HRT sucks

[Kirsten]

You know all of this is amazing. But my freaking god does being on this stuff SUCK!! I am so sick of the emotional ??. 

I was all good with the low dose pills. It was challenging at times sure, but manageable. Now this shot is like a whole new set of rules. The effects have gotten so much more intense. This week will be 5 weeks and I’ll finally get my blood test on Monday since swapping. But my god the difference is insane.  Everything is just so much more difficult to deal with. Every emotion is screaming all the time. Very weird. Very crazy. And very difficult to explain. But I finally understand all the trans women screaming on social media about things that just seem silly. It’s the meds. I hope seeing that this is an issue will help me learn to control it better. I’m sick of being way up or way down. The calm I had from the pills is a thing of the past for sure. But I keep telling myself it’s just a matter of learning how to be myself. Unfortunately right now I’m just about a 14 year old crazy annoying hard to deal with drama queen of a girl. 

Even the physical stuff has ramped way up. People that hadn’t seen me in a couple months were astounded to see me this past week. I fill out bras that were loose not long ago. My pants are tighter in the hip area. My skin is so much softer. I mean everything bumped up. 

 

And I really thought that the roller coaster was a kiddie ride. Nope. Not the case at all. Lolol. This things a 400’ drop into a tunnel and straight into a triple death loop. Crazy a? I tell ya!!!! 

[Kirsten]

@MaryMary I know exactly what you mean. I’ll be at work in my truck and think of god knows what and poof there’s the waterworks. 

And I am learning about not sharing. It really does cause a lot of issues with people. It’s so hard to explain and it never seems to work out. I am learning to keep that stuff to myself. But it’s so hard sometimes. But I’m hoping to make it a little more alone. I’m sick of hurting people close to me. 

[Raven1981]

I am so sorry Kirsten.  I had to laugh.  But I remember telling you that the shots are by far different than the other methods.  You are correct with being even very emotional as well than on the other methods.  I have been on the shots myself for a full year now and coming from patches to shots is night and day difference.  I still get very very emotional at times.  You do get thoughts and all of a sudden you can go from the happy go lucky 14 year old girl to miss crying drama queen girl.

 

I can tell you that I am doing a twice a week shot which sucks but my doctor has found that it helps me out so I dont have that drastic way down and way up.  But instead I get the way up and then it does drop a little and as it starts to drop, I am BOOM, back way up again.  The way I do my twice a week shot is that I take my dose and cut it in half so give myself half at the beginning of the week and the other half towards the middle

 

I am on XXmg of Progesterone daily as well and you mix estrogen with Progesterone and OMG, I have to tell you.  If you think your emotions are super crazy right now, ask to be on Progesterone and that will help with breast, hips, thighs and your emotions are worse. 

 

But I can say for myself, that I am also seeing with Progesterone one of the side effects on bloating so I look fatter now and I feel like I am going through actual PMS at times.

 

But as my support group says, the injections are the real hormones compared to the pills, creams, patches. 

 

But all I can say is that the injections are just as strong I can tell you that with myself being on them for 1 year and how they make you feel.

 

Lots of Love

Edited July 23, 2019 by Jani
Dosages not allowed.

[Jani]

Kirsten you have to weigh the positive against the negative.  Have you considered going back to pills?  Maybe at a different dosage than before?  

[Kirsten]

@Raven1981 I thought about asking that exact question. Maybe 2 shots would be better than one. Less of a super peak maybe. Idk about progesterone. I have heard so much about it. But the one thing that seems constant is that you need the bio identical shot or it’s no good. Which sounds like what you have. 

 

Lol. @MaryMary hearing it called drugs sounds so funny to me. I think keeping as much to myself as I can is what’s best for my current situation. I’m tired of upsetting my wife and arguing. 

 

Just now, Jani said:

Kirsten you have to weigh the positive against the negative.  Have you considered going back to pills?  Maybe at a different dosage than before?  

 

I have. But my levels weren’t even in the low end of the female range. And I have never heard of anyone having a higher dose than what I was at. I’m not sure of the technical term but I wasn’t getting the medecine from the pills. It was just going through me. I went from 85 to 87 for my e level and that was after 10 weeks at double the dose. My endo doesn’t even usually think of the shots for anyone, but after talking with colleagues she says this can be typical and this is my best chance for good results. Now the dose may be too high or maybe I don’t need the spiro anymore or at least less of it. But I think overall this is the more pro direction for me. It’s just harder for now. I think it’s getting better, but it’s hard to tell myself. My wife would say it’s the same as week 1 though I’m sure. 

 

Its been 5 weeks. Almost. I know it’s harder. I know it’ll take some getting used to. But honestly my opinion is that this course is the best option for me. But I wish I could say that about the pills rather than the shot. But hey at least I gave myself my own shot this week! It all takes time. Even the good things sometimes need time to be good. I hope. Lolol. 

[Kirsten]

But make no mistake it’s freaking crazy and hard and even sucky. 

[Charlize]

If it gets too crazy remember there are 3 routes to E delivery and each utilizes a separate uptake route.  We often think only of oral or shots but E creams or spray have worked well for me.  Maybe it was a bit slower but today that doesn't matter.  Time has passed.  I can cry easily but it hasn't been a problem.

Hopefully whatever route you take you can find results as well as peace.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

[DeeDee]

Kirsten, thanks for sharing. I think it is more useful for people to know that there can be differences between the different deliveries and the side effects are not necessarily just things like headaches and nausea but can also be:

3 hours ago, Kirsten said:

This things a 400’ drop into a tunnel and straight into a triple death loop. Crazy a? I tell ya!!!! 

Hope it starts to settle down for you soon. ?

[Kirsten]

Thanks Dee. It truly is amazing all the things that hormones control. And how different the same thing can be depending on how you get them. And I think the fact that I have been deathly afraid of needles my entire life, but was able to give myself a shot last week is truly astounding! I conquered a big fear with that! 

 

@Charlize I was told I am not a fit for the patches. I am way too active and the doctor said I’d definitely loose them a lot. I don’t know about creams though. I will ask her about them. Maybe that could work too. 

 

But whether I'm crazy for a couple years to get the best results, or I figure it out and go back to normal, I don’t care what way I get it. As long as it keeps progressing like it is right now. It’s literally night and day from how it was. This stuff is waaaaay stronger than the pills were. At least for my body. I’ll pay my dues any way I have to for this. ?