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3 hours ago, ShawnaLeigh said:

 It’s not going to be fun but oh well.  I NEED this surgery!  

 

Warning: the following is rated M for mushy. Sorry everyone else!

 

We're all rooting for you, babe. Things will go fine! I just wish I could be there afterward to take care of you! You know I'lll be there in our hearts! 

 

Love, 

 

Patti

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If you want to read Winter’s Grove - You have to search under “Grove” If you see Tessa. That’s my book. I love to write! Sometimes I think it’s all I really have to give to this world! 
 

It seems I’m always helping others but no one is there for me. When someone needs something I’m there. If you need a laugh or a shoulder to cry on or even someone just to listen I will be that for you. I’m not selfish with my time or heart. I will allow you to scream and cry. I will never judge you. Someone once told me I might be an Earth Angel. Angel’s are sent to specific people to help them and they rarely think of themselves. This describes me! Even my customers say that I have a sweet calming voice and I am almost always thought of as female over the phone. In fact one customer asked me if they could just talk. My trans daughter always will call me to let out her frustrations. I give my money and time away to help others in need. Just the other day a child at the lake was asking me to take his picture because he caught a fish. His mom was there and I would never do this without permission. Mom said no. The boy wanted someone to be proud of him. I was there for him. 
 

My Aunt was about to make a financial decision that was set up by a fraudster. I saved her 5,000 dollars! She let me live in her house for free a couple years ago. So, people do help me. I need to see the blessings in my life and take stock of them! 
 

Love to all

 

Tessa❤️

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41 minutes ago, Patti Anne said:

 

Warning: the following is rated M for mushy. Sorry everyone else!

 

We're all rooting for you, babe. Things will go fine! I just wish I could be there afterward to take care of you! You know I'lll be there in our hearts! 

 

Love, 

 

Patti

So sweet! 
 

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Hi,  sorry I’ve missed a few days.  Turns out the antihistamines I as prescribed has kept me out of it, dizzy, asleep confused for these last several days. I hope to start coming out of that as today is my last day on medications   
 

thanks for the good thoughts. I plan on talking to my doctor about getting an epinephrine pen or similar. Much faster acting than Benadryl and more potent.  Everything I’ve read indicated I was going n full blown anaphylaxis, I couldn’t even remember my doctors name or think clearly about anything by the time I got to his office.  Yes you should learn all you can about emergency response/first aid.

 

time for another nap.

 

Willow

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Well I had one of the pieces of info wrong.  My divorce was final on May 19th not June 19th!!!.  Crap I did not even know it and I'm still taking BS from now Ex.  LOL

Oh well its almost over and I get to drive way a cross country with my true love Patti Anne.

(I too do mushy-lol)

 

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27 minutes ago, ShawnaLeigh said:

Well I had one of the pieces of info wrong.  My divorce was final on May 19th not June 19th!!!.  Crap I did not even know it and I'm still taking BS from now Ex.  LOL

Oh well its almost over and I get to drive way a cross country with my true love Patti Anne.

(I too do mushy-lol)

 

 

Belated congratulations?

 

Not too much longer now. Make sure to do everything your doctor says to speed healing. You DON'T want to spend a lot of time sitting on a fresh wound in your undercarriage. Trust me on that one. I couldn't sit for WEEKS.

 

Hugs!

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My ex wife came up this afternoon,she was high.Came to visit my two daughters whom I had them with.My oldest noticed she smelled like pot,This is why I have full custody of my daughters because of her drug use.Called the cops and took her to jail,found marijauna and meth in her car too.

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Had a great day today my wife and I went shopping and ended up buying matching bicycles. I have always enjoyed riding but gave it up several years ago. We were trying to figure out more things to do together so we’re gonna take up cycling together. We did go for a short ride and now my bit hurts lol.

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14 hours ago, Mx.Drago said:

 

this is one reason why I divorced her,couldn't take it anymore.Tried to get help for her and would not go.She was violent near me with the PCP she did once.Did beat the crap out of me leaving a bruise on my right arm which I pressed charges.

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Mika, good that you got your daughters away from her. With both Pot and Meth. She is on the downward slide.

 

I can't stand that all these states are legalizing pot. It maybe legal in the state but still federally illegal. period end of story.

 

So Shawna you have been single for almost a week now. Congrats , My sister. Now once you get healed from your surgery you will be free to make the move. west.

 

Had to go up stairs to listen to some Seger. some songs I just need to hear to tell myself things will get better. Kind of decompress. thankfully work was slower today. we were able to get some of the incoming freight from Friday and Saturday put away. Then got home, put new wipers and a wiper arm on the wife's car. played a little minecraft.  We had breakfast for dinner. eggs bacon and waffles. However mine were cold. the wife must have made mine first not caring if I ate cold dinner or not. Sometimes I just wonder if she does crap like that to spite me. she drives me crazy sometimes.

 

Get to sleep in some tomorrow, as I close. closing an hour earlier with the holiday.

 

Take care everyone,

 

Kymmie

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7 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

 

Belated congratulations?

 

Not too much longer now. Make sure to do everything your doctor says to speed healing. You DON'T want to spend a lot of time sitting on a fresh wound in your undercarriage. Trust me on that one. I couldn't sit for WEEKS.

 

Hugs!

Well I have two weeks off. Better be good by then.  Then One week back to work then a week with Patti in Oregon. I can not wait!!!!!

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@ShawnaLeigh Sounds like fun filled month. I bet that week with Patti will be one of the best experiences of your life!

 

My wife and I met online in Aug. 1996 then we both flew to Sacramento and had 3 wonderful days in Jan. 1997 and it was THE BEST TIME EVER.

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I finally had my coffee and morning meditation. Another sleepless night. But wanted to congratulate @Shawna as well in the last post but forgot to. Got really sad for a bit, but we always look to a better tomorrow, asap.

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Hey beautiful people,

 

Today it’s suppose to rain all day. Only suppose to get up to 66. I’m a little sad today I don’t get to see my kids. Easter my ex took the kids to her boyfriends house and they had plans for Easter. My kids wanted to spend time with there dog that just had puppies. They were keeping the dog at his house. I gave up my holiday to her but did not make the arrangement that we would switch. I kinda thought it was just assumed. Well, It wasn’t. I told her in a nice civil text I would like kids today. She text back in an uncivil text that I gave up my holiday and I wasn’t going to take hers. Also my son wanted some food from Sonic. He told me mom said ok. He lied and she screamed at me for that. When we were married she would get mad at me if I took the kids to McDonald’s or got them junk food. Now 6 years later she still is trying to control me. I hate this! I talked with a help line through my work and she said no one controls you. It’s you that give them the control. Yes, I believe that but when a person owns the car they can take it away. She has full physical custody. My control is not getting angry with her and starting a fight. We fought in our marriage over things just like this. I refuse to engage in a fight with her because it always ends in court. I will miss my children this Holiday but now I know never to assume ever again. My ex doesn’t have a heart or care about me this is obvious and so sad?. It’s not that I want her to love me but I want her to respect my position. She doesn’t even respect me enough to call me Dad to them. She doesn’t know about Tessa but she does know about my female side and she also tells the children that I’m wrong and crazy for feeling that way and if I ever dress like a woman they are to call the police or her. I will stand strong and not let her get the best of me. I won’t beg and plead like she wants me to do. I did this in our marriage when she withheld sex from me just to be mean. I am not a dog and I won’t be treated like one. I’m s

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-Accidentally hit enter- 

 

I’m strong and beautiful and I won’t let anyone have control of my heart or body. The rain matches how I feel. ?. My mom invited me over at noon. I’m happy about that but I can’t be-fully Tessa over there. I will just have to try to make it through this day. 
 

Posted some chapters in my book. It’s a great story! I have submitted it into a contest to see if I can win 1,000.00 dollars! I once won a Big Wheel and third place in a poetry contest! 
 

Be safe. Have a wonderful day loves ! 
 

Tessa

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45 minutes ago, Tessa said:

My mom invited me over at noon

Good morning, Tessa!  have a great visit with your Mom❣️

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6 hours ago, Mx.Drago said:

Was she violent this time? Did she threaten you or the kids? I'm sorry she did that, and that she's that far gone, she obviously doesn't want to see her kids again, cuz if she wants to even be considered capable of being in the kids presence again, she needs to be clean, or face her rights to see her kids taken away, on top of a restraining order, and possibly being locked away longer, instead of being able to live and get better. Jail is for animals, not for people with reason that can be reached or found, and it's not easy, never is. But I hate people relying upon the drug war to just toss people away. If a person is violent, then get them on the violence part, not cuz they smelt like smoke. The smoke ain't what's killing but meth can kill people. It can drive you literally crazy with unprescribed use.

No,her family is on my side with this.Her family can't stand her drug use too.They know I am a great father leading a positive example to my two daughters

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27 minutes ago, MikaReich said:

No,her family is on my side with this.Her family can't stand her drug use too.They know I am a great father leading a positive example to my two daughters

Mind I ask why she used to begin with? I understand if it's too personal and I don't expect an answer, so no worries. I'm more glad your daughters are safe, but I still feel terrible for the circumstances, it's unfortunate. Hope your brightness keeps them more than well nurtured and safe.

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MikaReich i would suggest that you look into Nar-Anon which is a support group for the family of drug users other than alcoholics. They can be found at: 

nar-anon.org 

While we cannot get another sober we can help ourselves and others to get through the wreckage an addict leaves behind.

 

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Charlize

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Good morning everyone.  Hope everyone had a fabulous weekend, for those in the US, hope your Memorial Day long weekend continues to be great.

 

My wife and my dad both have severe allergies and carry an EPI pen with them at all times.  Just want to add to the discussion that if you ever administer EPI to someone, you still need to get them to a hospital/clinic immediately.  The injection is just to buy them enough time to get proper medical treatment, it is not a cure to their allergic reaction.  Once the drug wears off, there is a good chance the reaction could recur.

 

Have a great day everyone! Hugs!

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13 hours ago, KymmieL said:

So Shawna you have been single for almost a week now.

 

Single?

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Is there a secret to be revealed?

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4 hours ago, Tessa said:

Hey beautiful people,

 

Today it’s suppose to rain all day. Only suppose to get up to 66. I’m a little sad today I don’t get to see my kids. Easter my ex took the kids to her boyfriends house and they had plans for Easter. My kids wanted to spend time with there dog that just had puppies. They were keeping the dog at his house. I gave up my holiday to her but did not make the arrangement that we would switch. I kinda thought it was just assumed. Well, It wasn’t. I told her in a nice civil text I would like kids today. She text back in an uncivil text that I gave up my holiday and I wasn’t going to take hers. Also my son wanted some food from Sonic. He told me mom said ok. He lied and she screamed at me for that. When we were married she would get mad at me if I took the kids to McDonald’s or got them junk food. Now 6 years later she still is trying to control me. I hate this! I talked with a help line through my work and she said no one controls you. It’s you that give them the control. Yes, I believe that but when a person owns the car they can take it away. She has full physical custody. My control is not getting angry with her and starting a fight. We fought in our marriage over things just like this. I refuse to engage in a fight with her because it always ends in court. I will miss my children this Holiday but now I know never to assume ever again. My ex doesn’t have a heart or care about me this is obvious and so sad?. It’s not that I want her to love me but I want her to respect my position. She doesn’t even respect me enough to call me Dad to them. She doesn’t know about Tessa but she does know about my female side and she also tells the children that I’m wrong and crazy for feeling that way and if I ever dress like a woman they are to call the police or her. I will stand strong and not let her get the best of me. I won’t beg and plead like she wants me to do. I did this in our marriage when she withheld sex from me just to be mean. I am not a dog and I won’t be treated like one. I’m s

 

I know all of this is extremely emotionally painful for you, and I have read many variants of this same story many times over the years. Let me encourage you and everyone else to read [Just Lee's] recent blog posting. It is exceptionally insightful and I am sure everyone can gain the benefits from Lee's experience and find much that maybe helpful in their own lives. 

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