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Madelyn

Hiya, I’m Madelyn. I’m 29 and living in another country atm. I, like most here, have struggled with the wonderful simplicity of being oneself. My story is a long one, filled with successes and disappointments. I wanted to give an introduction, but also am a bit hesitant as I’m in a melancholy stupor. I’m usually a cheery person and socially successful, when I want to be. I’ve been under a lot of stress lately, coupled with finally accepting myself completely. I’ve “accepted and repressed” several times during this journey, but this is the first that I’ve decided to stay strong no matter what and fight for who I am. Anywho, this because somewhat of an introduction/vent 🤷🏼‍♀️ . Well, at any rate, I hope you’re all having a wonderful day and if not, hugs

- Madelyn

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MaryMary

Welcome to transpulse Madelyn :)

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Madelyn
1 hour ago, MaryMary said:

Welcome to transpulse Madelyn :)

Thank you 😊

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NB Adult  (Inactive)

Madelyn, 

You are definitely not alone and among friends here, we are all supportive of one another and you are now one of us, it's like an extended family atmosphere. Take your time and read some of the commentaries and when you are able feel free to tell us more about yourself and your plans for the future. We're here for you Miss.

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Madelyn

Thank you for your kind words, and for making me feel welcomed :)

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NB Adult  (Inactive)

We're all here for you sweetheart!

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ShawnaLeigh

Welcome to our family.  Lots of love and understanding here and a super place to find answers and ask questions.   
i am glad you are here.  ❤️

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Madelyn
57 minutes ago, ShawnaLeigh said:

Welcome to our family.  Lots of love and understanding here and a super place to find answers and ask questions.   
i am glad you are here.  ❤️

Thank you so much :) 

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Carolyn Marie

Welcome to Trans Pulse, Madelyn.  Please do have a look around the forums and post any questions or comments in any thread, or start some threads of your own.  We'll do our best to offer good advice and support if that is what you need.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

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Madelyn

Thank you, it’s so nice to converse with people empathetic to this rollercoaster ride

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Krisvm

Hi Maelyn,

 

Very glad to have you aboard.

 

Love and Hugs,

 

Kris

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Charlize

Welcome Madelyn.  When i saw your post about being in another country with the Mississippi state flag i smiled.  Having spent time there i did feel i was in another country.  Glad you've joined us here.  

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Timber Wolf

Hi Madelyn,

Welcome to Transpulse, I'm glad you're here!

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug, 

Timber Wolf 🐾

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Jani

Greetings Madelyn!   I'm sorry to read about you're down  I hope that changes soon.  Looking to stay strong is a good tactic and hopefully you can persevere.  If not, there is always tomorrow.  Please look around and join in the conversation.  

 

Cheers, Jani

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Ellora

Hi! And Welcome! I hope you have a most wonderful journey! 

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Madelyn
6 hours ago, Krisvm said:

Hi Maelyn,

 

Very glad to have you aboard.

 

Love and Hugs,

 

Kris

Thank you :) 

 

 

6 hours ago, Charlize said:

Welcome Madelyn.  When i saw your post about being in another country with the Mississippi state flag i smiled.  Having spent time there i did feel i was in another country.  Glad you've joined us here.  

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

Thank you :) I’m actually living in Canada atm lol, but totally understand about that. Things are definitely more liberal here, still I was thankful to grow up in a very loving household. I do miss a lot of things about MS but feel waaayyyy more comfortable to be myself here.

 

 

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6 hours ago, Timber Wolf said:

Hi Madelyn,

Welcome to Transpulse, I'm glad you're here!

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug, 

Timber Wolf 🐾

Thank you! :)

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Madelyn
3 hours ago, Ellora said:

Hi! And Welcome! I hope you have a most wonderful journey! 

Thank you! :)

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