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Hey all,

 

My name is Alex and I'm figuring my way out through this whole "questioning my gender process". You know, allot of us have been through the "questioning" stage and I thought me coming out as a lesbian at 13 years old gave me the badge that says "you did it and coming out is over!" and yet here I am again at 22.

 

Anyway, I'm in North Carolina now but call West Virginia home. I was born and raised in the mountains, grew up on country roads and have such an interesting connection with that place where I can only love it at a distance. I moved to NC after graduating college (any social workers out there?) back in December 2018. I came here for my career, opportunity, and self-exploration. 

 

I'm on this forum because I'm looking to glean some experience from other trans people out there (FTM, non-binary, oh whatever just anybody help). I recently came out as more of a non-binary person and have used the name Alex and they/them pronouns for a while. Where my concern is, is that while I identify as traditionally more in the middle of the spectrum, I lean very much so on the masculine side of things. So one day I feel neutral and the next I feel very much like a man. 

 

I'm doing some research on HRT among other things and decided to pop in here to see who all might be able to give me some of their experiences.

 

Anyway, thanks for taking the time to read my introduction! Hoping to connect with some folks out there.

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Pleased to meet you Alex! Just remember that LGBT+ is a very big tent and covers a lot of different kind of people. What's right for me (well, obviously, because... duh) isn't right for you. I bring this up a lot, but one of my oldest friends presents differently as male or female depending on the day and she's fine with that. People who know her respond to her as she's presenting and that's the end of it. She's happy. We're happy. No matter what she's wearing, she's our friend.

 

Welcome aboard and may you find peace with yourself.

 

Hugs!

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Hello Alex and welcome.  There's a lot of experience and information here.  Get involved, ask questions, give your feedback.  We're an open and welcoming group.  

 

Cheers, Jani  

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Welcome to Trans Pulse, Alex.  You aren't alone in feeling in-between and unsure; lots of us are, or were at some point.  Take your time, look around the forums (particularly the FtM and What Am I forums) and ask all the questions you want to ask.  We'll do our best to give good, honest, accurate answers.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

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Hello Alex,  it's a pleasure to meet you.  As the others have mentioned, there's something here for everyone.  With time, patience, and a little research, many of the answers to your questions can be found here.  It's a pretty 'up to date' website.  If you have something specific, don't be afraid to ask.

 

Thank you for sharing your introduction today.

 

Warmest Regards,

Susan R?

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Hi Alex,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here!

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug,

Timber Wolf ?

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Hey Alex..... read the LOOOOONNNNNGGGG post I just posted. Any questions you have about HRT I can help with and maybe we can collaborate on some things??

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Welcome Alex!

This is a good place to thrash through issues, get emotional support, and find out that you're not alone in your feelings, thoughts and experiences.

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17 hours ago, TammyAnne said:

Welcome Alex!

This is a good place to thrash through issues, get emotional support, and find out that you're not alone in your feelings, thoughts and experiences.

I can personally vouch for this.  I’ve been a mess lately and there are a few ladies here that seriously helped me through it.  

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