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Michelle PJ

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Hello All,

 

After much deliberation, discussion with my therapist and with a fair measure of doubt about it all I decided to begin HRT.   At 65 years old male and soon to be in retirement. I thought that it was now or never!    NOBODY besides my my medical practitioner and therapist know about my decision to transition.   However, my wife (at the present) is closest to knowing that it something that I have wanted for a long time.   She is not particularly enlightened about gender disphoria or transgender issues.   I started with a <dosage> transdermal patch and T blocker on Thursday, August 15.    My nurse practitioner intends to titrate upwards over the course of time.   As I begin this journey my thoughts are about so many unknowns.   Will I begin to truly embrace it or will I jump off the train?   I can’t imagine the day when or if I will venture out as Michelle or to be living life as a woman.   And I don’t know, despite the hormones or possible FFS if I will ever consider myself a woman.   My decision to proceed was based on wanting, for a long time, to be more authentically feminine.   At least for the short term, that is my goal.   As for any changes on these meds over such a short period of time, I can’t say I am aware of any.   But there is some feeling of satisfaction that I have done something about my “condition”.   

 

Jerry-Michelle

 

 

 

 

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Michelle in my opinion I don't believe you will jump off the train.  I recall you are separated and since you qualify this as being "at the present".  I assume you're moving forward with this situation so it probably doesn't matter what you do.  After a long time of CDing I think you'll find this to be just what you want.  I started 4 years ago and I'm your age now.  I am extremely happy.  I don't know why you say you'll never consider yourself feminine?  Women come in all shapes, sizes and looks.  Its all about how you feel.  I think you'll ultimately be happy with this choice.  

 

Jani

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Welcome to another jersey girl (older woman).

I can only say that i'm happy with my decision to transition.  I was a young 63 when i went full time, 7 years ago.  The last years have been exciting and worthwhile.  Just finally being honest after years of hiding feels great.  If one does back out at some point at least some self knowledge is gained.  

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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The journey to womanhood isn't always a straight line, Michelle.  You'll find your comfort zone, one that will make you happy.  That's the main thing.  Fitting into some box isn't.  Do what pleases you, and makes you feel whole.  We'll be here to support you.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

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It takes time. It will get better I started hrt at 58 it took a while but I am now able to go dressed as Rachael whenever and wherever I want it’s a great feeling. This spring I was able to get a orchiectomy. Even though surgery scares me I am working on getting on the list for the vaginoplasty.  Best wishes. 

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Hi 

I hope as your journey begins you find that peace that we on the same journey have found.

As I started my HRT it confirmed everything for me.

It was like driving a car that you drove all your life it’s all you knew.

All of a sudden someone puts the gasoline in instead of diesel fuel the car runs better than before 

             If it’s truly your path you will know just take things one day at a time

                      Best of luck to you 

                            Sharon Aml

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