Shawna, I hope you have a better today. Hugs!
Jackie, I hope that everything goes well over the next 11 days. I’ve just recently started hrt and it’s already working it’s magic on my awkward protuberance, so I can only imagine what it would be like to deal with again.
As for me, I’m really looking forward to the end of a long week. Work has been extra busy and last night I spent a couple of hours talking a friend through a crisis. My heart was breaking listening to her pain.
That being said, my mood has been so much better since starting hrt. Not sure if it’s euphoria, placebo or it’s actually already helping my brain chemistry. Doesn’t really matter, as long as I can maintain the positive change.
The weekend is almost here, it’s not currently snowing and my kettle is boiling. I said it’s a great start to the last day of my work week.
Have a great day everyone! *Hugs!*
Good morning everyone, 🎈
Happy Birthday Shiratori!🎂
Happy Birthday KathrynJulia!🎂
Happy Birthday Michelle2010!🎂
Happy Birthday woahshutitdown!🎂
Hope you have a wonderful day!
Lots of love,
Timber Wolf 🐾
Your Gynecologist is your best resource. I tell girls on the way to GCS to line up a post-op Gynecologist who does know Trans people and who has permission to communicate with their surgeons. It was a little bit funny when I got home from GCS and was hurting while dilating pretty badly and called to schedule an appointment with a Gyn, and they told me the one the HMO wanted me to see had just gotten back from training by Dr. Meltzer and would see me the next day. Took her six minutes to diagnose a yeast infection and two pills later, all better, but she called my Surgeon (Marci Bowers) and got acquainted since I had r3leases with both of them. I have a Cis woman friend with vaginismus and while her dilators are a bit different, we can both commiserate.
You guessed it on the pill reason. Not the stomach so much as the liver though. The injection and epidermal methods do not involve the liver as much as pills do. As far as the estrogen gel goes, I have a tube of it about 8 feet away from me, but it works best on cis women and Trans women who are post op with a GCS technique that does create a mucous tissue inside the vagina. Estrogen in pill form is the form most likely to cause blood clots due to liver interaction.
Welp, I just did my first self-injection of testosterone! Super scary, but manageable.
I am going to be chronicling my transition by taking a picture of myself every week for at least a year. I hope to have a nice montage by the end of year one! I will eventually post the video on YouTube. No links, I know, but it will be there.
Ah, confidence will help a ton. Which, recently I find myself having more confidence when he is around. I also have really bad trust and abandonment issues, which he is helping me with. I am very cautious when I like someone. It blows my mind when someone tells me that they like me. I will work on my confidence and self respect.
thank you guys a ton
Flirting isn’t a skill. It’s a comfort level. You have to have a few things to make it work. You have you really be interested in the person. Not just smitten. You have to be confident in yourself as a lovable person and someone who is also desirable. You have to relax and let things flow. You can not plan or act out anything anyone else has said. It can not be forced. It comes from inside you as a confident playfulness. Being clever and humorous is only a small part of it. But it helps a lot.
The biggest thing is to believe in yourself and be brave. Eventually you see it’s not hard or scary.
just be you.
Hey Michelle, the heavy dose of masculinity you quoted above reminds me so much of myself and where I came from. The description is slightly different from mine in detail but very manly, none the less.
It sounds like you’re able to look past these male features to see and feel the real you. It was easier for a time growing up to conform to the expected standards set before us but as you and I have both found, it doesn’t last forever. Eventually, a good number of us see through the mask we put on and start to take control of the situation despite what society or culture dictates. I congratulate you on getting to this very important part of your journey. It will make things even better if your wife accepts you as you and becomes a vital support in this journey too. I wish you the best in either case.
Just something I'm curious about... the three most common methods of administering estrogen are pills, patches, and shots, but from what I can gather, the three most common methods of administering testosterone are patches, shots, and skin gels that you rub in like hand sanitizer. I've never heard of testosterone pills. Anyone know why? Does testosterone not survive in the stomach to get absorbed into the blood? Or for that matter, why is there no estrogen gel?
Another update -- the problem is actually called vaginismus, and caused by contraction of the vaginal muscles making intercourse painful or not possible. It is not necessarily even related to gender surgery -- it is not uncommon in genetic women. The treatment is... dilation, even for genetic women, and can be handled by someone's regular gyn physician.