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STACIELEELAH

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STACIELEELAH

Stacie Leelah is Transgender ( MTF ) - More Importantly I am Me - A Beautiful Female :

 

I am Who , I am Suppose too Be

I am not the Person , That some think I should Be

I Lived a very long part of my Life , Not being Me

I tried too Be the Person , That some thought I should Be

I now Know , That all that did , Was make Me very Miserable

I sHARED My secret , With Pamela Jean only , And she Loved Me

I and Pamela JEAN , Spent the better part of our Married Life

Protecting My secret Life , And our Married Life together

I hurt so much , Now that Pamela Jean , Has gone too Heaven

I still have Reagan Jean & Shelby'Anne Kelcee & They both are My Life

I have some Family , Pamela's Family , Who Accept Me as Me

I have very Few member's of My Family , That accept anything about Me

I have My strong Faith in My GOD , And My Lord & Savior JESUS CHRIST & The Holy Spirit

I Know that GOD loves Me , For Me & That He alone will Ultimately Judge Me

I will Ultimately stand before GOD & confess My Sins as Me ( Stacie Leelah )

I will live the rest of My life , As much as Possible as Me the Real Me

I am Always Worried what others think , As I want to be Accepted

I want too be Loved & And I want too show Others the Real Me

I am a Beautiful / Person / Female , Transgender Woman , I am Me

I was Always Me & I will Always be Me , I Love Me

Thank You GOD & All of You , Who Accept Me

I am Stacie Leelah ? , & I Love Being Me

 

Stacie Leelah

Reagan Jean

Shelby'Anne Kelcee

Written - August 2015

3 months after the Passing of my Beloved Wife Pamela Jean

 

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Charlize

"I am Always Worried what others think"  I remember thinking the same.  For 63 years i could not find the freedom i found when i finally found the ability to accept myself regardless.  That didn't mean i had to transition but instead to accept that this part of me existed.  I'm glad you are here.  i found it very wonderful to find i wasn't alone and bit by bit i also found the  ability to love myself as i am.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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STACIELEELAH

Thank You , So Very Much Charlize

 

You're words are Awesome and I am so far behind were I want too be , In 2014 I was Active then on Lauras Playground , But then with Pamela Jean getting Sicker , The LEELAH ALCORN situation , And Life in General , I gave up on most if not ALL social media sites :

 

Thanks Again

 

StacieLeelah 

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tracy_j

I am sorry to hear about your wife Stacie. No-one will ever replace her, but at least you have the peace of knowing you were not keeping a big secret. It's nice that you are back. I did miss you,  and talk of your dogs. I hope things go well with you.

 

Much looking forward to your input

 

Love

 

Tracy x

 

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STACIELEELAH

Thank's Tracy_J :

 

I again Also appreciate the very Kind Words , I Don't know what direction my transgender Life is Going , And or how far I will Go , And or be able to Go , I Need this Group , If for no other Reason , Than too have FRIEND;s who understand , Open up too & Talk too :

I have tried a Private therapist

A Kaiser Permanente Therapist

A Somewhat Local area Support Group  1 Hour away

I Need Transgender / LBGT , Mostly the T Family and Friends

I Need Interaction

I Need Transgender Friends , My Male Self , Has too many non understanding and Un sympathetic too LBGT Issues

My BLOOD Family / Relatives walked / Ran away from Me now over 3 years ago , when they Found out not by me , About me being Trans

Pamela has been gone Now 2 years and 5 months

 

Life is Not all that Fun anymore , But my 2 beautiful Labradors , My Girls as I refer too them , Are my reason to survive and go On

And in Honor of Leelah Alcorn's Memory

 

Thanks again

 

StacieLeelah & The Girls

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