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Hellothere

A place of peace

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Hellothere

Inhale the air

For once life seems fair

Up on this mountain 

Where there is no doubting 

 

Looking away

Started on the highway

On the way to this peaceful place

Where im not a disgrace 

 

Mirrors dont bother me

Its not what i dont see

It the beauty 

As If accepting is my duty

 

This cabin

All i hear is laughing

I know who i am

I wont make my joy scram

 

My personality 

And sexuality 

My gender

Taken out of the blender

 

That creates me

And everything i want to be

In this peaceful place

The worlds saving grace

 

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Donna Lynne

That creates us

And everything we want to be

In this peaceful place

The worlds saving grace

 

Your words inspire

And create peace in place of air

In a world that needs

What we have to offer

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Tessa

I just finished watching ‘Mountain Between Us’ So it’s interesting I would read your poem today and you talk about a mountain. In all of us is the will to survive but it’s not activated until we really need it. Once you get to the top of the mountain you can enjoy the view. As you take in the sights you begin to notice how far you really have come. Then you can put your flag up and say in pride I made it. Then you have a choice. You can climb back down the mountain or start climbing the next one. Life doesn’t give us a break we have to take one ourselves. Smell the fresh air, take in all the new colors and expieriences, enjoy the moment, and then pack up and move forward. Always move forward. 

 

Keep climbing!

 

Tessa

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Jennifer T

@Hellothere,  the one place in the world where I have no care for me physical presentation is in the natural world. I am a long time hike/backpacker/mountain biker. And out there, I am free. Out there, I am not viewed by gender. Out there I breathe the peace of creation. 

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Jennifer T

I penned this many years ago as I stared at a distant horizon at the end of a long day; an escape from the world of concrete and asphalt, men and machinations. I had come out to my wife one month prior. 

 

Dusk
 
The sun settles gently into the west
And the early evening warmth slowly wanes
 
Silence and stillness fill these moments
Noone intrudes
and nothing disturbs the solitude
 
Time slows
 
Night will slowly envelope this citrus sky
And tomorrow will inevitably come.
 
But now, here
Forgotten are the sordid fears of the past
And the fleeting dreams of the future
 
Only now remains.
Only now reigns
 
And here am I.
-Jennifer T., November 16, 2009

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