Welp, I just did my first self-injection of testosterone! Super scary, but manageable.
I am going to be chronicling my transition by taking a picture of myself every week for at least a year. I hope to have a nice montage by the end of year one! I will eventually post the video on YouTube. No links, I know, but it will be there.
Ah, confidence will help a ton. Which, recently I find myself having more confidence when he is around. I also have really bad trust and abandonment issues, which he is helping me with. I am very cautious when I like someone. It blows my mind when someone tells me that they like me. I will work on my confidence and self respect.
thank you guys a ton
Flirting isn’t a skill. It’s a comfort level. You have to have a few things to make it work. You have you really be interested in the person. Not just smitten. You have to be confident in yourself as a lovable person and someone who is also desirable. You have to relax and let things flow. You can not plan or act out anything anyone else has said. It can not be forced. It comes from inside you as a confident playfulness. Being clever and humorous is only a small part of it. But it helps a lot.
The biggest thing is to believe in yourself and be brave. Eventually you see it’s not hard or scary.
just be you.
Hey Michelle, the heavy dose of masculinity you quoted above reminds me so much of myself and where I came from. The description is slightly different from mine in detail but very manly, none the less.
It sounds like you’re able to look past these male features to see and feel the real you. It was easier for a time growing up to conform to the expected standards set before us but as you and I have both found, it doesn’t last forever. Eventually, a good number of us see through the mask we put on and start to take control of the situation despite what society or culture dictates. I congratulate you on getting to this very important part of your journey. It will make things even better if your wife accepts you as you and becomes a vital support in this journey too. I wish you the best in either case.
Just something I'm curious about... the three most common methods of administering estrogen are pills, patches, and shots, but from what I can gather, the three most common methods of administering testosterone are patches, shots, and skin gels that you rub in like hand sanitizer. I've never heard of testosterone pills. Anyone know why? Does testosterone not survive in the stomach to get absorbed into the blood? Or for that matter, why is there no estrogen gel?
Another update -- the problem is actually called vaginismus, and caused by contraction of the vaginal muscles making intercourse painful or not possible. It is not necessarily even related to gender surgery -- it is not uncommon in genetic women. The treatment is... dilation, even for genetic women, and can be handled by someone's regular gyn physician.
whenever im flirting with me boyfriend what i usually do is make a play on words with whatever he said to me
him:the sky is so blue
me:as deep a blue as your eyes
him:but my eyes are brown...
me:i thought they were blue from how much theyre shining
flirting 101 with max lol
The Cheyenne VA hospital is great as far as I am concerned. I have had no troubles at all. My Dr's are fantastic. Unfortunately they have no endo. I will be seeing the one down at the Denver VA. Good thing I get travel pay. Just recently found out that I can claim travel for any appointment at VA based on my disability percentage. My GYN's nurse found out for me.
I feel totally safe when I am at the VA. I use the ladies room. dress how I feel.of course girly.
Some one hit me with the skills on how to flirt because I am terrible and I know, the new kid just laughs at my miserable attempts, I think he finds it cute that I try. Sadly I am about as smooth as sandpaper. So I tried to get revenge for him dropping his phone on me when it said "Hints" So he was dropping hints on me. So I wrote "Hints on a piece of paper and dropped it on him, for revenge. He was like "Ah, I see your true feelings." And I panicked and said "Ha, no it's just revenge from earlier." He obviously didn't believe me and just laughed. Someone please teach me how to flirt so I can compete, he is a smooth as butter! He is always trying to hold hands so I do it back, He told me to move to the back of the bus with him and I said no playfully and he said "I will kiss you right now if you don't" (Also playing) I froze up ack. I need halp haha
That's the spirit! Also a good attitude when you're waiting for anything else you care to do while transitioning like getting approved for HRT or bottom surgery if you choose to pursue either of those things. Probably FFS too, but I haven't signed up for that one. I don't want to get TOO pretty. My friends would be jealous. 😘