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I remember to. I have had mine done for I think three months now. I glove having them pierced. But Friday is my three month level check. I will make a post Friday with the results if I am allowed to. 

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Amy,

 

I do want to say, I love your hunter green dress. Where do you get your outfits, the photos you post are always of you well dressed. Also, I LOVE Sephora! When I went for my lessons on make-up, they were wonderful. Helped me shop and get the right stuff, even though it was pricey, I was in love. Now, when I go in, they always greet me by name! It is so nice. 

 

Hope you got your ears done! I love mine, in the next few weeks I will start changing them out!

 

  

Kylie

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Just now, NewLife336 said:

Amy,

 

I do want to say, I love your hunter green dress. Where do you get your outfits, the photos you post are always of you well dressed. Also, I LOVE Sephora! When I went for my lessons on make-up, they were wonderful. Helped me shop and get the right stuff, even though it was pricey, I was in love. Now, when I go in, they always greet me by name! It is so nice. 

 

Hope you got your ears done! I love mine, in the next few weeks I will start changing them out!

 

  

Kylie

Hello Kylie:

 

Thank You very much for the compliments.  I did get my ears done.  I have had them pierced for 2 weeks now and keeping them nice and clean with rotating them.  I got the hunter green dress and my maxi dress from an online store called Zafuls.  I have also been shopping at a store called Last Chance, Kohls, Forever21.

 

I just love Sephora as well.  I have learned so much from them and have gone to alot of their classes.  The store that I go to, all the sales and cosmetic personnel know me by name and they are use the correct pronouns.  They are pricey, but you are getting good quality products and the style of which looks good on you and for your completion.  I am happy that I have been getting laser as well and between the laser and the hormones, my face is all nice and smooth.

 

I am now been thinking on FFS.  When I see my Endocrinologist on the 13th, of November.  Want to ask about FFS,

 

Lots of Love

 

Amy 

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Amy,

 

I love it! I have been getting Laser on my face and legs as well, I am 2 treatments in and I must say I have noticed a huge difference in my hair growth since the 2nd treatment. I will check that site out. I have heard about them before.

 

I hope you're well!

 

Kylie

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On 9/27/2018 at 5:36 PM, Amy LeBlanc said:

Thank you all once again.  A big thank you to Sephora.  my dysphoria went from raging dragon to bucking branco.  So I am feeling better.  What does everyone think about my pictures?

 

Lots of Love

 

Amy

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I love your outfit and the way you picked those glasses for your hairdo. Very cute.

 

Is that a Zelda necklace?

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Amy, you look great!

 

Now find your Smile. Half your dysphoria will vanish when you can look at yourself with a smile. 

 

Cheer up girl! Life is Good!

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1 hour ago, RithiaAllen said:

I love your outfit and the way you picked those glasses for your hairdo. Very cute.

 

Is that a Zelda necklace?

Hello

 

Yes that is my Zelda necklace.  Thank you very much.  I have been smiling more.  But for some reason when I try to do selfie, I dont smile.  I need to work on that.  Then I have been working on my voice which has me excited.  I have been working on my voice with video recording me and I have also created a YouTube channel and have only made and posted 1 video.

 

I am at the end of my laser.  The place that I go to, wants me to not shave and see what it looks like to see about 1 treatment on electroys.

 

Lots of Love

 

Amy

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Just now, Amy LeBlanc said:

Hello

 

Yes that is my Zelda necklace.  Thank you very much.  I have been smiling more.  But for some reason when I try to do selfie, I dont smile.  I need to work on that.  Then I have been working on my voice which has me excited.  I have been working on my voice with video recording me and I have also created a YouTube channel and have only made and posted 1 video.

 

I am at the end of my laser.  The place that I go to, wants me to not shave and see what it looks like to see about 1 treatment on electroys.

 

Lots of Love

 

Amy

My guess is dysphoria of looking at the camera. I know this is hard and I struggle with this at times but look for the good and smile.

 

I love Zelda. I have it on my Switch and it’s great fun.

 

whats your YouTube channel I’ll listen to your voice and try to give the tips my voice trainer helped me with. Also it helps to do the daily warm up song to train in tone control.

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Hello All:

 

 

I thought I had my dysphoria under control with doing things to keep it under control like makeup and pictures, and pierced ears and getting all dolled up.  But today Nov. 25th 2018 my dysphoria is coming in like a dragon again and this time the nagging voice on telling me where is my correct stuff below the waist.  I really need it to look realistic down there and just dont like the way it looks.  I just want it to go away.  I want to get rid of it.  Why cant't it be gone now?

 

Lots of Love

 

Amy

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3 hours ago, Amy LeBlanc said:

Hello All:

 

 

I thought I had my dysphoria under control with doing things to keep it under control like makeup and pictures, and pierced ears and getting all dolled up.  But today Nov. 25th 2018 my dysphoria is coming in like a dragon again and this time the nagging voice on telling me where is my correct stuff below the waist.  I really need it to look realistic down there and just dont like the way it looks.  I just want it to go away.  I want to get rid of it.  Why cant't it be gone now?

 

Lots of Love

 

Amy

I’m assuming you mean gcs. Have you started preparing for it?

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Hello RithiaAllen

 

I do mean GCS.  I have not started preparing for that.  But I have started to prepare to go for a consolation for FFS.  I found a real awesome doctor/ surgeon who specializes in MtF surgery with everything from FFS to GCS and breast argumentation.  He has a wait list going on.  Alot of the lady's at my group I go to have been to this doctor and they just rave about him and his work.  I have seen some of it and it is just awesome.  He is the surgeon that even has other Transgender patients fly to PHX just for him.  So I do know that I have found a awesome doctor that is well known.

 

Lots of love 

 

Amy

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Just now, Amy LeBlanc said:

Hello RithiaAllen

 

I do mean GCS.  I have not started preparing for that.  But I have started to prepare to go for a consolation for FFS.  I found a real awesome doctor/ surgeon who specializes in MtF surgery with everything from FFS to GCS and breast argumentation.  He has a wait list going on.  Alot of the lady's at my group I go to have been to this doctor and they just rave about him and his work.  I have seen some of it and it is just awesome.  He is the surgeon that even has other Transgender patients fly to PHX just for him.  So I do know that I have found a awesome doctor that is well known.

 

Lots of love 

 

Amy

That’s great. While you’re getting the consultation for the FFS I’m sure you can work in a consultation for the GCS. Since it wouldn’t take any longer then the typical hour you might be able to discuss options for both procedures. Then you can work out a plan and take it one step at a time.

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