BACK TO AA

[Alex-John]

going back and forth to AA a lot over the last  few years not  really sticking to the program or really wanting to be involved in it  as i find speaking and reading scary  but am a grown man i should face this so i have been going to AA for the last 4 months  i have a sponsor who is a trans women  and we get on like a house on fire  i have been sober for 3 years , a week ago i OD'd because i learned that my mother abused me as a child  been getting flashbacks about for the last month or so  my mother i no longer talk to her or the rest of the family  because all my family are toxic  and i dont need that 

i am trying to stop myself from doing addictive things like self injuring or doing things  that make things hard for my husband caring for me my husband gave me money and i bought pain pills to od with he normally dont give me money but i had some that day worst thing ever  but now with help am trying to take charge of myself  with stopping addictive behaviours   i have had my dr  write to the gender clinic  about me wanting to become male  i have a long wait because its NHS and  it takes time like 2 1/2 years you must be under BMI 35  am 43 so i need to work on that 

but am eating healthy most of the time there are times when i have chcolate  but i need to watch that 

apart from that am looking positive  at most things 

[MaryEllen]

Hi Alexx, I'm very glad to hear that things are going in a positive way for you. Keep on doing what you're doing. You won't regret it and things will only get better.  Hopefully, one day, you'll be the man you want to be.

 

Hugs,

 

MaryEllen

[Charlize]

Thank you for sharing Alex.  I have found that my addiction was beyond my power to control.  I could be without alcohol(my final substance of addiction) for a short period but i always drank again because of my need and i used every excuse to give myself an excuse.  I am a member of AA and with the help of the steps i've managed to stay sober for some time now.  Please return to the rooms.  Be honest about what happened and get some help.  Reaching out before we hurt ourselves is important.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

[Timber Wolf]

Hi Alexx,

It's so good to hear from you again! Wow, 3 years sober! Yayyyyy!!!??? I don't know if the pain pill thing was before that or more recent, but you're trying and that's great! At AA meetings it's ok if you don't want to talk and just listen instead. I often just listen at AA meetings myself. I'm so glad you've found a good sponsor, and one who's transgender too. 

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf?