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KymmieL

Good morning All. Coffees on.

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Ellora

Good morning, starting on my 2nd cup of coffee, while watching the TV Show "Bones." Its a comfortable &2 degrees outside, with a slight breeze. The train sounded off somewhere near Pacific Highway , and a plane just flew by on the way to Lindbergh Field. The crows have left the area, probably looking for breakfast somewhere. 

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Bananarama

Hihi!

 

This was my morning coffee yesterday:

 

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Today I'm quietly relaxing on my patio with my ipad and a cup of joe.

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Jani

Looking good! 

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KymmieL

Afternoon all, Just got home from my quick trip to MI. We actually made it quick ourselves. With the heat we decided to come home. We went to the long way home. Went through the UP. down the green bay over to Appleton then through Lacross stopped in Lincoln again with our oldest. Left this morning just before 7 and arrived home a little after one.

 

Actually got correct gendered last Thursday. We left my sons in Lincoln early. (Before getting trapped by our grandson) After putting up with nightmare traffic in Chicago. We knew it was going to be late getting in to the wife's fathers. So we stopped at a Baymont Hotel in Portage, MI. It was still early enough to hit the pool. So we changed into our swim suits. Me in my one piece with matching shorts. and a t-shirt.

We got in the pool, there was a couple young girls 9-11. They where wanting to race. Ones mom said, You two stay on this side let these ladies have the other side. 😊 one of the girls corrected her. She apologized a few times saying with the hair(long) and looked like I had boobs. 😁 😁. I didn't say a thing, I winked at my wife. It felt good.

 

Kymmie

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BrandiBri

It's been a long time since I have visited the forums and I am trying to catch up. Jackie, those pics on the 9th are fantastic! What a beautiful scene and a beautiful girl! Also, Bananarama you look lovely as well! Looks like you were having a great tim!

 

Hugs,

Brandi

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BrandiBri

Sorry, I meant "time!"

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KymmieL

Happy TGIF to most. My Friday isn't until next Tuesday.  A nice clear blue cloudy day. Sun is up so am I. Waiting on the coffee until after I hit the shower. Have a great day all.

 

Kymmie

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Jani

Didn't sleep at all last night, new meds (Argh).  At sunrise made coffee and had a small breakfast, read some news and laid down to give it a try.  I was able to catch a couple hours so I'm refreshed (like a daisy, Ha).  Off to run errands soon.  

 

Jani 

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Ellora

Good morning! About to start my second cup o coffee. It is a comfortable 70 degrees blue sky, for now. I’m in the east county, so the temperature will climb up to 93 degrees later in the day. But I will not be here when it reaches 93, I will be at my place where it will be around 84 later in the day. At that point I will probably head back here and crank the A/C, 😂

Im hanging out here a bit longer ,because I have an Amazon Fire Stick being shipped here, and it  is out for delivery. I had some tea and thongs arrive yesterday, one day delivery, I love that about amazon! I love the tea and thongs, but the peppermint tea is a bit pepperminty, so I think I will get the Spearmint tea next time. The thongs feel great, and I like the color assortment . Even tho I got a pack of 10, great price on amazon, I am already planning to buy more that I had been wanting to buy a while ago. I wanted to see how my thongs fit after everything settled down after my Orchie. I will be waiting for my cup size to increase before I buy a new bra, for now my nipples and buds are taking shape, but my breast size hasn’t increased  enough for me to buy a new bra yet. I’m ok with that since there’s is activity, and every little bit counts! 😊

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KymmieL

Evening all. just got home from my first Sunday close in forever it seems. Had dinner and now playing on here.

I have noticed that I am loosing weight. Lately I have worn a bra daily. Just being the girl I am. On Fri I wore one that I picked up a few years ago. It has always been tight on my until I wore it Friday. It fit comfortable. I have noticed that some previously tight cloths fitting better. Yeah.

 

Kymmie

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Charlize

Good morning.  Working my first cup and eating my oatmeal and blueberries.  it's a bit cooler here today.  Yesterday we got an early start working with the goat herd.  It got pretty hot by the time when we were done.  Today i'm hoping to either take down a couple of dead ash trees for firewood and or get the next load of hay in the barn.  Living on this farm keeps this gal busy.  Now for another cup

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Debra Michelle

Had a long day.Husband and I did go tow truck shopping this morning.Updating our fleet of tow trucks,getting a couple 2016 Kenworths and a 2019 medium duty Chevy.My 2nd toolbox,a Matco 6s came in the afternoon.I ended up firing one of our tow truck drivers,too many complaints on her and drinking on the job.Customer told us she was at the bar having a couple beers a few times.

