FadingGlory

[Deri]

Hello, I'm Deri.  From Canada again, as I started.  My story is in https://deripocockblog.wordpress.com/ "If I were a Boy". I feel lonely and isolated, but at my age finding a husband is a challenge, competing with so many cis  women widowed or dumped.  Not sure why i'm on a TG forum, I have not identified as TS for over 30 years, it's a memory forced upon me by health problems, travel problems, and deep introspection.

But i'm always interested in new friends ...

[Dev]

Hello and welcome to TransPulse, Deri.  We're glad to have you with us.

 

Having read your story, I can tell you that a few people return to their roots, as it were, later in life.  They become more open to the idea of transitioning - or merely wanting to transition - as a result of life's circumstances.  I look forward to hearing more from you here!

[Jani]

Hello Deri and welcome to our corner of the world.  I read your blog post and it certainly seems your life has had it up's and down's.  You're certainly a talented writer as your words evoked a picture perfect description of the life you lived.  But nothing has been added since the end of May of last year.  What have you been up to?  I can attest that growing older can be difficult at times so I can't offer anything at the moment that you probably haven't tried.  I'm glad you joined us.   Things are a little slow at the moment with a number of changes the site has gone through but we're a good bunch of folks who are dedicated to each other.  I hope you stay and join in any conversation that strikes your fancy, or initiate a new one.  

 

Jani 

[Charlize]

Welcome Deri.  I arrived here in my 60's and finally was able to discuss issues with others that had been pushed off the table for years.  Simply sharing with others has helped me to find some peace in the acceptance of myself as i am.

We are not alone.

 

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

[tracy_j]

Hi Deri

 

It's nice to meet new people.

 

Nice to meet you

 

Tracy x

 

[MarcieMarie12]

Hi Deri, welcome to transpulse! 

 

Hugs,

Marcie

[Guest]

Hi Deri. Welcome. This is a wonderful place to meet and chat with like minded people. I'm all ears if you would like to talk sometimes. Hugs. Amber 

[Deri]

Jani, i have published 3 TG stories on Kindle (Amazon) under the pen name Jenny Grace, and a vanilla adventure story under my name.

 

Lately i have been fighting depression - nothing to do with being trans, just mourning the failure of my marriage and missing friends.  It was a big mistake coming to Canada where my UK pension is inadequate.  i went on some dating sites and was victim to several con-men.  Now i just sit in my room, reading and withering away.

[Jani]

Hello Deri.  I'm glad you checked back in.  I'll have to look for your writing.  Another member here, Kenna Dixon is also a  published writer.  I've read her works written under a pen name also.  You can look for her in the Book forum.  

 

I'm sorry to hear you're down.  I know sometimes life gets tough and nothing goes right.  Is there an option to move back to the UK?  I know there are many considerations as well as pension amount.  Or maybe go to a different place within Ottawa?  

 

I am so leery of dating sites for the very reason you mention.  I'm married and don't need to date but the thought scares me, having heard friends talk about their experiences.  Be careful.  There are a lot of jerks out there.  

 

Reading isn't necessarily bad but withering away isn't good.  Are there places you could go to interact even casually with others?  I'm thinking of free or low cost places like the library, art gallery, or a museum.  I know I miss my friends and have had to make an effort to make new ones.  When I retired I left them behind as our schedules never really aligned anymore plus I worked some distance from my employer.   I needed to find social contact closer to home.  At first it was hard but it does get better.  My current circle of friends is a small but enjoyable group.  

 

I see you list photography as an interest.  I used to take a lot of 35mm photos, developing and printing what I liked.  I fell out of it but still have my darkroom setup.  With the advent of the digital era, its somewhat useless now unless I want to really get creative.  Have you looked into joining a Photography group?  I'm sure a local camera shop might know of or sponsor one.  There is also the "Meet Up" app that you can use to find groups you might be interested in.  I'm not really into camping but I do kayak and used to have a small sailboat so I have looked up local groups to join in those activities.  

 

We seem to have a lot in common as I enjoy the outdoors, good wine and traveling too.

 

Jani

 

         

[Deri]

Jani, i have UK and Canadian passports but i won't return to UK to live.  Seriously thinking of living in Turkey again, with food, weather, culture that i love and a chance to teach sailing again.

Yes, i had an Olympus 35mm that i used for marine photos, in a fast inflatable boat taking shots of racing yachts, selling framed prints to owners, and also illustrating magazine articles i wrote.  Now i have a nikon digital.

Thanks for your comments