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Susan

hello all. well i got dressed up tonight and tried to put makeup on which didn't turn out good but it is my first time to. i honestly feel my inner self now and i am also just starting to want to come out but i am still afraid of what my coworker,friends and family would think. anyways i feel more and more like i should of beenfemale along. i welcome the comments.👍🙂             p.s iam not trying to rush things just saying how i feel.

 

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BrandiBri

Don't feel bad about the makeup, I occasionally email my first therapist and once when I told her about my attempts to put on makeup she replied that she had been doing it for 20 years and still couldn't do it right. I guess that is why they have makeup remover pads. Giggle.

We all have had that fear and it is normal. I waited until I retired to come out full time because I knew how my coworkers would react. But when I did come out to my family, I found that my fears were unfounded. All four of my kids accept and support my decision.

Take your time since transition is a marathon, not a race. Your heart will tell you when to take the next step.

Best wishes on your journey,

Brandi

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Susan

thank you and i was not trying to rush things however i know i need to find a therapist soon. the other day iwas depressed and my coworkers asked me about it.  i didnt wat to say anything  but i just wanteed to be alone.

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Charlize

Susan please don't worry about coming out yet.  It took me time to get somewhat comfortable with myself.  I made small trips into the world en femme to build confidence.  Each was an adventure. Each gave me more confidence.  I also found that over time i began to feel more comfortable which helped me accept myself.  Accepting oneself is often a path to being accepted by others including family.

Enjoy.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Amy LeBlanc

Hello Susan

 

Don't worry about coming out.  Just take your time coming out and do it when you feel comfortable.  Don't come out just because you have to or someone tells you to come out.  When you are ready, you will know.  

 

From my personal experience, I am came out pretty slow and came out to 1 person at a time.  Just relax and take it at your pase.

 

Lots of Love

 

Amy

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