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Sally Stone

Embracing Part-time Womanhood

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Sally Stone

So, I proudly consider myself a part-time woman.  It's way more than crossdressing, yet I have have never felt compelled to let go fully of my male persona, or to transition fully.  Some might say I can't have it both ways, but I disagree.  Expressing my femininity on a part-time basis is amazingly fulfilling.  I feel right, and complete when I'm expressing my feminine persona, but it also feels right expressing my masculine side.  I have decided that expressing both personas provides me with a balance that makes me happy and content.

 

h, sure, it would be nice to have my own boobs and possess a more feminine face, but those are compromises that would add significant complications to the  bread-winning male persona.  So, for now, I use the illusion of makeup, clothing, and foundation garments to create my feminine form.  Those items combined with my inner femininity allow me to express my womanhood, yet ensure I can enjoy my male persona as well.  

 

Part-time womanhood works well for me in my current life situation.  If that situation changed, I'd certainly take another look, but being honest with myself, I'm not sure I'd change things much.

 

Hugs,

 

Sally 

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Jani

Sally it is good to be happy with how things are going on in your life and you sound pleased.  Good for you!  We all need to do what works for us and I am happy to see you have found that balance. 

 

Hugs, Jani

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Susan R
49 minutes ago, Sally Stone said:

Part-time womanhood works well for me in my current life situation.  If that situation changed, I'd certainly take another look

Hi Sally, it's sounds very much like you are very happy right where you are. It only matters how you yourself feel. Obviously, a spouse also requires careful consideration when embracing part-time womanhood. As long as you (and your spouse) are happy, who can say anything worthwhile against this lifestyle? I lived this as a woman (no HRT) for 10 years (1986-1996) and only presented male only for work.  I enjoyed it very much but my situation eventually changed...I met my current wife.  I fell in love and decided to suppress it for years believing she wouldn't ever accept that part of me.  If I was able to go back in time, I still wouldn't change a thing about those 10 years in regards to embracing my part-time womanhood. It made me who I am today.

 

My very best to you,

Susan R🌷

 

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Charlize

We all find our own path.  I lived part time as well and found comfort in either gender.  That changed for me as i went full time but i still enjoy much that might be considered masculine.  Enjoy life as it comes!  Sounds like you're doing that.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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NB Adult  (Inactive)

Been there things change and compromises will be made, good for Sally Stone for having found a perfect plateau for the present time. Though we all know, there are still some steep trails ahead as transition is a never ending trek.

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Ellora
15 hours ago, Sally Stone said:

Some might say I can't have it both ways

"You can please half the people half the time, but not all the people all of the time."

 

You , we, them, us, can have it anyway that You , we, them, us want to live life. If someone doesn't like it, then that's on them, not You , we, them, us. 

I guess I feel like I am a woman that "dresses like a man," and that's my business, not someone else's. If and when I decide to "go full time man," that will be up to me, and I am ok with this.

I can also say that I choose not to verbally lash out at some people that chose to give unsolicited comments about anything that I do, or dont do. Unless of course someone feels like they cross the line and go to far, other than that, I usually walk away from "person X," knowing i wont see that -censored- again. 

In this crazy world of ours, we constantly have to put on all sorts of faces to deal with all sorts of people, whether it has to do with a specific part of of our lives. 

Do what you have to do, and hopefully we do not have to compromise our own lives too much, so we can all live the way we want to. I am not too keen on people suggesting the way I should live my life, but I also Do what I have to do. 

I wish you the best in your Journey! 

 

 

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tracy_j

Hi Sally,

 

I get the part time bit. The gender spectrum is very wide though and as our mind varies we drift back and forth to some extent along it. I read the 'way beyond crossdressing' as occasionally I do wonder if thats all I am but I do think in simllar ways. In my last job I dressed male principally because of the rough nature although used makeup and presented very feminine. Now I dress female pretty much 100%. With me it's more a mental thing as I think as I am not how I look. I am not sure about my male persona. I suppose it must exist but I don't see it. Perhaps in different circumstances I would more fully transition. Maybe my time will come too but having met many cis women who have their body issues too I am put off jumping too readily. I would always agree with someone living the life as a woman for some time before transitioning and getting to know other women. Although I have not gone as far as physically transitioning the thing I have noticed is that, although being a woman seems different, it is interesting in how similar it actually is to that of a man. Perhaps more a difference in perception and emotion in responses rather than anything fundemental. In time life becomes as everyday as before. I must say though that I have never rejected my feminine side so it has always been present in life hence the step was perhaps not as great as many have had to move. Being someone is not how you look but how you are.

 

I am glad you have found your balance :)

 

Tracy

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ShawnaLeigh

I find it refreshing to hear a story like yours.  Finding that balance and making it truly work for you.  You sound very happy to say the least.

I am trying to embrace this too believe me.  Being so early in my transition I am still like 80% male presenting during my day.  I have little choice in the matter for now.  Which just increases my desire to make my changes asap.  I am trying to just let it happen organically and to not be in a hurry but some days this is so hard to achieve.

I can "let my hair down" at home with my wife as she is ok with this part of my transition.  Dress how I wish in our home.   But I can not claim to be embracing it at all.  

The moments I am able to be "myself" I feel right with the world.

My day long male persona expression is getting harder to endure and starting to become more of a chore.  

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