormone therapy 

2  almost indescribable calm set in. Combo of relief of 40 years of denial And a bit of the estrogen level going up

3 started feeling all  kinds of startling shots of  pain in my breasts and nipples

4   Pain increased in nipples remained constant 

5  very few breakes in the pain  Wowie Don't bump them

 

 

               Sharon

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Sorry about that last post I was half asleep rewrite

6 into my 4th month breasts are developing I wore a bra this weekend and filled it.

7 also looking into the mirror I see changes in body shape fat distribution (slightly )

8 still have the warm and fuzzy feeling about the whole journey      

Sorry for the rewrite  

               A little background on my name I was called Sharon Mistakenly as a child Over and over  So I said why not Sharon All My Life.      

                                       Sharon Aml

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 Thanks for your share.

  Time takes those ouchies away.  I am so glad about that.  I have ocassional times when the girls are a bit sensitive but i'm not in fear of the door anymore.  Fortunately my wife is also still by me.  She has her moments of wanting him back but at the same time will sometimes find me a nice dress on e-bay.  This certainly is an interesting journey.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Good day everyone 

I have had a chance to read quite a bit here in the last few days and feel better about myself every day just seeing that so many people have the same thoughts,dreams and goals which I have always held down and perceived to be wrong at some level. With each passing day I feel a certain uforia which you could not explain to anyone that isn't going or has gone through this journey. The journey I'm on if you would have told me a short while ago I would be here I wouldn't have believed you I some how got the courage to speak to my wife  never even thinking about transition. I sought therapy and was referred to a Dr for HRT by chance it was my primary care who trained and practices HRT but doesn't advertise. When I called I asked if my (friend) could come in about HRT  I was told we're not taking any new patients. I couldn't believe the words that came out of my mouth What about me ? Even the doctor couldn't believe what I said. I went for the appointment as I usually do blood work check up standard stuff only this time  I got some additional prescriptions. I was extremely nervous not knowing if I made the right decision. Four months into HRT and landing here has confirmed my Choice

                     Thank you all.  !!!

                           Sharon Aml

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Hello to all 

 I have been a part of this community for about 

three weeks now. 

Met a lot of wonderfull people.Learned a lot. Plan to learn more. And have discovered live chat and the journey continues 

                 Sharon. Aml

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I don't like looking like a man I love looking like myself what I see is woman but am forced by circumstance to be perceived as a man this gift of transition has always been a dream that in a million years I would never believe could actually happen and here I am 

               Sharon Aml

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Well half way through my 5th month. Still feeling great . The wife not so much ,

Im taking it  one day at a time I’ll keep you posted

                                         Sharon Aml 

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Hello Sharon, 

I see you're hanging in there.  Good for you.  In these early days of HRT there is a lot going on in our bodies and mind.  I'm sorry to hear your wife is having a hard time (if I'm reading this correctly).  It is certainly understandable as it does tend to upset the relationship apple cart.  Everyone reacts differently.  My wife, while accepting of my choice, started to question her image of who she grew up to be (not gender related) and now our relationship has evolved.  I hope things work out for you both.  

 

BTW, I like your glasses.  I finally bought a pair of prescription sunglasses in that shape.  I love them!  Its a whole new look. 

 

Cheers, 

Jani

 

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That feeling of relief when i was finally free to express myself was wonderful but like you it had difficulties.  My wife also found a new reality unacceptable.  It took what seemed years(and to some extent was) to find peace with me as a woman still in a loving relationship.  Things changed but i have to remember that in our society the first words often spoken about us are "you have a healthy baby...........(boy or girl)".  Chose one.  Transition flies in the face of everyone's expectations.  That doesn't mean to say that i feel in any way that it is wrong, but it is difficult for all of us.  As Kermit the frog said:  It isn't easy being green.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Hello all 

 

I’m half way into my 8th month of HRT I would say the explosive exuberance has subsided although I am still feeling wonderful about this journey. I’m kind of settling in with my new life and acceptance of who I am very comfortably. My wife is a little bit better as it all becomes more familiar. It’s one day at a time for me and so far they have added up nicely .

   All the best to everyone on their own journey     

             Sharon Aml

 

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Lovely to hear that your wife is sticking it out with you.  i took my wife time as well but with time we are doing better than  ever.

Thanks for sharing your journey.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Hello All

I'm into my 10th month on HRT !  I feel more comfortable with myself as each day goes by.

Breast soreness has subsided. I fill my bra now. My wife is definitely on a better path. 

So the journey continues    

                            All the best to everyone on their own journey     

                                                      Sharon Aml

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