Update on my situation

[Cindy Truheart]

It's been a while, as you can see from the other thread, I had surgery. I've also been tweaking meds. Ladies, if you are just starting out, I suggest you get educated, FAST! I didn't do that and I think it's the reason why things have been so difficult for me. You can't just get the highest dosages possible and think it's all good! E and T don't work that way. It's a delicate balance that you have to get right for your body, it's different for all of us!

 

So anyway. If you know me then you know I've been through some things, but I think that it's starting to finally turn around and STAY THERE! As I write this my ex-wife/roommate is getting ready for her first date in 15 years. I think she's finally done grieving over losing her husband and we're moving into being friends in reality. I'm overjoyed by this because I was beginning to worry that she would pine for the man she lost forever! But now I have some hope that one day she'll be happy again!

 

I've discovered much about myself as we often do when we transition. Not only am I a heterosexual woman, I've also discovered that I'm Demisexual, which is to say that I am on the Asexual spectrum. It kinda screwed with me a bit when I discovered that about myself. Like, I was fine being Transgender, but that was too much to handle? I know, but eventually I realized that I needed to re-frame things. So, I've decided that my radar is broken when it comes to sexual attraction, and I can work with that.

 

I'm not looking to date anyone though, I'm too busy concentrating on trying to live my life! I've enrolled in college and I'm majoring in Biology. My goal is to eventually get a Bachelor's so I can be either a Microbiologist or an Environmental Scientist! I'm still kinda pinching myself over that one... I mean, I've never taken Calculus and it's at the core of the thing! But I REALLY like the idea of helping preserve the planet or discovering cures for diseases, so I think it may be my passion. Besides, I can always change my mind if I find something else that I like more!

 

I'm starting to find my life filling up with people and things that are positive. Saturday I'm having friends over to the apartment for the first time since moving here over a year ago! I still have issues and problems, but my anxiety has lessened and I'm doing better around people I don't know very well. I'm still seeing my therapist and I think she is going to move me into working on other things not gender related now.

 

Oh! And I got my first letter, working on number 2, and I'm on the waiting list for surgery at Denver Health! I don't know when I'll get a date, but I qualify before the end of the year so I'd like to get it done ASAP since you can never tell what policy will change next with this government! I just hope that I don't have to come out of pocket for too much of it with the expense of going to college and all. Wish I had a Sugar Daddy.... maybe I should be dating?

[MarcieMarie12]

Glad to hear you are doing better. I wish my ex and I had stayed close friends but I don't think that was in the cards. We say Hi occasionally but that is about it. Congratulation on going back to school!

[MarcieMarie12]

Forgot to add, you look great!

[Cindy Truheart]

Thank you Marcie! I can't believe how much better I feel now!! I literally cried when they took off the bandages and I saw my puffy, bruised, and Bride of Frankenstein looking face because it was SO MUCH BETTER! I can only imagine how much better I'm going to feel after bottom surgery!!

[Jani]

Cindy I am so happy for you and that your situation has taken a turn for the better.  And for your wife too.   Do well in school.  We need more bright people to help save our planet.

 

1 hour ago, Cindy Truheart said:

You can't just get the highest dosages possible and think it's all good! E and T don't work that way. It's a delicate balance that you have to get right for your body, it's different for all of us!

Excellent observation, particularly for anyone new reading this.  I recall my endo saying a steady stream was more important than high quantity.  It's worked well for me.  

 

Jani

[tracy_j]

It's nice to hear good news from you Cindy.

 

Good luck with your studies and career.

 

Tracy

[Charlize]

It's lovely to see you again Cindy but even better to heart your doing so well.  

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

[Timber Wolf]

It sounds like some exciting things are starting to happen in your life, Cindy! I'm so glad things are looking up.

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf?