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I’m starting to stand up for myself in public. 
I have Starbucks near my house I go to on a semi-regular basis. I’ve been going there for about 10 years so they know me by my drink and never ask my name. Today turned out a little different. After I ordered they asked for a name. I said Elizabeth, the voice from the box replies see you sound the corner Jose. 😡😡😡..Jose?!?.not even close, not even remotely close to my dead name. I usually let this stuff go but not today. When I got to the window it was one of the regular cashiers. I asked her, did they just call me Jose? She said yes, sorry I’ll talk to her, she’s new. But because I had to push a little further I told her they need to listen better to their customers and showed her my work ID and said my name is Elizabeth and I would appreciate them getting it right from now on. 

my work ID is my first line of defense in these situations. It has my correct name, no address and always in easy reach. 

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Emily michelle

It’s ashame people act like that it is completely rude. That’s great you stood up for yourself. Hopefully someone explains to that person how rude that was and they change their tune.

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Good afternoon. I would have posted earlier. I stayed in bed to long this morning cuddling with momma. She and our youngest had a heck of a time getting home from Lincoln,NE.


First, They were on I-80 east of York. Hit a piece of Ice and took out the pass rear tire. And luckily put them in the median. They were passing a truck when it happened. They were able to get over on the shoulder. Had progressive come out and replace it. the service guy was awesome, he actually took the better tire from the front and put it on the rear. and the spare on the front. Problem solved. for now.


They ran into closed roads, so they hit the hwy. They decided to head to our middle sons. They hit a patch of ice and put them in the ditch. A local sheriff came by. they told him that they were getting a tow. Of course progressive kept hanging up on them. The sheriff came back around about 2 hours later. He gave them a ride to Oshkosh NE.


They got the last room available at the only motel in town. They called me. I had to put in the service call. They were told that no tow truck can be dispatched tonight because the roads where closed. (Total BS) so the cal was put on hold.  Yesterday morning they got a hold of t progressive and finally got the tow dispatched. But they needed a ride back to the car. They were able to call the sheriffs office and they were nice enough to take them back to the car. It took all of 5 min to get the car out.


Another problem solved. So they got back on I-80 at Sidney, NE. no problems so far. until they got past Cheyenne. They ran into some traffic. it took them 4 hours to get about 20 miles then sat for another hour and a half. before being able to get going home. Oh, then in the mean time. We lost power at about 7:45 and didn't come back on until a little after midnight.


So last night was cuddle time. plus it was -17 when I went into work at 5:30 this am.

I actually had a co-worker ask the origin of my name, Kymmbrill. I told him it was the more formal name for Kymmie. As of right now. I have worked with everybody. no problems. So working on my next step.



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Jackie C.

Wow @KymmieL, that sounds harrowing. I'm glad everyone is alright.



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Sheesh.   It's things like this that make me glad to be in NC.

Glad they got home okay.

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On my fourth cup of coffee so far, but I've been busy writing emails to potential therapists.  One small step for womankind...one giant leap for Ann W.


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@Ann W that's how I found my current therapist because I wanted to make sure she had gender issues experience... Unlike every?therapist I ever had. The others dealt with depression and panic attacks and anxiety but never wanted to talk gender. This time I found a woman who has and is REALLY helping. I wish you good fortune. A good therapist is so important.


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3 hours ago, Shay said:

A good therapist is so important.

Ain't that the truth. Mine is great. She has helped me so much.



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Oh thank you both.  I now have an initial phone consultation with a transgender specialist tomorrow at high noon.  Yikes!  Getting my notes all ready tonight.  Your right @Shay, I've had the other kind too.  She meant well, but wasn't equipped to handle me.


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@Ann W it is interesting that my last psychologist would treat depression and anxiety over 15 years and when I was self HRTing 5 years ago said it was ok to fantasize but on real. So when my GD roared back again and I searched for new therapist I found her in the same office. She is a recent associate and so I am going to same office. The good thing being I need 2 reference letters from therapists I get 2 for one in the same office.

I hope you like your new therapist. I interviewed 4 before finding a wonderful one right in my own backyard... Well not exactly in my backyard but a 5 minute drive. She used to work with students at Kenyon College near me and she also got me with Equitas health care for my HRT.

Good Luck and writing down your questions is a wise thing to do.


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10 hours ago, Ann W said:

Oh thank you both.  I now have an initial phone consultation with a transgender specialist tomorrow at high noon.  Yikes!  Getting my notes all ready tonight.  Your right @Shay, I've had the other kind too.  She meant well, but wasn't equipped to handle me.



Wow! Congrats, Ann!


My initial consultation isn't until monday :( So glad to have it though...and patience is a virtue I've always needed to work on anyway ;)

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@KymmieL wow what a harrowing experience for your wife and son.  At least know one was hurt in any of this. Losing power with those kind of temperatures is never a good thing. How’d your son stay warm?  Our dog trends to cuddle when she’s cold.  A 60 pound lab can put out a lot of heat.


@shay can’t say I had the luxury of interviewing therapist.  But I got lucky.  I hit it off with the first one I went to.  That is so important.  I’m seeing a psychologist via the internet right now.  She’s not as good in my opinion even though she has better credentials.


se la vi 



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Emily michelle

I’m not very exiting haha. Nothing happens when you quarantined.

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1 hour ago, ElizabethStar said:

@Emily michelleHow is quarantine going? Are you able to keep mentally occupied?

It’s very boring lol. The weather has been cold and raining so I can’t go outside either. I have been doing a bunch of cleaning around the house. Also I managed to pick out my thanksgiving outfit. I have also been working on my hair and makeup. I was quite happy, I use a bb cream instead of foundation. So I was putting way too much on apparently. And it bothered me on how it looked. So i tried to do it with hardly any and it turned out great. 

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I decided to print up a cat ear headband for spooky season.  


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@ElizabethStar is that a laser cutter?  Cute ears.


@Emily michelle generally less is more but you do have to color correct to hide the blueish grey that can show through from any facial hair.  Blend blend blend! Using a foundation brush.  And top it all off with a setting powder.





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Emily michelle

That’s really cool Elizabeth!


Hi Willow I don’t really use much concealer now mainly under my eyes. Once I started getting laser i stopped using orange concealer. I should try setting powder. I would also like to learn contouring. 

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I never got into laser cutting, it's 3d printing and not my design. My designs are usually a little more complex. Last summer I designed and built an exoskeleton (my 3rd version). It's powered or anything. More like a costume. The tricky parts were: every part had to fit within a 6inch cube (it made for quit the puzzle), all the joints are supported with metal BB's (for bearings) and some Velcro straps. No glue, no screws or any other foreign materials. I loved the engineering challenge.


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Does setting powder make that much of a difference?

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4 hours ago, ElizabethStar said:

I never got into laser cutting, it's 3d printing and not my design. My designs are usually a little more complex. Last summer I designed and built an exoskeleton (my 3rd version). It's powered or anything. More like a costume. The tricky parts were: every part had to fit within a 6inch cube (it made for quit the puzzle), all the joints are supported with metal BB's (for bearings) and some Velcro straps. No glue, no screws or any other foreign materials. I loved the engineering challenge.


Wow Elizabeth you have a lot of talent 

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@ElizabethStar that’s amazing.  You are very talented.


setting powder takes away the shine or wet look.  I don’t know much about blending but that’s what you use the soft dry brush for.  You can put on the setting powder and add highlights then use the brush to blend. I put a pink on my cheek bones the blend it up and out or out and up.  Just adds a little color and draws further attention to the eyes.  

you have to experiment and be willing to wash it off and start over.  



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5 hours ago, ElizabethStar said:

I loved the engineering challenge.

Wow! @ElizabethStarthat's cool. How did the Cat Ears headband turn out?


Oh by the way we're transitioning from drought to saturated flooding all in one day today. The coffee is from Black Rifle Coffee Co. and it's HOT, BLACK, and STRONG. I may even brew another pot for the wet afternoon.


Hugs for y'all,



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I agree,Liz you have some talent there.


Willow my son just covered up with blankets.


Well first day off. just going to relax. maybe tomorrow I will head to Cheyenne and hit up Ulta beauty. and see about some makeup.

Also today I have a phone interview with the Toyota dealer in Grants pass,OR.  I am not really sure what to do if a position is offered.


Things have been smooth with my wife and son. Do I want to flush 35yrs with my wife. I know that she is hypocritical and I have yet to call her on it.  I may do it Sat when my son goes to poker. I don't want him sticking his nose in.


I almost can anticipate what she is going to say, 'It is not the same.' Oh I think it is. In those cases, it was me accepting her as an alcoholic. and me staying with her. Please let me know if I maybe on the right track.


A balmy 20 degrees on the thermometer, right now. Better than the -17 a couple days ago.


Have a great day guy and girls.



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