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Hi everyone, Thank you for reading my self-introduction.

I know that no one is perfect. I try my best, however, I keep in mind that far not each and every GG looks like a model. Especially in the morning with no make up on. It helps not to stress when I see myself in the mirror. I actually love posing in front of a mirror/camera. We should not forget that even if someone is a beauty once, we are all aging. And it might be more depressing to see your beauty disappearing, when you are focused on looks only. I am fighting for the freedom to be myself. Being male or female is not a drama. Just do not tell me what to wear (unless you are my employer and you pay me for wearing your uniform). Speaking of an employer, I am seeking a workplace where it's possible to be  dressed the way I wish. I hope you can find my youtube channel and subscribe. I believe it might help me convince someone eventually to give me the jobs I seek (like a web-administrator or office all rounder).     

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Hello Ivanka,

Welcome to TransPulse. Thank you for sharing with us. :)

 

MaryEllen

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Welcome Ivanka.  Accepting what we see in the mirror is hard for both the cis and trans world.  

At least it seems a bit more like me now than it did when i hid behind a beard tryin g to be him.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Welcome Ivanka. Happy to know you are comfortable dressing in public.

 

Hugs,

Brandi

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Welcome Ivanka,

 

Thank you for the introduction and happy meeting you.  I’m glad you found us.

 

Adaline

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Hi Ivanka,

Welcome to TransPulse. I'm glad you've found us!

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf?

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Greetings Ivanka. I hope you find the job you want.

 

Jani

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Welcome to Trans Pulse, Ivanka.  I look forward to reading more of your posts.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

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Thanks everyone for warm welcome! :)

 

As to finding a job, I do not know. Australia seems to be a great country to live in. You are kind of free to be yourself. However, there seems to be double standards and hypocrisy -holy buckets- when it comes to employment. Let me describe a situation as an example. I see the job ad in the Priceline pharmacy round the corner from where I live. Dressed as a woman, I bring in my resume and discuss the job with a pharmacy assistant. Their manager appears shortly after.  The pharmacy assistant waves her hand inviting the manager to join us. The manager see me, makes the face and disappears. And I know I have no chance. That's only one example out of many. And I am crossing no lines with my looks. I do not look like a prostitute. I try to blend in. I've received many genuine compliments both from men and women who meet me on streets.

 

I've opened my youtube channel as addition argument to support my job applications. However, it's a bit disappointing here as well. I remember my previous attempt few years ago. 50 subscribers to my channel during a couple of weeks. It's only 20 this time for about the same period. May be I got older and less appealing :( And/or youtuners have watched too much of everything during this years, and it becomes more difficult to win the audience? I've ordered new wig and plan more videos when it arrives. I guess it will help. But may be not as much as expect. Another disappointment? I need at least 100 subscribers to sound more convincing I guess. I do not know. May be people simply do not need such videos any more.          

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I'm sorry you are going through this kind of discrimination Ivanka.  I am fortunate to be a self employed farmer in a quite accepting neighborhood.  Even so i can understand your feelings.  i know i would be angry and worried.  All i can offer is the advice to not give up.  Many here have faced similar discrimination.

 Often large companies have different policies so employment isn't based on the whim of a single manager.  You may also find help in a local GLBT group.  

 

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Charlize

Best of luck in your search.

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Local GLBTI groups focus mostly on providing safe environment for m2f. I do not seek "safe" environment. I am happy to interact with general public.

 

The discrimination described above would never take place openly. They will never admit it's happening. Hard to prove. Their answer would be like "it' not about your transgender status, it's because we received hundreds of applications and someone else proved to be more suitable on this occasion. However, you are more than welcome to try harder some other time in future. We never discriminate".

 

Why I do not feel rel support even here? Yes, you answer me with your best wishes,  however, it looks like no one wants to give me that little favour as to support my Ivanka Milova youtube channel. Would  that be too much to ask? I mean I am not asking for money. Just vote "yes" by subscribing to my youtube channel. Why not? 

 

   

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On 8/5/2018 at 4:04 PM, Ivanka said:

Would  that be too much to ask? I mean I am not asking for money. Just vote "yes" by subscribing to my youtube channel. Why not? 

 

Site rule #9 which has been in effect since the original site began covers your "Why not?

 

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Rule 9. You may not advertise good or services, ask for money, or otherwise solicit our members in any way. TransPulse does not accept paid advertising. Members who post advertisements, solicitations, or spam will be subject to an immediate ban from the site.

 

Even though you are not seeking money "votes" for site popularity benefit you in the ways at the heart of this rule.  I suppose in that way we are not the kind gentle and helpful place you are  seeking.

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