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Alexx21

something isnt right  people are spying on me watching what am doing  its nearly 6 am here av been up for hours  too scared to sleep just incase they come into the house and attack us 

i looking out side but its very dark  they smashed the lights or made the lights outside the house go out 

there always watching me they want to stop my disability payment they want me to slip up they want me to do something that will stop my money 

at one of the drop in i go to they put a poster about working  they want me to work i cant work there is no way i can 

they want to make things harder for me  the government spies on me there trying to kill me i  think they are going to poison my food and water  i cant eat it my husband is sleeping he dont know what is going on when i say things like this he says its my mental health  and that no one is spying on me  but thats what they want you to think  

i dont feel safe they are now tracking my movements  they have cameras in the light bulbs  in every room  they want me dead

 

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VickySGV

Please get your husband up to help you get with your medical care team.  What is going on is something they can help you with.  The actual doctors and therapists want you to let them know how you feel.  They KNOW about your disability and want to keep you because they DO CARE for you. 

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Alexx21

woke him up and told him he started shouting at me and told me to stop being stupid 

i dont see my dr until Monday  i have my nieces coming over for the weekend as well my husband normally looks after them 

we cant change that as my mum is less than understanding about my mental health 

see my psych on the 24th of this month 

 

 

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tracy_j

Hi Alexx

 

The pressure of life is all round us these days, with government cuts everywhere. I don't know if it is what you are referring to about the lights, but our street lights are turned off before midnight. Annoying when I am getting ready for bed and everything goes black! It's the same with their presumption that everyone is fit for work.

 

At the times in my life when I have felt similar to you I have just stopped reading newspapers, and not watched the news on TV. It's a bit like hiding my head in the sand but just gave me the breathing space to go on. We do get stressed by information overload, and there are always people, even in government, who do help.

 

If you cannot get onto chat here to talk to someone, there is, as I said previously, the Samaritans (Tel: 116 123).

 

One thing I remember when I was under local mental health care is that I was provided with a card with the emergency call phonenumber which goes through to the professional on call, with the instruction that if I felt any really bad thoughts I should call the number to get immediate help. Do you have a similar number? I know the NHS is slightly different in Scotland but I would presume there is someone on call.

 

Tracy

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Timber Wolf

Hi Alexx,

Take a deep breath and try to relax. It would be a very good idea to call your doctor tomorrow and tell him/her what's going on. It sounds like your meds may need adjustment. Please know that I care about you.

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf🐾

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Charlize

Alexx,  I don't know what to add to what has already been said above.  Please do take care of yourself.  The health care system does care and will help if you reach out and tell them how you feel.  

We also care and can hope that you feel better today.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Carolyn Marie

Alexx, I don't think you should wait until next week to see a care giver.  Please ask your doctor to see you sooner, or ask your husband to take you to an urgent care center.  They will help you feel better, more like yourself, and calm your nerves.  This isn't something you can deal with on your own.  We all need help sometimes, Alexx.  My heart goes out to you, hon.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

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Alexx21

Am feeling a bit better ...not seen my dr or anyone yet i cant do it while my nieces are here i cant go to A and E without my nieces  and if i do and my mum finds out she will stop me seeing them

i have to get to my dr on Monday 2 days  i can be ok until then  

i can just be quit about it my husband get upset at me for talking about and he get angry 

i have to be ok

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Timber Wolf

Hi Alexx,

Please do see your doctor as soon as you can. Until then, here's a big HUG.

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf🐾

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Charlize

Glad to hear you are feeling better.   Please do see your doctor as soon as you can and please be as honest as you can be.  Enjoy your nieces in the meantime.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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