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Jennifer T

In Red I Wait

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Jennifer T

"In Red I Wait"

 

In the water
Un-recognition stares back
Puzzled, searching
 
In red I wait
Beneath swelling clouds
Ominous, foreboding
She arrives
 
In familiar rhythmic silence
We dance
Trepid and anquished
Honor disturbed momentarily
 
Fealty
In streaks of red and blue
Corpulent silence
I am alone
 
“Are you angry?”
Aberrant, pensive
Issues parturient
As vultures to a kill..
 
“No.”
My only reply.
 
- Jennifer T,  May 9, 2003, reconstructed April 11, 2018.

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jae bear
On 4/11/2018 at 3:25 AM, Jennifer T said:

Corpulent silence

 

 I love this!!!  Minimalistic and raw, with intent and fire!

Hugs,

Jackie

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On June 12, 2018 at 2:02 AM, jae bear said:

 

 I love this!!!  Minimalistic and raw, with intent and fire!

Hugs,

Jackie

 

Thank you, Jackie. 

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 I’m totally going to steal that for casual conversation !

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