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I love you

you said it first, 

I was scared, I was just  Freshman and you a Sophomore.

As the time passed by like a gentle breeze I said

I love you

I love you's turned into kisses and kisses into more

stolen sleep overs turned into a home together 

Just you and I

I love you

A ring thin and gold decorates my hand, my heart swells thinking of the future we planned where we say 

I love you

in front of all the people we love, this picture in my head as solid as stone. There is no such thing as a more beautiful picture to me .

I love you

One day is different than the others and when I turn to you I ask what is it my love. 

With tears in your eyes and a voice so fragile and shaky you tell me this isn't the real me.

You cry and I cry and I don't understand. The stone picture is shattered how can that be? 

I ask you what now?

you say I don't know

I love you

I ask you if I'm still who you want?

You hold me in an embrace so tight there is no room for doubt.

I think long and hard and then I laugh

I picture you with your soft gold curls long- tumbling down your back.

Your t-shirts replaced by dresses. 

Your wallet now a hand bag

and in all this I see it doesn't matter. 

No matter what you will still enjoy

Video games

I love you

you will still tell me all about your new D&D characters

I love you

You will still ask me to make your lunch 

I love you

and you will still cuddle me right before bed

I love you

It will be ok

the shattered picture in my head flows back together even more beautiful than before

It didn't seem possible

So now months later and I feel the hurricane that I thought would rip us apart is long gone.

We have and will overcome anything in our way

I love you

Over our seven years we have been through a lot 

the date of our marriage is quickly approaching 

and then one day you come home and your quite.

I ask you what is it my love

You say, I'm not sure what I want

I guess I was right to be scared 

I love you

but you may not love me the same

I will always love you



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Thank you for posting that lovely poem.  I must admit to welling up a bit with a sweet sadness.  Keep that love.





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that's a nice poem, well done 👍

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