Hi there

[Rachel76]

So, a little bit about myself, I have suppressed and even outright denied my true self for many years out of fear, feelings of disgust about myself, even guilt, but things have changed. This year I lost my brother to a horrific motorcycle crash and the realization that life is too short and can be snuffed in an instant made me reassess my life and confront what I considered at the time to be an old “demon” which in reality was my true self. I have come to the conclusion the only way forward and to be truly happy is to stop the lifelong charade and accept myself. It has been a liberating experience so far, and I have decided to transition. I am both excited, and fearful for the future, but that is something not guaranteed so I will take the present. I look forward to interacting with you all!

-Rach.

[tracy_j]

Hi Rachel,

 

Welcome to the forum, and your introduction. I am sorry to hear about your brother. Mine had a bad one many years ago that was, to some extent, life changing for him even though he recovered well.

 

Please don't hesitate to ask questions and join in as you feel. We are all here to help each other as well as ourselves.

 

Tracy

 

[Jani]

Welcome Rachel.  I'm sorry to read that you lost your brother.  You are correct that life can be fleeting and we need to make the most of our time.  I hope you find what you are looking for here with lots of nice people and good conversation.

 

Jani 

[ShawnaLeigh]

Hello Rachel.  I welcomed you in another post but will do so again!  Welcome!  
Great place you found and I am glad you are here.  

[Astrid]

12 hours ago, Rachel76 said:

I look forward to interacting with you all!

 

Hi, Rachel!  Absolutely -- we're here to support each other on our journeys, so ask/interact whenever the spirit moves you!

 

With best wishes,

 

Astrid

[Carolyn Marie]

Welcome to Trans Pulse, Rachel.  My sincere condolences for the loss of your brother.  Our lives go on regardless of tragedy, don't they?  It's good to know that it has opened you up to new possibilities and dreams for a different future.  We're here to help, answer questions, and provide support.  The feelings you've had about being trans are nothing new to most of us.  I've had them, too.  But I'm living a better life now.  I hope you will, too.

 

HUGS

 

Carolyn Marie

[Rachel76]

Thank you for the warm welcome. These feelings are certainly not new, just something I finally realized I needed to accept. I am excited and frightened at the same time and for the first time I can remember, I am truly engaged in life itself.

[Timber Wolf]

Hi Rachel,

Welcome to Transpulse. I'm glad you're here! I'm very sorry to hear about your brother.

 

Lots of love and a big welcome hug, 

Timber Wolf ?