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telling my doctor today that I am trans... Nervous!

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jae bear

I have an appointment in less than two hours to meet with my doctor to tell him I identify as trans and that I have been on hormones for 8 or so months... I am so very nervous! I called the Oakland trans specialty department to see if that is the right approach as recommended to me by my therapist, and they did confirm this is the correct step... I hope I don't stammer through the meeting, I am feeling so very anxious, but I am also excited to get everything rolling along as well!

Nervous hugs,

Jae

 

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Jamie james

Good luck to you.         Stay confident and be who you are best😍😍😍😍

Let us know how your meeting went

🤞🤞

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Jennylynn

Good luck Jae! Thinking of you!

 

Hugs

Jenny

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Carolyn Marie

Best of luck to you, Jae.  I hope it went well.  I would be interested to know whether he has any experience with trans folk, and if he is supportive and interested in assisting you along the way.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

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BrandiBri

I hope that he is willing to work with your HRT doctor to ensure that you get the best care possible. 

 

Hugs,

Brandi

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bobbisue

     I wish you the best girl I hope it went well

 

     bobbisue:)

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MarcieMarie12

Good luck!!!

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Jocelyn

Hi Jae, hope your app. went well. I came out as trans to my Family last year. I go to a teaching med clinic so I see s different intern almost every time I have an app. It has definitely  got easier every time. Although I still feel slight anxiety just before I tell a male intern. I have had nothing but acceptance. I hope you get the same

hugs

Jocelyn 

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Charlize

It is always been a bit difficult to out myself to a doctor but as i've got serious health problems it has been important from the start.  ?I'm glad to hear you are going to be honest with your doctor.  It should go well but don't forget if things go south you can always find a new accepting doctor.

I changed my cardiologist for that reason.  His staff were quite supportive but he had an attitude that put me off.  My new cardiologist is great and i trust him to consider me as a whole person.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Briana

Hi Jae, I hope it went well.  I can feel your anxiety.  It's unfortunate that the people we trust with one of the most important things in our lives - our health, can be some of the most judgemental people we encounter.  Even though acceptance of all people is ingrained in training, it still happens.  It's hard for some people to separate personal feelings when delivering healthcare.  Like Charlize wrote, you can always get a new doc.

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Briana

One more thing...  It's always a good idea to make sure your primary care MD is aware of ALL medications you are on/any treatments you are receiving. 

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jae bear

Okay! Everything went really well! I really appreciate all the encouraging thoughts and words, everyone here helped me to get this far and point me in the right direction, I can not thank you all enough for this, it is changing my life in such a positive way! I went in for my appointment and was seen right away, I hate getting weighed, but I though I had kept a couple pounds off from being sick last month... whole lotta nope! After 228 rang up on the scale and I got my height measured I realize I have lost yet another half inch! Oh well, not too sad about that!:P  I was so nervous I made the medical assistant Leticia worried when my blood pressure was super high, I explained I was nervous and she started asking questions... soooo... I came out to her quietly right there in the hallway and she was so sweet and understood completely, she was just so very nice, she welcomed me to the girl club and took my blood pressure again, bingo! Blood pressure in range and good to go... I waited for the doctor, got nervous again, then a quiet knock on the door and here's the doctor. She sat down, asked why I scheduled an appointment and I came right out with it, told her about my prescription meds and non-prescription meds, how I identify and that I needed a referral to the specialist team, an endo and that I wanted to get to work scheduling my orchi. It all went very well and she was just as sweet as her lovely medical assistant, we talked a little and she was so very nice to me, I think I will be seeing her as my primary GP as long as she can work well with the specialist team (I think she said she and her department were part of the team). She also welcomed me to the club and asked what my preferred name is, I was so shocked, I love it when she calls me Jae! She also made sure to ask me about preferred pronouns and I am starting to very much enjoy being referred to as she or her, I never thought it would feel so good or matter so much but wow! So awesome! I can't wait to go to my follow up appointment with the specialist team, and I am excited to tell my therapist that I followed his instructions! I told my wife all about it last night and she was very supportive, as a medical person herself she wanted to be sure I was taking all the right steps and providing all the right information, and was interested about insurance coverage for my orchi and top surgery, such a sweetie, I love my Bunny so much! I finally feel like I can breathe again!

