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MaryMary

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I'm an apocalypse
Grim chaos and heart
Head blown, shreads appart,
Let me assemble the parts
And read on my lips :

" ... "

I was built and I was destroyed
A slave on the altar of a normality cult
An enclave for your measly abuse
A safe, even for a buse
For my humanity is now void
Rebuilt and improvised
Like truth from a tomb
Like a woman painted on the walls of her womb
By an artist that would invent realities
A dead soul carved of fatalities
A fertile soil for my growing lilies

I'm an apocalypse
Dim host of wirms and body parts
Belly blown, flowers, insects and maggots
Let me rest and rot

Read on my lips :

"Hello world"

Reborn
Was bombed and scorned
Am alone but free
Reimagined, simpler
Authentic
Me

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Tessa

That is a deep poem.  When I read it it’s like a war in your soul is going on. It makes me want to first cry then shout for victory!  In the end you built your own world and now you can do what you want with it! Great poem.

 

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