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Never mixed my CDing with alcohol

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Terri

I have been going the sober route on my own for the last 3 years after decades of binge drinking. Today no alcohol, but some occasional CBD/THC.  I have been lucky given all the times I was behind the wheel drunk.  Between my health issues and the fear of doing major damage to some innocent person I stopped.  Throughout the years I have been a very closeted cross dresser, but I always avoided alcohol when dressing.  This was my way of keeping it "real", and preventing myself from having any delusions about my feminine desires and owning it.  However, I think drinking was keeping my dysphoria in check.  When I stopped, my dysphoria and anxiety went through the roof.  It set off a period of risky behavior of being out in public and hooking up with men.  I've settled down, but wow, I am feeling very TG and attracted to men beyond what I used to think I was keeping real. I should have recognized and accepted this a long time ago.  I have avoided AA, but learning here that there are some TG friendly meetings I think I need to give that a try.  Thank you all for sharing here.

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VickySGV

I began CDing on my first session of sobriety that lasted about 16 years and for the first few years (about 12) the CDing kept my alcohol abuse under control.  I never drank while dressed in those days or for that matter, at any time, but in MY case the CDing made me think I had conquered the alcohol (cunning stuff), but that lead me to realize I was not a CD and I was angry and afraid of going forward and hated my HP at that time because I knew I had to fully Transition, so back came the booze to wipe out the intensifying Gender Dysphoria.  The worst that can happen to you by joining an AA group is that you will meet a lot of sober people who deal with life without the drugs of choice.  I am a member of two groups that were a bit surprised that I was Trans but have come to fully accept me as just another recovering drunk, the can dig the drunk and that is enough.

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Charlize

When i first got sober i had an AA sponsor who was a devout Catholic.  Perhaps because of that i stopped dressing and going out to clubs for almost 3 years.  I went to a women's meeting as myself while on a business trip.  The topic of the meeting was honesty and that really hit me.  I started going to GLB meetings one of which is now almost 50% trans now.  I've found a loving supportive fellowship that not only supports my sobriety but accepts me as a person like any other.

Well worth a try!

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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