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Debra Michelle

In the process of adopting Meghan too.My son Tyler met Meghan,good to her.My other son Aaron knows getting to meeting her in 5 weeks.Aaron is in the Marines,gets out doing 6 years.

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KymmieL

50 pages of no drama, Yeah. Let's keep this thread going as we have just us being us and sharing our little corner of the world.

 

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Charlize

Debra it is lovely that you are doing this.  You are getting an ally as well as a daughter.

A blessing!

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Jani

You and your husband are so sweet Debra!  I'm sure you'll all be happy and reap many benefits.

 

Good morning Kymmie!!

 

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KymmieL

Debra, I think what you are doing with Meghan is fantastic. Providing a stable, loving and accepting home for her.

 

Kymmie

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Debra Michelle

My husband and I see Meghan with a better life now.My husband and I bought an auto salvage yard out yesterday.Owner knows us very well.

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KymmieL

Well the holiday weekend is upon us here in the states. Unfortunately most people look at it as a time to raise cain, as with most holidays anymore. People just hink of it as time off for them not the real reason. Sad.

 

Kymmie

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Josie Beth

I’m going to enjoy the holiday by trying to relax and get away from the crazies. It’s a much needed 3 day weekend and then back to work. Not many people realize that the holiday was a way to commemorate the labor unions and give them a day to celebrate. Now it’s just a day to get sloshed or remember that white shoes are not fashionable through the rest of the year. So I’d better not get out my white canvas sneakers this weekend while I’m drinking boxed wine. Who am I kidding. I can’t even afford a discount six pack!?! Well, guess it’s a salad and some YouTube for me. 

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Ellora
3 hours ago, Josie Beth said:

Now it’s just a day to get sloshed 

Isn’t every holiday just an excuse to get sloshed? 😂 Almost every holiday has some drinking involved, or it’s a money pit. 😂 

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tracy_j

I presume from what Josie said your holiday is labor day, which I remember from wayback but here, for some reason, it ended up as May Day bank holiday which has always given me the picture of endless tanks rolling through Red Square, Moscow, round the block and past again to show endless might lol. I am not sure of its reasoning here. Our August bank holiday has just past. A good excuse to not go anywhere and get locked in gridlock on the roads lol. Have a lovely holiday everyone!

 

Tracy

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Charlize

The traffic was nuts last night on the way to the library.  I'll be home this weekend, caring for goats and cutting firewood.  No drinking for this gal but i may get a "kick" by taking the '67 BMW motor cycle out for a ride.  I finally found how to keep my wig on when i take my helmet off.  I wear a long silk scarf around my head and tied under my chin.  Looks great and no awkward bald flashes.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Jani

You got it Charlize!  What fun!  I can picture you now, just like Hepburn.

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Jani

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Josie Beth
12 hours ago, tracy_j said:

I presume from what Josie said your holiday is labor day, which I remember from wayback but here, for some reason, it ended up as May Day bank holiday which has always given me the picture of endless tanks rolling through Red Square, Moscow, round the block and past again to show endless might lol. I am not sure of its reasoning here. Our August bank holiday has just past. A good excuse to not go anywhere and get locked in gridlock on the roads lol. Have a lovely holiday everyone!

 

Tracy

 It’s similar to May Day but it’s not really the same thing. I also have the same image of tanks rolling through red square and parades but it doesn’t seem to have the same connotation now as it did in the 80s. I watched the last one and it was a happier event than when the communist party was running things. It used to be a bunch of serious somber blank faces clapping like it was mandatory with all the enthusiasm of a bunch of soulless clones. Now people wave and cheer because their relatives are in the parade. They also changed the words to many of the songs to reflect a much less political message and a more ethnic flavor. It’s no wonder that people enjoy the parade more than back then. They are allowed to. I personally don’t buy into the propaganda that they only changed the names of things but the communists are still in control. It’s just not the same vibe. Every country is trying to find their way into a better tomorrow. Sure, many are making mistakes but there’s also many that are learning from their past instead of repeating them. Sometimes the nonsense we hear is to distract us from what we have to work on in our own cultures. 

