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I see it boiling in my head

Leaving my vision crimson red

Hot irons pause eternal poking

Lungs are full, on soot I’m choking

Far from numb I’ll eat it all

Just close my eyes and feel the fall

Now I taste a little sulfer

All she was he did engulf her

I smell it now charred and ash

Every moment will not last

Hear them stalking they are lurking

All this talk it isn’t working

Under my bed I lay and hide

Who I am is all a lie

Unfurl my wings and sink below

Hell’s the only place to go

Piercing light it burns right through

My heaven used to be you

Now I’m left without my treasure

Every day it brings no pleasure

Take a bite then spit it out

This shadow casting every doubt

No chains can keep me from my mission

Even if no ears will listen

See my lips I will not speak

Too many tears rolled down my cheek

Buckle up and take a leap

Left bloody in broken heap

Stand and limp my breath abrupt

Walk and wince but I won’t give up

Weeks pass I might wear a frown

Life sucks but can’t keep me down

Closet, I hopped right out

Ignored til I scream and shout

Now hear and it’s all beware

Should have seen when I did declare

Won’t be the one who fled

Curtain call and it’s all red

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Jennifer T

Ooooooooo...  I like this!


”In Red I Wait”


In the mirror

She stares back

In-recognition, searching


In red I wait

Beneath swelling clouds

Ominous, foreboding

She arrives

We ride


In familiar rhythmic silence

We glide 

By field and wood

Fauna disturbed momentarily



In streaks of red and blue

Corpulent silence

I am alone


“Are you angry?”

Aberrant, pensive

Issues parturient

As vultures to a kill..



My only reply.


- Jennifer T, May 9, 2003

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Breathe life into this topic of poetry I think it was in September of 2018 when i first submitted my poems here... I have been away for a while I would like to see more poetry and will make my contributions💗

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Oooooo both y'alls poems are deep and brooding, and they have a nice flow. I love it!

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Jennifer T

Hi @Miseria. I think I began posting in late 2009.  There were quite a few posting poetry back then.  🙂


I do enjoy the creativity that words allow.


@ToniTone, thank you.  ☺️ 

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