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MadMax

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Okay so... First off... I'm biologically female. When I was little and a teenager, I never liked to see myself in the mirror. I hate(d) the fact I had (have) female genitalia. I hate wearing dresses and I don't care for pink stuff. On the inside, I feel more male but on the outside it's obviously a female body. When I look in the mirror at myself, I see a boy. I just need help, advice, whatever. Just feeling a bit lost and confused. :'/

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Hi Max (if I may shorten your name to that), welcome to Trans Pulse ?

 

You will find people here who feel very similar. We help each other to understand and work out the way forward. Please don't hesitate to read around, ask questions and join in as you feel. It takes a while but you will understand yourself far better and be more relaxed. People here are friendly and helpful.

 

I look forward to seeing you around.

 

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Welcome Max.  Glad you have joined us.  Time here reading and responding to others has helped me find my own path to self acceptance.  Each of us find that in different ways but knowing others are here who understand and offer support helps.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Welcome Max.  I can tell you this a great place to discover you’re not alone. There are so many great people here that share their stories. Most of the time I’m just reading and trying to better understand myself. This group is super supportive, if you have questions , you will almost assuredly get some replies. I recommend touring through the various boards, you will likely already find helpful answers to a similar question. 

 

Remember that self-discovery is a step at a time. 

 

*hugs*

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Hi Max,

I'm glad you've found us. You,ve taken a good step. The answers will come in time. You are not alone.

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf ?

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Welcome Max.  You're on the way and this is a good start. As noted self discovery can be fraught with perils as it challenges any preconceived notions that have been planted in our heads.   Take time to work through it all.  Read stories here to find that you are not alone.  Join in the conversation to feel apart of the community.  It takes time...

 

Jani

 

 

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hi! this place is great for getting advice, and there are some transmasc people on here too, so you should be OK. just don't go onto anywhere like yahoo answers, it's full of trolls. good luck ?

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Hi Max and welcome. You have come to a wonderful place where everyone is accepting and supportive. I would suggest finding a gender therapist in you area. He/she can help you find answers and sort through any confusion that you have. I never thought that I needed to seek help, but it turned out to be one of the best decisions that I could have made. Also it helps to talk to someone who understands.

Feel free to check out the different threads and ask questions as they come to mind.

 

Hugs,

Brandi

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Welcome Max!

 

Glad you found this site! It has been one of the best things that has happened for me and I know it will help you too. Like everyone is saying, just read through some of the posts and ask questions. A lot of people here have gone through the same situations and have first hand knowledge on almost all subjects. 

 

Hugs :)

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Hi Max, I'm Rey. It's okay to be confused and unsure. It's a hard thing to swallow...looking at yourself and feeling disjointed and that you don't fit in your own skin. It's especially harder when you look at yourself and see a man but society is constantly telling you different. Feel free to send me a message if you need someone to talk to. And definitely explore the forums. I found it to be a relief reading about others going through the same (or similar) experiences as myself.

I also began gender therapy with encouragement from these forums and it has an enormous resource for me.

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Hey Mad..Yeah  ever one here has or is going through the same -crap-...It's dose not matter if you MTF or FTM..  Dys will only get worse if you let it.. Leah is right.I wish would could just trade place it would be a wonderful world..Be Proud, Stay safe and Kick Ass

 

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