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MtF HRT - Today is Day 1


Michelle F

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Today I start MtF HRT. I am a bit nervous. A little fearful. In the past they (the shrinks) did their utmost best to denigerate, condemn and try to thoroughly convince me my thoughts and feelings were evil, misplaced and I must not go there.

 

All the reassurance I've gotten from peeps involved with the clinic is worthless one hour before appointment because of the past. 

 

I am walking in with head held high and doing my damndest to muster all the courage I have. 

 

My nails are done and hair is brushed! 

 

Here I go...

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Best wishes on starting your journey to womanhood in earnest.  Please don't hesitate to ask any questions (other than dosages) about the effects you feel or concerns that you have. :score:  :thumbsup:

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

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Best of luck, Michelle. Buckle in and enjoy the ride!

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Wow... Amazing day. Doc started me on spironolactone and finasteride. Then progesterone and estradiol(?). Not sure for the future.

 

My free testosterone is naturally low. Not sure what that means.

 

That said I was welcomed with warm smiles and open arms.

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Guest Rachel Gia

Sounds wonderful Michelle!

I hope you find the peace of mind that I and others have found o  this path.

Much Love

Rachel Gia

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On 5/17/2018 at 10:03 AM, Michelle F said:

I am walking in with head held high

That's the way to go Michelle!  Congratulations on this phase of your life.

 

Jani

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Thanks for your support. Everyone!?

 

So... I figured I would try something. 

I think this is going to be fun...?

I have a girlfriend that has been guiding me a little with shopping for clothes, nail polish and such. She left town a few days ago. I was sorting my laundry and found a pair of bell bottom old school hippie jeans... They are size 13. I figured not a chance. I tried them on anyway...

 

Oh My Freeking God!

 

They FIT!!! Loosely I might add...

check it out!

Michelle_MAY19_2018.jpg

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Now THAT pic makes me feel young and Totally confident! ?

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34 minutes ago, Michelle F said:

Now THAT pic makes me feel young and Totally confident! ?

And that is all that matters! Keep that positivity flowing Michelle!! You are a beautiful person

Kirsten 

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16 hours ago, Rachel Gia said:

Sounds wonderful Michelle!

I hope you find the peace of mind that I and others have found o  this path.

Much Love

Rachel Gia

Peace of mind, body and soul...

 

A bit of my backstory...

 

Here's the thing. 5 years ago in June, my mother passed away. This was not a bad thing. She lived a long and fruitful life. 14 years prior she suffered from macular degeneration. She called me and asked if I would come be her driver. Being an only child I couldn't refuse her so I quit my job, sold my chopper, packed my bass, keys and amp in with everything else my van could hold and moved back to Blaine, Washington to take care of Mom!

 

A year ago yesterday, May 18, 2018, I landed in Palm Springs, Ca... That was a Monday...

 

By the end of the day that Friday, I had my Health Insurance transferred from Humboldt Cty to Riverside Cty. Enrolled in the HEP C Program and had my initial, complete physical at the Desert Aids Project, Total care. 6 months later...

 

...on Thanksgiving Day my life changed. I carved 20 Turkeys the day before and since I was homeless as well, I decided to donate my time and service to help feed 276 seniors, homeless and Veterans... Here's where it gets weird..!

 

While I was serving the people someone stole my bicycle. Flatout just cut the lock and left it lay... Off my bike went...

 

Next day... The director that organized the feed told me to come back tomorrow they are going to give me another bike.

 

Saturday after Thanksgiving Day...

 

I go to get my bike. On the way I literally threw my hands in the air and out loud I nearly screamed, "This is it Lord! I'm done.! Do with me what thou will. Place me where I belong! I am DONE!!!"

 

I was distraught. I am talking total surrender. It was my intention to get the bike, find a park...

 

...sit on a bench till someone or something presented some direction. I'm done ! ! !

 

I walk in the donation center. I'm waiting to sign in and the Director taps me on my shoulder, I go to his office and he set me up with a cup of coffee. Then he said is going to give my partner and me a HOUSE that will pass HUD inspection. He is co-signing for a Mazda M6. My insurance and the Desert Aids Project Cured Me of HEP C and is covering my complete transition HRT and SRS!!!

 

 And to beat all I'm a size 12

 

BRB I'm gonna cry....

 

 

 

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Back... Whew. I'm an emotional wreck LoL.

 

So today, I am officially cured of HEP C. 

We are moving to our own place soon.

I am getting everything I ever asked for... God led me to this. No joke..!

 

6 months ago I gave it up to God and this in my life!

 

I get a second chance...

As a girl this time... Here come the tears again

 

Thanks everyone for all the kind words and gracious support.

 

I'll be around!

 

Michelle

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Michelle that is a wonderful tale of a life done well.   As it's been written by one of the sages of our time, "And in the end 
The love you take, 
Is equal to the love you make."  When you were down you gave it all and it was reciprocated.  Thank you for all you do and most importantly for being the person you are.  I'm glad you're here with us.  

 

Jani

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OMG what a wonderful story! And as you say, God was in it because of your faith and the fact that you had put your own needs aside for the sake of others. Kinda reminds me of Jesus and what He's all about, laying down Hs life for others. 

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Michelle, the old saying that what goes around comes around certainly rang true for you! What a beautiful story.

 

Hugs, Brandi

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I'm running out of tissue y'all!

 

I'm finding everyone'ss acceptance is making this really easy. I'm a loner by nature. PTSD has me so whacked in head the only way I can perform is with a guaranteed exit backstage...or the kitchen.

 

Group Hug... 

 

Michelle

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Michelle, you better buy a big supply of tissue! HRT does more than change your body, it can really work on you emotions as well. I don't go off the deep end as much as I once did, but I still cry over silly things or lmas off over things that aren't all that funny. I was a loner like you until I started on hormones. Now I want to talk to people, especially women.

You are in for a roller coaster ride, buckle up, hang on tight and enjoy the ride!?

 

Hugs,

Brandi

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Oh my gosh! I cry when watching movies now. And I'm not even on HRT. Sounds like I might be a wreck if I ever do go on HRT!?

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf?

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56 minutes ago, Timber Wolf said:

Oh my gosh! I cry when watching movies now. And I'm not even on HRT. Sounds like I might be a wreck if I ever do go on HRT!?

 

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Oh my dear sweet T-wolfie... Once you open that E door you will need to buy in bulk at Costco! I never purchased facial tissue before in my entire life, now in the last year I have gone through a couple dozen tissue boxes! Granted half of those have been in the last 10 or so days...

Hugs,

Jae

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On 5/22/2018 at 3:39 PM, jae bear said:

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Oh my dear sweet T-wolfie... Once you open that E door you will need to buy in bulk at Costco! I never purchased facial tissue before in my entire life, now in the last year I have gone through a couple dozen tissue boxes! Granted half of those have been in the last 10 or so days...

Hugs,

Jae

LoL... Today it's like "I'm  totally drained..."

 No energy at all... spino/finaster combo. That's gotta be it...

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On 5/22/2018 at 2:23 PM, Timber Wolf said:

Oh my gosh! I cry when watching movies now. And I'm not even on HRT. Sounds like I might be a wreck if I ever do go on HRT!?

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf?

I can't remember NOT crying during movies...

 

I even tried when Luke found out Darth Vader was his Dad and cut his hand off...

And when Lia told Han, Luke was her brother I had to stop the DVD. I was in a complete sobbing and gasping, emotional blubbering idiot...LoL

 

Oh yeah... And especially when Ron said Hermione's name when he was in hospital after the poison he drank at Prof. Slughorn's place...

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I go to the Courthouse to file for my DL gender/name change tomorrow.

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