 

But enough musing. I’m home after spending half the day going to the phone repair shop to get a new battery installed and it was a good thing I did because the battery was bulging so bad that the screen was warped. Luckily I caught it early because if I had waited it might have been damaged. Once the new battery was inside, the screen went back to normal again and lays flat like it’s supposed to. It’s also missing a discoloration it had on the left edge. I’m guessing that was where the bulge was pushing the most because that’s the side where the battery is. It lasted about a year before it went bad. Hopefully it will last longer this time. The tech told me typically 6 months is the maximum lifetime. I went twice as long as expected. I’m not really worried though because eventually I really want to get a one plus 5t or 6t because it’s got a charge life of 2-4 days. So this phone will be fine until I can scrape the money together for a better one.

 

 I’m happily binging Farscape and it’s a great throwback to early 2000s sci fi. Maybe I’ll break things up by hunting around for a Halloween costume? I have 2 months to get ready for it.! I’m going to try getting things that I can also wear even after it’s over. October is also pride month here so maybe I’ll have a somewhat Halloween theme for that as well. I thought maybe it was because they were using the opportunity to wear costumes for pride but it turns out they changed it to October to avoid conflict with Juneteenth here. That’s a very huge tradition for African Americans everywhere in the south afaik.

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Debra Michelle

Busy day,auctioned off 30 cars at our towing yard this morning.Had one problem,3 bidders running up bids for no reason at all.Booted them out telling them not come back.Did go shopping with my mom too,bought a couple dresses and 3 pairs of heels.Mom knows I love shoes.

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Jani
49 minutes ago, Debra Michelle said:

Mom knows I love shoes.

Who doesn't love shoes?    Good for you!
 

Jani

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Charlize
12 hours ago, Jani said:

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If only i good look 1/2 as cute......Maybe on the Vespa?

 

Wow you were busy Debra.  30 cars is amazing.  Hopefully it paid for some lovely shoes and new outfits.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

 

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Debra Michelle
26 minutes ago, Charlize said:

If only i good look 1/2 as cute......Maybe on the Vespa?

 

Wow you were busy Debra.  30 cars is amazing.  Hopefully it paid for some lovely shoes and new outfits.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

 

Goes into our towing yard business and court gets a chunk.10 of the cars were seized by court,drug cases,

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Cyndee
On 8/31/2019 at 6:51 AM, Jani said:

You got it Charlize!  What fun!  I can picture you now, just like Hepburn.

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Jani

 

 

That's cute Jani :) I hope you had a nice ride Charlize, sounds wonderful on the beamer :)

 

To our friends here in the US have a great holiday today (labor day)

 

C -

 

 

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Debra Michelle

It will be exciting this week,our 4th wedding anniversary on Thursday .Getting a 2019 Ram 1500 4x4 from my husband as a gift.

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Jani

What a beautiful vista Cyndee.  We spent yesterday in Portland, ME.  We had a nice (late) lunch then roamed around the shops.  So much fun.  Then we topped it off with gelato before heading home!   

 

Congratulations Debra.  That sounds like a nice truck.

 

Jani

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Ellora

Incredible photos @Cyndee!

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KymmieL

Able to finally have a holiday off. even if it is one day. Me and the wife are going out for a ride some were today. Just enjoying the time out together.

 

Kymmie

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Debra Michelle
5 hours ago, Jani said:

What a beautiful vista Cyndee.  We spent yesterday in Portland, ME.  We had a nice (late) lunch then roamed around the shops.  So much fun.  Then we topped it off with gelato before heading home!   

 

Congratulations Debra.  That sounds like a nice truck.

 

Jani

Going to be the limited with a 6.5 foot box

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Josie Beth

Lovely view. I haven’t been to those mountains in many years. The last time was in the early 2000s. I’m definitely going to have to do it again sometime.

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Cyndee
On 9/2/2019 at 8:09 AM, Jani said:

What a beautiful vista Cyndee.  We spent yesterday in Portland, ME.  We had a nice (late) lunch then roamed around the shops.  So much fun.  Then we topped it off with gelato before heading home!   

 

 

@Jani - that sounds like a very enjoyable trip, Portland, ME looks like a very scenic place. 

 

@Ellora - thanks ! I hope you have a wonderful day in paradise :) 
 

@Josie Beth - Hope you get a chance to come out this way again. 

 

Have a great day all

 

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