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tracy_j

Just had my breakfast, usual cereals (with added seeds and spices) and coffee. It is a bit fresher here now than it was at the weekend. It hasn't been the heat that has been the issue though. A bit of a plague of flies on Sunday. That's the problem of heat and humidity in a place so green as it is at the moment. I can usually keep pace with the house so fresh and clean that they are not attracted in but sometimes!!! As the sun is out I will go out and get some exercise.

 

Tracy

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Charlize

Living on a farm with livestock we are not strangers to flies but screens and a well used flyswatter keeps the buzz at bay.  The occasional posker does bug us until my wife's service dog catches the bit of flying protein.  

I'm off today to bring home a couple of does to replace some we are culling this weekend.  Next weekend is the Eid El Adha.  That is a Muslim holliday celebrating Abraham's sacrifice of Issac.  Some of our animals will be sacrificed on the farm.  It is a sad time in some ways.  We are vegetarians but others do eat meat and these animals are treated with respect and kindness throughout their lives which is unfortunately not common with most meat animals.

Need a second cuppa.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Ellora

Good morning, afternoon and evening! On my second cup, and watching NYPD Blue. Used the weed wacker mowed and used the leaf blower early this morning before the plumber came over to look at one of the shower drains. Plus i was trying to beat the heat 🌞🔥. After the plumber I took the Mazda to Discount tire to have the air pressure checked, they do it for free, all low, ooops. Then I drove back and forth three times to a local car wash to make all the cars shiny. Then finally breakfast. The best part about breakfast, is that’s when I take my Lady Meds. It is a guava year to put me in a great mood no matter how busy I get or hot it might be outside. 

 

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lauraincolumbia

Good Morning all!  On my second cup of coffee, but need to jump in the shower, to go visit my mom who was moved from the hospital to a rehab facility.  Last week, she had fallen, and couldn't get up.  The hospital stabilized her fluids and got her on stuff to deal with an infection.    She will probably only be in rehab for a few days, before they send her home, and her house is in terrible shape.   

On Monday, I flew up to Massachusetts, to help out and get her house ready for her to go home, and hopefully get the process started for her moving into a retirement community.  

Sorry for the rambling post, but a lot going on in my head right now.    

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Ellora
Just now, lauraincolumbia said:

moved from the hospital to a rehab facility.

Sorry to hear about your mom, but good to hear she is progressing well. My mom had the same thing happen to her several years ago. And again several months ago. She does need to think about a retirement home as well. I hope all goes well with you and your mom. 

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Charlize

Sorry to hear about your Mom Laura.  I was fortunate to be able to be with both my parents until they died.  They lived in the house i grew up in and we had built a house nearby on the farm. Even so helping Dad get from the hospital to home was difficult but at the same time the time was rewarding as i look back now.

Hopefully everything will go smoothly for you.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Debra Michelle

Found out my 1969 Dodge Charger is done and had to check it out this morning.I love it,a General Lee tribute car.Grew up watching The Dukes Of Hazard with my dad.I always wanted my own General Lee

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Kirsten

@lauraincolumbia I may be close enough to you to get a bite if you need a break or whatever. Feel free to message me. 💛

Sorry about your mom. 

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Jani

Yes @lauraincolumbia let me know too.  I may to close.

 

Jani

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Debra Michelle

I also got news that I have breast cancer this morning,left breast.Doctor told me it was caught early

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Ellora

Good afternoon, evening, I made another cup of coffee cause why not? 😂 Also made an early dinner, rotisserie chicken, steamed green beans, steamed carrots, and some Quinoa, yum!  Watching my Lady figure. I need to start working out again so I can work on my legs, glutes and stomach. 

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Jani

Debra I'm sorry to here this.  Since it is early the treatment shouldn't be too bad.  My partner had it.  A quick surgery, chemo for bit then a few radiation sessions. She's well.  I had cancer too.  

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Charlize

I'm sorry Debra.  i'm glad you caught it early.  Dr. McGinns office did a lesson on self examination before i even started HRT.  

With any luck you should be fine.  Please keep us informed.  We're here to help as we can.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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