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Astrid

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Astrid

Passing

 

I have passed so many milestones
On this journey of identity.

 

Past the Marker of Questioning,
Past the Pillar of Denial;
Like Sisyphus, I've carried the Rock of Depression

Up the steep Hill of Doubt,

Only to watch it roll back down
Past countless milestones countless times.
But I like to think that my rock is reduced in size now,
That the progress from my journey has eroded it. 
Though, even if I set it down, its shadow is always present.

 

So here I rest in my journey just now,
At the Marker of Non-Binary.  
Do I stop and build my home here?
Or do I pass on, and keep searching 
...if...
I am meant to be in a different place?

 

It is a curious place of mind, this Non-Binaryness.
A place where Passing has no place --
Not when I am somewhere in the Spectrum of Gender Identity,
Not when I am past being male, and yet not female.
A place where Passing as Me
Makes all the sense in the world to Me, but
Makes little sense to others who Do Not Understand.

 

I have passed so many milestones
On this journey of identity.

 

And I can't wait to see what's over the next hill.

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Cyndee

Just passing by to say I liked your post.

 

Have a nice day

 

C -

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Astrid

Thanks for your kind words, Cyndee!

 

Astrid

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Jennifer T

Well elucidated! 🙂

 

 

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Astrid

Thanks, Jennifer!

:goodbad:

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Alex C

yates would of be proud..congrates

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Kirsten

@Astrid that’s beautiful. ❤️

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