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Hello,

 

My name is Naia Ōkami. I am a twenty five year old transgender girl from the state of Georgia. I prefer she/her pronouns. I joined Transgender Pulse for the purpose of making new friends and talking to others about my journey, as well as to have another tool in the toolbox for crisis management. An odd fact about me is that I am an internet meme, and am known for the quote "On All Levels Except Physical, I am a wolf." which comes from a documentary I was featured in back in 2013.

 

My journey coming out as transgender has been a long one, starting from when I was very young and still on-going. I'll post a brief timeline below.

  • 6 year old Naia struggles with bottom dysphoria, attempts to "fix" the problem in harmful ways, is taken to a psychologist who educates her about various body parts and does nothing further. Naia attempts self correction several more times until she is told doing so could potentially be fatal and is scared from further attempts.
  • 12 year old Naia is disgusted by the results of her false puberty, especially the growing of facial and body hair. She asks several people if removal of body hair would be acceptable, and is told probably not. 
  • 13 year old Naia realizes she is NOT MALE, but does not know what she is. She does not like any traits commonly associated with masculinity and does not like any traits being associated with her. 
  • 16 year old Naia ponders if she could perhaps be female. She creates several female roleplay characters for free-form textual roleplay and on Second Life. She enjoys this experience, but does not speak of it outside trusted circles. Naia is already known as different, and doesn't want "one more thing" to be bullied and harassed for.
  • 20 year old Naia changes all of her online identities to "Naia" temporarily as an experiment. This lasts two weeks or so, she does not maintain this identity due to the same fear she had when she was sixteen.
  • 23 year old Naia publicly comes out as transgender, and occasionally presents as feminine, but not full time.
  • 24 year old Naia begins dating a lovely girl, but her parents are religious conservatives. They are openly homophobic and transphobic, so Naia begins hiding the fact that she is transgender and presenting less and less often.
  • 25 year old Naia fully accepts her identity, and files a Petition To Change The Name of an Adult in superior court, becomes legally Naia.
    • Naia seeks HRT, is denied by a local doctor despite being recommended for the procedure by both a psychiatrist and therapist in good standing.
    • A doctor an hour away agrees to treat Naia, but unfortunately does not take her insurance.
    • Naia is currently saving up money for HRT, and also looking for in-network provides within a three hour radius. Naia is also pondering delaying HRT for a year or two in order to rekindle a relationship with the aforementioned girl mentioned one major bullet point ago.
      • Naia does not intend to suppress her identity forever, in fact, if things are 'rekindled', she intends on helping said girl find an apartment or home not under the roof of controlling religious parents.

So yeah. I'm currently in the process of getting a new wardrobe and dress mostly feminine now and present as a girl in every day life. It's been a long journey but I am much happier expressing myself as I truly am.

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Welcome to the forum Naia.

In traveling your path, you will find a number of fellow travelers here, each with a variation of their own.

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Hi Naia,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

I was teased and bullied at school a lot too. You're definately not alone.

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf ?

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Just now, Timber Wolf said:

Hi Naia,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

I was teased and bullied at school a lot too. You're definately not alone.

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf ?

Awoo~

I'm a bit curious about your username. Do you simply like wolves, or are you also a part of the therian community?

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Hi Naia,

 

I live in Georgia too.  Welcome to the forums.  

Just now, Maid In Bedlam said:

Im to old to know really what an internet meme is but in any case

An internet meme is a short sound clip, or text phrase easily repeated to invoke an idea or emotion, often accompanied by a known visual image.  For example, the old posters we used to see of the kitten hanging from a branch by its front claws with the phrase "Hang on, Friday is coming" is a meme of sorts.  If you go back far enough, the strutting cartoon guys with the phrase "Keep on truckin'" would be a meme.  Internet memes are widely used, often with variations, and have a lifespan of popularity before becoming somewhat obscure.

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Just now, michelle_kitten said:

An internet meme is a short sound clip, or text phrase easily repeated to invoke an idea or emotion, often accompanied by a known visual image.  For example, the old posters we used to see of the kitten hanging from a branch by its front claws with the phrase "Hang on, Friday is coming" is a meme of sorts.  If you go back far enough, the strutting cartoon guys with the phrase "Keep on truckin'" would be a meme.  Internet memes are widely used, often with variations, and have a lifespan of popularity before becoming somewhat obscure.

 

 

I see Michelle.  Well i think i do anyway. A picture with a well known or made up phrase. For instant a picture of Jack Nickelson with the phrase " Heres johnny"

 

See them all the time but never knew they had a name as such. (Im so not with it when it comes to these things)

 

Understood and updated.  Thank you ?

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Welcome Naia.  Please join in the conversation.  I think you'll find this to be a caring community.

 

Jani

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23 hours ago, Naia said:



I'm a bit curious about your username. Do you simply like wolves, or are you also a part of the therian community?

Hi Naia,

I've always had a deep love for wolves. I love the fact that my home State of Michigan has a native wolfpack.

 

While on the subject, this gives me an opportunity to explain the reason I split timberwolf to Timber Wolf is simply to make it sound like a name. But I am not involved in any animal role playing groups.

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf ?

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Just now, lauraincolumbia said:

What is the Therian Community?  Is that like werewolves?

I Googled it. I may be wrong, but it sounds like an animal roleplay. 

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf ?

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13 hours ago, Timber Wolf said:

I Googled it. I may be wrong, but it sounds like an animal roleplay. 

 

Lots of love,

Timber Wolf ?

You're extremely wrong. It is somebody who identifies (spiritually or psychologically) as animal.

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