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Just wanted to say hello to anyone watching the new boards. I am a 40-yr old cross-dresser, married 15 years, not out to my wife yet. Enjoying being dressed first thing this morning - trying to relax before work. I started dressing up in mom's things when I was about 13-14, went yesterday evening for my first shopping trip for womens clothes and shoes - what a rush!! found some beautiful low black pumps that show a little toe cleavage and make my legs look sexy, I gave myself an amazing thrill by dressing when I got home, and wearing pumps, short skirt, bra, panties and pretty feminine blouse outside my apartment on my back porch to smoke a cigarette, practiced walking in my new shoes so I won't be 'schlepping' around like a man.

Anyway, I'm very glad this forum is here, and that there are so many with similar stories. More later . . .


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Hello Krystyna_Marie,

Welcome to the new forums. Congrats on the first trip out. I bet that gave you a rush you won't forget in a hurry. :D

MaryEllen :)

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Hello Krystyna_Marie,

Welcome to the new forums. Congrats on the first trip out. I bet that gave you a rush you won't forget in a hurry. :D

MaryEllen :)

Thank you! I need to get some makeup gear and shop a wig so I can do the whole nine yards here at my apartment. I live away from home, wife and pets (work relocation not yet complete) three nights a week, so this arrangement gives me an enviable amount of freedom to be myself, and to do what I like most - play my music (guitar, bass, keys, drums, composing, recording) and now begin to allow my inner woman to blossom and to be pampered. Very exciting time for me, a little scary and different, but this interest has been inside me for many years, and now I have some time to explore it and have fun. I am so fortunate to have found this community, hopefully others will be using the new boards now - I want to gather tips and inspiration, and hopefully contribute. I'm not ready to do pics yet, but maybe later . . .

Kisses - KM

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Krystyna Marie,

Welcome to the wonderful world of crossdressing. You have an enviable situation with your own apartment. I had my own for a year because I was working out of town. I think I dressed nearly every night. Even though I have a loving and accepting wife, the apartment did give me freedom to dress whenever I felt like it. Before the apartment and now afterwards, my wife always lets me dress up whenever I want but with my youngest teenage boy still at home, my time is limited.

I am a rather social crossdresser so I do a great deal out in public. I have a couple of "girlfriends" who enjoy going out as much as I do. I have never been much for the bar scene so most of my social outings involve shopping, dining, theater, and music. I'm always amazed at how accepting people are. Socializing in public has made crossdressing much more fulfilling than it used to be. Hopefully, you can become as comfortable with yourself and with others to take your crossdressing into the social world. Of course, you shouldn't feel pressured to do so, or feel as though you have to go public. Crossdressing is like most activities. You do it to satisfy yourself. So whatever level you choose, just make sure it makes you happy.

I think these forms are a great place to get support and confidence as you explore your feminine side. It is really a terrific way to expand your knowledge base. If ever I can be of any assistance or offer any advise, just say the word.



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Guest SharleahLynn
Thanks for the warm welcome, seems like I've found a good place here. I'll stay tuned . . .

KM ;)

Sweety, beware of staying tuned. You a person , not a television set . But anyway , welcome to the forums and the chatroom .


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Welcome to the site KrystynaMarie. I'm happy that you enjoyed your venture out. I remember my first time and it was great. It gets better every time, too. This is a great source of information and support. Look forward to future posts.



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Thanks, Gennee! Dressed up tonight, of course, feeling fine! Getting ready to close on new house, things just crazy here, but having a ball! XOXO


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