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And....it's not quite D-Day after all. ?

 

Got postponed until Monday due to some urgent customer interactions requiring executives to travel today and tomorrow. No worries, but sort of disappointing!

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Just now, Kirsten said:

I was just wondering how things went. I guess I’ll find out next week. :) 

As will I! At least I have something to look forward to on a Monday. ?

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Thanks, all. The meeting is in just over an hour. Giving myself a little mental pep-talk right now. Just stay poised, confident and upbeat and everyone else will take their cues from that, right? ?

 

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Well, that's over with. It went as well as it could have and we've already started changing email and other systems to use Julie as my name. The only question I got was , "why did you pick Julie?". ?

 

I'm sure there will be some issues, especially when my presentation changes on Wednesday, but it was as good a start as I could wish for. 

Thanks all for the encouragement! I'm glad to have completed this milestone ?

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Ahhh!  That was easy, wasn't it?  You're on your way and nothing could feel better.  There may be a few stumbles and odd looks when you come to work as yourself, but I don't think you'll notice.  Smile and be you.  Congratulations Julie! 

Jani

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"easy"...yes, I suppose overall that's true. The only part that was difficult was the few minutes in the meeting room feeling very much like a goldfish in a bowl being viewed by many observers. ?

But, for the most part everyone just wanted to get back to work and was glad that the meeting wasn't about layoffs or anything awful. As always, other people have much more important things to focus on than us. ?

Now, if I can only find something to wear on Wednesday!

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That’s great Julie! Tomorrow will be the big day. Good luck picking out an outfit. I know it takes me an hour every day and I only have like 30 pieces of clothing altogether! ??

 

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Congratulations Julie.  I found that getting used to being a "goldfish" was part of my early experiences as well.  Take heart you will just be a boring regular person soon.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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3 hours ago, Kirsten said:

That’s great Julie! Tomorrow will be the big day. Good luck picking out an outfit. I know it takes me an hour every day and I only have like 30 pieces of clothing altogether! ??

 

This is too true, Kirsten. Having a small wardrobe makes it much easier in some ways and also much harder. C'est la vie!

 

3 hours ago, Charlize said:

Congratulations Julie.  I found that getting used to being a "goldfish" was part of my early experiences as well.  Take heart you will just be a boring regular person soon.

I so aspire to boring. ?

Actually, I'm going to model myself after distressed jeans...not exactly as they were made but super comfortable and cute AF! 

 

2 hours ago, Briana said:

That's awesome.  I was really nervous for you. 

Thanks, Briana. It was good to have the online support knowing that people were thinking of me!

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D-Day + 1 is here. I'm in the office as me. Not surprisingly, it feels almost like being in the office on any other day. ?

It did take me a little longer to get ready as I was paying a little more attention to how I looked. Getting ready felt a bit like getting ready for the first day at a new job. My colleagues are definitely sneaking a peak as they come in the office and walk by, but it's all good!

Happy "Talk Like a Pirate Day!" ☠️

Julie

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Just now, SugarMagnolia said:

Happy "Talk Like a Pirate Day!" ☠️

Julie

Yar, the annual talk like a pirate day! That be the plan, but I darn well gonna haf ta be delicate in me wordin donchaknows! Yar! 

LOL 

Thanks for the update and the good laugh Julie, ya fine lady scallywag! 

Hugs & Smiles 

Julie J 

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My pirates always sound like Scotsmen! You'll have to give me lessons from one Julie to another. ?

 

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Hi Julie. Don't worry if your pirate voice sounds Scottish - some of my great, great, great, great Scottish relatives were pirates! Yar! LOL

 

More about my continuing D-Day... I was at my AA meeting this morning and told about 10 members of my home group that I am transgender and will be transitioning to Julie full time sometime in October. I was at my GA meeting tonight (Gamblers Anonymous) and disclosed that I am transgender to the entire group. Everyone at both groups were very accepting and supportive. Many were encouraging and I received a lot of hugs. I also got quite a few questions and no judgments. Pretty amazing day, all in all. I hope you are having a good day too? Good night. ??

Hugs & Smiles 

Julie J 

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Lmao!! I love the pirate talk!! ?? Julie J you missed ye callin! ?

 

So glad things were going well for you Julie. That first day at work is a doozie. Actually seems like the first couple weeks are. At least for me they were. I started wearing makeup to work this week. It was like starting all over again. Lots of scared men around me now. Lol. One guy this morning, who I’m not very fond of anyways, walked by me in the garage. I said hello. He put his head down and quickly walked past me mumbling hi as he did. It was nice. Well for me not him. Hahah. My point is have fun with it. Your life is starting anew. You get to be happy. Don’t waste your happy on other people’s whatever they have. And what flattery! So nice when people are sneaking peeks. ?. They must all like you. I know we all do. 

Hope the rest of your day and week are wonderful as well. 

Kirsten 

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@Julie J I'm glad to hear that everyone was accepting at your meetings. It's great when the support networks we rely on don't let us down!

@Kirsten Yeah, I've got one person that has sort of stopped acknowledging my existence, but he's the one I was worried about and in this case silence is a good sign. I'm hopeful that he'll come out of his shell as he observes my normal interactions with other people in the office interacting with me. He's a good person, but has a pretty narrow world view, so it will likely take him some time to adjust. Women who are powerful and know who they are scare many men, Kirsten, it might not just be the makeup!

 

Thanks all for the lovely thoughts. ❤️

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You are so sweet! ❤️❤️❤️ Thank you hun. ?

Sounds a bit like this guy too. 52 years old and never moved out of mommy and daddy’s house. He’s seriously a millionaire now. But still at home. He literally went to the supermarket for the first time about a year ago. Came into work the next day asking us if we knew how much food was in a market! Lol. Can’t make everyone see the light. But it’s can be fun to play with them in the dark too. ?

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OMG. I'm flabbergasted by that. He'd never been in a market? Are you sure he's not an alien in disguise?

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Haha right?! I thought the same thing! He was honestly amazed that there were more than 5 kinds of frozen pizzas! Lol. Apparently his whole life his mom did all the shopping and cooking. His dad has done all of the house and yard work. He has only left Massachusetts  a handful of times in his whole life as well. ??‍♀️

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