transoriented

[john/jewlie]

So, I have found the most accurate terminology to describe my sexual identity is; transoriented Genderqueer. I am a 58 year old born male who has lived a life in confusion. in my teens the only term I could identify with was transvestite or transsexual. but I new neither was right. experimented with men, nope that wasnt me. had a hetero marriage and felt like something was missing. during intimacy I would always imagine myself female. in other aspects I am truly male.How could I be both??? this cant be normal? I must just be some sort of fetish freak!!! It has taken me all these years to begin to understand my true self. next steps are; therapy and possibly HRT.

well I've rambled on enough for now. its so great to even put these words out there. 

thank you all

[Susan R]

3 minutes ago, john/jewlie said:

I am a 58 year old born male who has lived a life in confusion. in my teens the only term I could identify with was transvestite or transsexual. but I new neither was right. experimented with men, nope that wasnt me. had a hetero marriage and felt like something was missing. during intimacy I would always imagine myself female. in other aspects I am truly male.How could I be both??? this cant be normal? I must just be some sort of fetish freak!!! It has taken me all these years to begin to understand my true self.

I'm always shocked to read something that sounds identical to my life.  This description of oneself is right up there with the best.  You and I have led a very similar childhood and we are also only a year apart.  I lived this exact same conundrum almost word for word until last year when I finally accepted that I'm relatively close to being a transgendered female or MtF.  I also could be the term you coined...Transoriented Genderqueer.  I don't rely much on labels for explaining my life because it's just so much more complicated than that.  I would likely need a small pamphlet to explain what and who I am.  Thanks for sharing a little of yourself.  It's nice to see that others have experienced similar complexities in their lifetime.

 

Susan R?

[john/jewlie]

Thank you Susan so much! I can't explain how happy I am to hear that I am not alone. I have just taken the first step in getting some professional counseling. I am really thing that I have struggled with gender dysphoria my whole life.. lots of diff substance abuse in the past now. eating disorder. going to finally work on ME

Warmest regards to all

[john/jewlie]

the term "Transoriented" I found resarching. it reffers to someine who is attracted to transgendered. a little more specific than pansexual.

[Susan R]

27 minutes ago, john/jewlie said:

the term "Transoriented" I found resarching. it reffers to someine who is attracted to transgendered. a little more specific than pansexual.

Sounds like my wife may be Transoriented based on that definition.  Interesting to say the least.  Thanks!

 

Susan R?.

[Charlize]

I've been living full time for some time now and still hear new descriptive words to describe my reality.  I'm not positive of the meanings of many of these terms.  Perhaps that's because finding peace with my reality has never rested on a definition but by the actions i take and way i feel.  Unfortunately i often hear folks describing their feelings with words i'm not sure i understand.

In this case i wonder if transoriented means i'm headed towards being trans or

6 hours ago, john/jewlie said:

to someine who is attracted to transgendered. a little more specific than pansexual.

 

If the latter it could be a descriptor of what we once called "admirers".

I guess i'll stick with simply being a transgender woman.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

[john/jewlie]

I think having a term to identify with means alot to me because I never heard of anyone being like me! you could be a CD, just meant man who likes dressing female. you could be transexual, man who wants to be female. like I said ealier I am mostly not attracted to men. very attracted to tg women.I behave and identify very masculine in some things and very feminine in others. So now I finally start therapy and talk with others here who accept and understand. thank you all so very much

xxxooo