Its all change change change here

[Cthorne]

So many things are going on now.

 

I'm Callum 100% of the time including at work (that was scary but it makes me feel so good! Except when my boss asks awkward questions in front of everyone and decides that I must have issues with my "downstairs" Her and a male co-worker were joking about certain parts of his body but anyway)

My whole family call me Callum 24/7  there are still a few mix ups but those that are finding it difficult call me CJ (Callum James)

I can finally bind!!(I only do it when I leave the house.) So happy altho I've noticed that it hurts when I take it off, I don't have any pain while wearing my binder, is this nomal?

I was very very very surprised but my family bought up the idea of us going to the pride parade... I wasn't even going to mention it but they said it looks interesting and have now decided we are going to two different ones. We're going to the one at the end of this month because a distant family member goes to the same one with her gay son, shes offered to show us around and then the second one is in the place we live very excited!! The whole family is going!! Even my brothers who were very "no no no" When I joked about it when I came out to them.

 

I just... I don't have the words... This is amazing and I find myself worried I'm going to wake up and its all a dream. I don't wanna get too used to it in case it all goes wrong or gets wrecked (I hope this makes sense)

 

I did have a very strange moment and I was just wondering if anyone gets what I mean or if I'm just imaging it but as I said Callum  mode 24/7 but last week I had to go back to my female clothing and its like all my awkwardness and hating myself came back, my confidence just faded away... I could feel myself not wanting to be a part of the world and I felt so down.... Does this make sense? Now I'm back to normal and I'm the life of the party again lol What a strange life I lead.

 

Any thoughts folks?

 

*happy contented sigh*

[Jani]

I'm glad your life is back to normal.  That is what we all seek.  Your family sounds as if they are really trying.  Good for them! 
 

Jani

[Kirsten]

I feel the same way when I am in male clothes. I am down to like 50 hours a week (gee I wonder why ??). And the worst is Monday mornings after a weekend of being normal. I can’t wait until I’m full time. 

So happy for you Callum! Enjoy your new life and the freedom to just be you. It’s the best thing in the world for sure!! 

❤️Kirsten 

[Cthorne]

I love how this is my normal now