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KymmieL

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Earlier this past week. I had put on some mascara, of course I got the non waterproof. Yeah, my eyes watered and looks like I had a black eye. Which my wife asked me. I told her it was mascara. I get ripped into about going to feminine wearing makeup. I didn't say anything after.  Yesterday, she apologizes about what happen and but still says the same about makeup. Also she married a man, but accepts my wardrobe choice. ?

 

I am confused on what to do or not do. Of course Wednesday, I started Spiro. Right now I am feeling great, besides my left pinky pinned. My emotions are up and down. Last night before I went to bed they where going crazy. I was actually able to sleep. cuddled some. right this minute I am calm. However, I am thinking that I am going to keep up with the HRT. Despite how the wife acted. I believe it is the correct course for me, right now. I plan on talking to my therapist about it when I see her again on the 9th.

 

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I know I'm crazy so you don't have to bring that up. LOL

 

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Hi KymmieL,

I'm going through some gender dysphoria issues which are a little behind where you're at with it all. For example, I've cross-dressed while on my own, and have asked my cousin (who is female) if she would help me apply makeup, and teach me how to do it myself, but I'm not technically out yet. I haven't even told my mother, who I'm sure won't be very supportive. She isn't well at the moment, and I don't want to add to her stress right now. 

I'm going to see a counselor later on in the month, who I'm hoping will help me through my issues. Some of my concerns are how people in my life, and in the community, will see me. I'm hoping to be passable, but if not I'll just have to work through my issues as I'm confronted by them. 

Are you hoping to stay with your wife? I'm a little upset to hear of your marrital difficulties surrounding your transformation. She seems loyal enough to bear with you as you receive hormone replacement therapy, I'm not sure of your wardrobe preferences, maybe you could elaborate a little...? 

Harrietta

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I have been with my wife for over 33yrs. I hope she will accept me. My wife does not know I am on HRT.  I do plan on talking about this to my therapist next time I see her.

 

With my wardrobe of mostly women's cloths. She also said she has gotten used to my long hair. (growing it out for close to a year now) Saying bikers have long hair.

 

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7 hours ago, KymmieL said:

I told her it was mascara. I get ripped into about going to feminine wearing makeup. Yesterday, she apologizes about what happen and but still says the same about makeup. Also she married a man, but accepts my wardrobe choice. ?

 

I am confused on what to do or not do. Of course Wednesday, I started Spiro. Right now I am feeling great, besides my left pinky pinned. My emotions are up and down. Last night before I went to bed they where going crazy. I was actually able to sleep. cuddled some. right this minute I am calm. However, I am thinking that I am going to keep up with the HRT. Despite how the wife acted. I believe it is the correct course for me, right now. I plan on talking to my therapist about it when I see her again on the 9th.

 

thoughts opinions

I know I'm crazy so you don't have to bring that up. LOL

 

Kymmie
 

Hi! Talking to your therapist is a great idea, For you and your wife. Stay on your 

Lady Meds, especially since it is making you feel better. Your wife might end up being ok after everything, and you don’t need to hop on and off if you can help it. Either way, it should be discussed so both of you can understand each other as well as possible. Best of luck! 

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3 hours ago, Harrietta said:

Hi KymmieL,

I'm going through some gender dysphoria issues which are a little behind where you're at with it all. For example, I've cross-dressed while on my own, and have asked my cousin (who is female) if she would help me apply makeup, and teach me how to do it myself, but I'm not technically out yet. I haven't even told my mother, who I'm sure won't be very supportive. She isn't well at the moment, and I don't want to add to her stress right now. 

I'm going to see a counselor later on in the month, who I'm hoping will help me through my issues. Some of my concerns are how people in my life, and in the community, will see me. I'm hoping to be passable, but if not I'll just have to work through my issues as I'm confronted by them. 

Are you hoping to stay with your wife? I'm a little upset to hear of your marrital difficulties surrounding your transformation. She seems loyal enough to bear with you as you receive hormone replacement therapy, I'm not sure of your wardrobe preferences, maybe you could elaborate a little...? 

Harrietta

Hey Harrietta and Kymmiel. First I totally understand what Harrietta is going through. I am trans gendering M to F as well, mom is dying and was happy that I came out to her as gay, but not to keen on the idea of me transforming. However, I told all my friends and even my homophobic friend. The once I thought would never talk to me again were all supportive of me. That said, I think I am beautiful, but I was bye a bar owner never to come bar to his bar dress up like a unattractive woman. So I found a new bar. Kymmiel. my ex-girl was super jealous of me when she first saw dress up. Mad that I was size 0, mad that I know how to put on flash eye lash and make up, it took her sometime, but now she goes out with when I am dress. So be brave, be beautiful and stay strong kisses Alex

 

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Kymmie I found eye makeup to be a pain to put on and manage (don't rub your eyes!) so I don't wear it unless I'm getting all done up for something special, like a wedding or such.  You might just try a little foundation to even out your complexion as that may not bother your wife much.  Later when you are comfortable, you may try having your eyelashes tinted.  I like it.  It's inexpensive ($18.00 locally), takes 15 minutes and lasts 4 weeks.

 

Cheers, Jani   

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Hey everyone, 

My mum isn't going to be keen on my transformation either. She's unwell at the moment, I'm not sure how much longer she has because she's always getting sick, and needing time off from work to recover. I haven't exactly told her about my wish to be a woman, but somewhere deep down, I think she knows. 

It's going to be hard to go through this process, and living as transgender, where I live. I think this is what will upset my mum most, wondering what my life will be like, probably worrying about how I'm going to get on as a transgender woman. I don't want to put undue stress on her while she is struggling with health issues, and have thought about foregoing the transition until after she has passed - which I hope won't be for a very long time!! 

This being said, though, I don't want to waist any more of my time here being miserable in my manhood. I need this, as I've needed it since I was young, and don't know what to do about it anymore. I'm getting my counseling session this morning where I'm planning on just focusing on myself, however my concerns of my mother will need to be raised.

Thank you for your replies,

Harrietta

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Hey I def want wait for my mom to pass on, but part of me wants to tell her at least we will be able to send some time together not under a cloud of lies.. Good luck. Be beautiful, Be proud and stay strong alex

 

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