My name is Sandra

[Sandra6sandy9sand]

Hi all, I’ve been a member here since October 2017 but haven’t introduced myself yet.

 

I have known that I wanted to be a girl ever since I was six or seven. Growing up in the late 40’s, 50’s and early 60’s I knew that I could not openly express my desire.  I took every opportunity I could to wear my sisters cloths when no one was home.  I would fantasize almost every night that I would magically become female.

 

i joined the Army after high school and served three years.  After the Army, I went to college and got married.  With each year I grew older my desire to be a woman has grown stronger despite my efforts to bury my feelings.

 

My marriage lasted 10 years and ended in divorce. I contemplated jumping in front of a car once and have made sure that there are no shells for my shotgun in the house. The good news is that I made it through that tough time in my life, not that there haven’t been a few downers along the way.

 

My second wife and I recently celebrated our 39th wedding anniversary. We have two wonderful daughters and three grand children.  I would not want to change the life that I have lived because I could not stand to loose family and friends.

 

It has taken me a long time to accept that I am transgender. I told my wife several years ago that I liked wearing woman’s clothing and I wear them all the time.  She has very very slowly accepted my shaved body and feminine underwear and clothing in the wash.

 

At 74 years and counting I just want to be accepted as me.  I worked at a public educational institution and have performed on stage.  To many people recognize the male facade and in this conservative part of Michigan I suspect that if I arrived somewhere in a dress or cute skirt and blouse the reaction might be negative.

 

I don’t plan on taking hormones or having sex change surgery however if my breasts were to grow due to some medication I would have to take, that would be fine.  I want to live the rest of my life as me.

 

Thanks for listening.

 

Sandra

[DeeDee]

3 hours ago, Sandra6sandy9sand said:

I want to live the rest of my life as me.

That is a very worthy goal indeed! Pleased to meet you Sandra. (even if you have been here longer than me  )

[Jani]

Welcome Sandra!  Better late than never.  

 

Living as you is a laudable goal.  You don't need medication or surgery to achieve it.  Enjoy life.

 

Jani

[Susan R]

Hi Sandra,  it's good that you've come to a place of acceptance with yourself.  You've lived long enough to know that the issue never goes away completely.  It's either accept yourself and face it head on or play a short-lived mind game with yourself that is hard and likely impossible to win.  Many of us are still deciding where we are on our journey.  I wish you the very best on yours and may you find peace in your decision.

 

Susan R?

[Carolyn Marie]

Welcome to Trans Pulse, Sandra.  Hon, you are never too old to have dreams and goals, or give up on them.  What you decide to do is totally up to you, but if we can answer questions and help in any way, just let us know.  Enabling dreams is one of the best things we do around here.  We're pretty good at it.  I transitioned at 55, so I know.  ?

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

[Sandra6sandy9sand]

Hi all, thank you for the welcome. I’ve lived in fear of being discovered for many years and it’s hard to step out into the open. I do feel very comfortable expressing myself and desires here.

 

Accepting my female self took a long time. When I was young I thought I was the only person in the world like me. Now I know that there are many beautiful people like me and I’m not crazy.  I’ve done a lot of reading and study about being transgender and it is comforting to know that it’s not my fault.  Today I love who I am.

 

Thanks for reading and hugs from the snowy north.

 

Sandra