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I spent some time writing my own songs - not for fame or fortune but because I enjoyed doing it.  Hiding behind the name "Clay Reston", I produced and recorded them at my desk, using Audacity software.  I'm no singer, but I work cheap (free).  There are a couple of Nashville demos, and the rest are just me doing it all.  Now, for what it's worth (I'm guessing about a nickel...), I've put the ones I consider to be my best efforts on line for people to stumble across someday.  Watch your step.


Broadcast Stream "Clay Reston - Pretty Good Songwriter"


There are different links for various media players:
(WinAmp and ITunes) https://perseus.shoutca.st/tunein/kentraco.pls
(Windows Media Player) https://perseus.shoutca.st/tunein/kentraco.asx
(Real Player) https://perseus.shoutca.st/tunein/kentraco.ram
(QuickTime) https://perseus.shoutca.st/tunein/kentraco.qtl

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Very nice.  The delivery is reminiscent (to me at least) of a breathy, acoustic Neil Young.  


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I don't think I ever posted this here.  It's one of several transgender-themed songs I wrote and recorded a few years ago.





Daddy's girl is soft and nice

Some days sugar, some days spice

All the things he'd wish that she could be

Daddy's girl is Daddy's pride

But Daddy's girl lives deep inside

Knowing she can never let him see


Daddy's boy can do no wrong

Growing up so big and strong

Following his footsteps every day

Daddy's boy is Daddy's pride

In everything he's ever tried

Daddy's been behind him all the way


She's all alone

Even while her life goes on around her

And all the friends of Daddy's boy surround her

Funny how they never see her cry

And on her own

With only dreams and wishes she can't share

She says a silent prayer

And lies there in the dark and wonders why


Daddy's girl is crying tears

Of sadness now for all the years

Of all the Daddy's love that might have been

Daddy's boy is Daddy's pride

And Daddy's girl can only hide

And try her best to hold her feelings in


Daddy's girl is Daddy's boy

She fills him with such pride and joy

Pushing ever harder just to show

Daddy's boy can do no wrong

Rough and tough and big and strong

Trying not to let her Daddy know


That she's Daddy's girl

Sometimes that's just how it has to be

Sometimes that's just how it has to go

It's not the life you know

It's just the life you live

And you'd give all you can give

To be just Daddy's girl

Daddy's Girl.mp3

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That's beautiful Kenna, such a sad song, but my story as well. I could feel the emotions as I listened to it. thanks for sharing.



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Brenden McCormick

I love the songs!!! Great work! They were so honest and truthful! :D


Lots of love, :rolleyes:


Brenden McCormick 

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Another song written from a transgender perspective (and dedicated to my wife):




As you lay sleeping

I was thinking it’s a long and lonely ride

If there’s no one who can love you by your side

And in the end, there’s nothing more important than a friend

When others might have just denied me

Somehow you could see inside me

And took me by the hand and loved me more


You loved me more

When I thought that I would spend my days alone

Giving up the life I’d known

Going blindly in a new direction

I looked around

And there you were, standing right beside me

It was all I could have hoped for

You loved me more


With the changes I went through

As I tried to find my way

You rode that roller coaster with me, too

Day by day

You could have loved me so much less

You could have walked right out that door

In spite of everything,

You loved me more


You loved me more

When I thought that I would spend my days alone

Giving up the life I’d known

Going blindly in a new direction

I looked around

And there you were, standing right beside me

It was all I could have hoped for

You loved me more


They said it’s wrong, it just won’t last

We have no future…only past

I only hope, I only pray, trying hard to find my way

All I know is in this moment

This is what I’m thankful for

You could have loved me less

But you loved me more


You loved me more

When I thought that I would spend my days alone

Giving up the life I’d known

Going blindly in a new direction

I looked around

And there you were, standing right beside me

It was all I could have hoped for

You loved me more


It was all I ever hoped for

You loved me more


You Loved Me More.mp3

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