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I cut my hair to avoid cutting and I may be abused for it


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I had a rough patch last night, where I just about started cutting again, or using drugs from how depressed and dysphoric I got. So I cut my hair. My mom is going to kill me once she gets home soon and I'm terrified of how it will play out. I have a plan for if I do get hit, but this forum is on my tablet and I do how to reach Tomball if I need help here. If I do get hit, i know that I will be going away to a friend's house, after alerting the polyurethane I've left and why I've left. Then I won't endanger myself or the friend in staying with until child services get involved. I tried to stay safe and closeted but it just didn't happen. I'm so scared rn, I'm having the worst snowball effect from anxiety and I'm afraid I'm going to cut anyway. Help


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Instead of waiting around, go directly to a local hospital if you are that critical.  The hospital can call Child Protective Services and have them come work with you. 

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Carolyn Marie

I agree with Vicky, hon; please get some immediate help in real-life.  A hospital, LGBT center, even an urgent care center can keep you safe and know what resources to call for you.  You don't have to go through this alone, hon.   We are here for you, too.  If you can access Chat on your phone or tablet, they will do what they can to help you, too.  Please stay safe and take care of yourself,  We care about you very much.




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