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I think I might be intersex

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Arya

I think I am an intersex trans girl. As I have already posted about my gender identity, I am not going to explain how I knew I was a girl. If you want to know, you can read my intro. When I was very small, I have heard my parents telling my relatives about my birth story. They used to say that no one told them whether they had a boy or a girl. The doctors just asked my father to check it himself. My mother was told later by my aunt to whom my father told that I was a boy. I also read my mother's pregnancy reports. It is not legal in India to tell the gender of the unborn child. But I found something written by pen- XX XY and the rules of sex determination in humans. I asked my father if he had ever asked the doctor about my gender when I was not born. But he denied. I also had to use a cream in the genital area because I had some skin problem that has ended after 2 years. I also have a lot of pain in my scrotum time to time. I also sometimes feel the pain when I have an erection. It feels very bad for me to see my genitals because I want to be a girl. But, I think I should talk about it openly. So, I have mentioned these things. Please someone tell me of they had a similar condition. How to find out? I think my parents might have no idea about this.. But, who knows?

 

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Michelle F

I feel you...

I went back and reviewed a paternal DNA test that was done in early 90s. It revealed I have all 4 of the human genes. XX/XY

 

That said, I now realize this is why I feel so girly. It explains so much. I wish my Mother was still alive. I have so many questions only she can answer.

 

You have to follow your heart. It's not easy but, like in my case, I stand only here with my sisters. Y'all have helped make my transition seamless. The rollercoaster is now just a track running on level ground. I don't have the massive mood swings anymore. HRT is working. My hormone intake is that of a 55 year old, post menopausal woman. I was speaking to a Lyft driver yesterday. She is 57. She had her hysterectomy 2 years ago and her dosages have balanced her out and she claims since her last dosage adjustment she has not had a single mood swing and is enjoying life. My dosage level is identical to hers and I concur.

 

I feel fine.

 

Get a doctor that gets it. Go to therapy and above all else...

 

...be honest with yourself.

 

There's no doubt! No doubt!!!

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Arya
Just now, Michelle F said:

I feel you...

I went back and reviewed a paternal DNA test that was done in early 90s. It revealed I have all 4 of the human genes. XX/XY

 

That said, I now realize this is why I feel so girly. It explains so much. I wish my Mother was still alive. I have so many questions only she can answer.

 

You have to follow your heart. It's not easy but, like in my case, I stand only here with my sisters. Y'all have helped make my transition seamless. The rollercoaster is now just a track running on level ground. I don't have the massive mood swings anymore. HRT is working. My hormone intake is that of a 55 year old, post menopausal woman. I was speaking to a Lyft driver yesterday. She is 57. She had her hysterectomy 2 years ago and her dosages have balanced her out and she claims since her last dosage adjustment she has not had a single mood swing and is enjoying life. My dosage level is identical to hers and I concur.

 

I feel fine.

 

Get a doctor that gets it. Go to therapy and above all else...

 

...be honest with yourself.

 

There's no doubt! No doubt!!!

But I am just 15 years old. I can't meet a doctor without my parents' consent.That's very bad for me.

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VickySGV

Since you do not know the exact cause of pain in your body, you should see a doctor and let them decide what causes it.  Tell your parents about the PAIN, but not about what YOU suspect it could be.  A parent does not want their child in pain, I have not with my children who are now in their 40's.  This may be the best you can do until you get to the age where you can see a doctor without their consent. 

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11 minutes ago, VickySGV said:

Since you do not know the exact cause of pain in your body, you should see a doctor and let them decide what causes it.  Tell your parents about the PAIN, but not about what YOU suspect it could be.  A parent does not want their child in pain, I have not with my children who are now in their 40's.  This may be the best you can do until you get to the age where you can see a doctor without their consent. 

Oh, that's a great idea! I would go with it. Thanks.

Hugs,

Arya

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Jani

Arya you will most likely need a genetic test to prove if you're intersex.  I'm not a doctor but from my reading it seems you may be correct.  Unfortunately you will have to wait until you are older and on your own to get a test.  While its nice to know, not knowing shouldn't hold back any steps you wish to take.  

 

Cheers,

Jani

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Arya

Thanks for the suggestions, @Jani 

But it's hard to wait because of the dysphoria I feel after looking at my body. I have excessive body hair more than my father and brother but fortunately I have less facial hair at the moment. But, I fear that they will get darker which will make me go into depression. Though I am happy as I think I might have started a feminising puberty a year ago but I want the male part to go away. I feel like I have OT-DSD which means I have ambiguous gonads inside. The hospital where I was born hid my sex from my parents until they were asked to look at my genitals themselves. The pain and scars which have started developing again solidify my hypothesis. I have also started getting spontaneous discharges from my genitals and burning pain (not arousal fluids, but something like vaginal discharge). By my calculations, I hope to start getting my period in 2 years.

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