Huge Thank You Hug to All!

Jae

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Jennylynn

That is awesome Jae!!! I'm so glad it went well for you. 

 

Huge hugs,

Jenny

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SugarMagnolia

SOOooo happy for you, Jae. I remember how anxious I was coming out to my doctor and so I totally sympathize. I'm glad to hear that you had such a great experience and that your wife continues to be so supportive.

And preferred name and pronoun usage is wonderful to hear, isn't it?

Hugs,
Julie

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BrandiBri

I'm excited for you Jae. that first time you hear you name is Soo wonderful.:D

Lots of big hugs,

Brandi

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jae bear

You said it Brandi! I didn't think it would matter all that much, or at least not at first in the beginning process, but it was so awesome to hear my name and be refereed to as she or her! I know my doctor didn't have to make such a big deal about it, or go to the trouble of discussing my case to her medical assistant right there in front of me, but she did, and it was amazing! I can't believe it took me so long to finally find the single ounce of courage it took to join this forum, then all of you helped me fill my cup until I had enough courage to keep moving! There is simply no way I could have started on this journey alone, I am so very grateful!

Big Squishy Hugs!

Jae

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bobbisue

     Jae I am so glad you had such an awesome experience and that your wife is supportive it looks like you are on your way to becoming Jae Bunny 

 

     bobbisue:)

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Timber Wolf

Wow! That sounds so wonderful. Being called by our true name really does matter, doesn't it!

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf🐾

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tracy_j

Wonderful :)

 

Tracy x

 

 

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jae bear
14 hours ago, bobbisue said:

     Jae I am so glad you had such an awesome experience and that your wife is supportive it looks like you are on your way to becoming Jae Bunny

Oh my gosh! Big thank you's all around! I really feel like the world is starting to revolve in my direction! And I definitely feel like the day that Jae Bunny calls all the shots is finally within reach! Even if there will be a period of time when I am passing through on my way to a bunny as just Jae Rabbit... :P

Squishy Hugs!

Jae

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jae bear

I got my schedules confirmed for my endo appointment on Tuesday morning and trans team specialist on Monday morning! Yeah! I can't believe it was so easy! Why did I wait so long to do this for myself?! I was so worried about everything I let myself get in the way of my own self care, at least I'm starting to be more comfortable talking about myself to new people, I never thought I would be this person, but right now I feel really good! ( well that and it's girl sticker day and I just changed my stickers:P - always makes me happy! )

Big squishy hugs!

Jae

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Jamie james

Great for you. That makes me happy to hear.    I bet you have a perm-a-grin.  

LOVE IT

Jamie 🤗

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BrandiBri

Good for you!!!!:D

Hugs,

Brandi

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jae bear

 Yeah, I do kind a have a perma grin, I’ve been feeling pretty good about the way things are going, and talking with my wife on a regular basis helps a lot too. We share so many things together I’m a little worried that she’s not expressing herself or her feelings, but so far she’s been very open and willing to discuss everything with me. She was even checking out my complexion this morning, some of the old wrinkles are fading away for some reason, which is a good thing, and she wondered if it was the E affecting my skin or softening it in some way. I really want her to start seeing a therapist as well and I think we should also see a joint therapist that will talk to the both of us ,  I guess that will make a grand total of three therapists !

Squishy hugs,

Jae

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jae bear

I have seen my trans specialist and endocrinologist in the last couple days, and had to talk with both doctors and medical assistants and come out to them... I don't even think I was nervous this time! It was much easier and went really well, I talked with the medical assistants and doctors with relative ease, no stammering or  jitters. I went to the lab for some more blood work two days in a row and everything checked out well, the phlebotomist recognized me from the day before and whispered to her coworker "that's him, the one from yesterday" (she is not good at whispering), but it didn't bother me in the slightest, in fact I asked the coworker that was going to draw my blood if she saw many trans patients, she said "no, not often...", I reassured her she probably saw more than she realized... I am starting to feel more comfortable about things, it is a real change and I wonder why it took so long for me to get here? I really regret not coming to terms with myself years ago, but that can't be helped, I am here now and on the move!

Hugs,

Jae

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