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Michelle F

December 27, 2017

 

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Michelle F

February 7, 2018

 

 

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Michelle F

December 2, 2018

 

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Michelle F

These three pictures are 20 days short of one year...

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Leo

Hey Michelle, you look 20 years younger, and 20 years happier, now!

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Michelle F

Isn't that crazy. I'm an only child... But I look like my younger sister.

 

Stunning revelation... Is that the estrace?

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Jani

I would say partially yes, the other part is your emotional state which is much better now!  

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Michelle F

Yesterday...

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Susan R

Nice photo, Michelle.  Love your knitted cap. Very cute! 🙂

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Jani

Yes very cute! 

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SaraAW

I agree, adorable cap and what a beautiful smile. 

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Michelle F

A homeless lady knitted the cap. She said she had me in mind when she chose the colors...

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Michelle F

Actually I was wrong. The cap came from one of the local church knitting groups

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Michelle F

20190129_072836_crop_639x1010.thumb.jpg.8711e3266fb2680cc2b9f2c3a899ec3d.jpgI met my Top surgeon a couple days ago. Psych eval and HRT report letters are being FAX'd today. Will be setting up second appt today as well...

 

It has begun!!!

 

I am sooo excited!!!😊🎉🌈

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Cyndee

Getting closer Michelle, it's exciting for sure, and may the appointment go well. Nice hair :)

 

Hugs

 

Cyndee -

 

 

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Michelle F

I was just reading the actual order. 

 

Breast Augmentation with tummy tuck and waist accentuation...

 

Wow! Cool... 😋

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Susan R

This is wonderful news, Michelle.  All the pieces of the puzzle are falling into place.  I have to agree with Cyndee...your hair is gorgeous! 😃

 

Susan R🌷

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SaraAW

That is really great news Michelle!  I am so happy for you. 

 

*hugs*

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Michelle F

Thanks everyone...

 

I Must admit... It's about overwhelming....

 

I've been on HRT less than a year... April 26 was first spiro/finasteride/ progesterone dose...

 

Two weeks later the progesterone was discontinued and Esterace was intro'd...

 

Now I am referred to as "Miss Michelle" as opposed to "Mr Frampton"...

 

BTW... For future reference.. 

 

Had I squirted out as a girl, my mother, God Bless Her beautiful spirit, was going to name me Michelle...i got Michael... Chit happens!!!

 

So... I am waiting to hear from my 'Surgeon' to set date for...

 

Breast Augmentation with additional Tummy Tuck, as per related to Feminization procedure, including narrowing of wiast and tightening of inner-thigh epidurmals...

 

Oh My F...ing Gawd!

 

Top Surgery w/Tummy Tuck paid for per Existing Insurance...

 

Can I say WOW?

 

-what the heck- ?!?!!!

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Jani
4 hours ago, Michelle F said:

I Must admit... It's about overwhelming....

Yes it can be as we accelerate towards the goal.  But keep things in perspective and you'll be fine.   One day at a time!

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Michelle F

Looks like my Surg date will be end of May or the beginning of June...

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Michelle F

I just received my referral for my second psych eval letter required for FFS, Top and Bottom Surg evaluations. My one HRT requirements will be met on April 26.

 

I am getting excited now!

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Michelle F

So... My Therapist and I (mostly me doing the talking) realized that, due to HRT, my breasts are forming as though puberty is in full progress. I am firmly in at 40 A cup! I have nicely formed 12-14 year old breasts. Both tender and visibly growing. So we decided to wait for the full 2-3 years on HRT and then see how my breasts have formed naturally!

 

He is talking to my PCP and has started the order for full FFS first and placing me on the Bottom Surg list. Once that FFS is healed bottom is next. Fortunately the waiting lists here are not that long... So we'll see. I am not going to rush this. 

 

My Therapist has done his due diligence and I've calmed down considerably. Onward and upward!

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Michelle F

Ok... Two week update.

 

I Just met my Psychiatrist today. I weighed in at 183.4 pounds. BP 115/79...

 

She asked me a kazillion questions and concluded I have major depression with gender dysphoria and was prescribed Zoloft... Who knew!

Anyway this was taken earliier Spa Casino Buffet, Palm Springs is what I am still wearing. 

 

I will be getting my third and final letter of recommendation for all Feminization surgeries beginning with FFS then bottom. Gonna let nature take its course with my breasts as they are growing exponentially.

 

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Michelle F

Actually that was taken last night at our room at Desert Hot Springs Spa. I am still in same dress...

LoL

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