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I have now completed FFS, vocal, and top surgery


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Just as the title says, the first surgery I had was  breast augmentation, the second surgery I had was facial feminization surgery, and the most recent was vocal feminization surgery. It’s been quite a long road and I still have bottom surgery coming up in six months in the middle of July, but all things considered I oddly feel just about the same as I always have! Still feeling slightly dysphoric but probably less than I used to, still a jumble of messes that I put out one problem at a time, and I’m still planning the next phase, the next surgery, the next change, and hoping someday all of those things will be done and I can just live.

I just got off the phone with surgery scheduling to get a follow up appointment with my breast augmentation surgeon, as my under the muscle, 450 mL silicone gel implants seem to be a bit asymmetric, the left one seems a bit high and completely under the muscle, and the right one seems to have slipped halfway under the edge of the muscle and is quite a bit low, flexing my pectoral muscles reveals a very wildly asymmetric shape. Hopefully a revision of some sort will fix all of this. I’m not scared Of revisions in the slightest, they are part and parcel to most surgeries and I am well aware of it. My vocal feminization  surgery Did not go as planned the first time, I sneezed and popped the stitch it was back in surgery for the revision one week later. Now there is a granuloma over the stitch that might need to be removed and a gap in my vocal cords that will most likely resolve itself in a few months, but if it doesn’t I can live with the slightly hoarse sounding voice I have for the rest of my life.

facial feminization surgery went well, I’m pleased with the results but now of course I want a bottom half face lift, cheek augmentation and slight lip augmentation, as if a lip lift, brow shave, brow lift and hairline lowering weren’t enough to make me feel pretty!

 The results have been so dramatic that people simply don’t recognize it at all, I can carry on conversations with people who know me well, friends or family members, and they have no clue they’re talking to me, I actually kind of like it that way.

Big hugs to everyone,

Jackie rabbit

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While that's way more surgery than I was contemplating, I can't argue with the results. You look fantastic!

 

Hugs!

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Thank you girls!

I know it sounds like a lot of surgery but really it’s no big deal, if you ever thought about having surgery at all don’t be scared of it, it is a big nothing. It’s more annoying finding time off of work and putting room in your life to do it then anything else. Really doesn’t hurt as much as you might think, it’s only temporary, after the first week you’re kind of feeling fine and after a month it’s like nothing happened.

sending you both a great hug,

Jackie rabbit

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Thanks for that sweetie. I've got bottom surgery on Tuesday and I'm a little nervous about recovery... and everything else.

 

Hugs!

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 Congratulations! Seriously don’t worry about this, it’s a blip in your life and it’s just fine. You will be there in the hospital with excellently managed care, plenty of pain meds and all the help and support you could ever need. After a month you’ll  feel a whole lot better, by the second month it’s a no big deal situation. One of my really good friends at group came in at a month and a half and said she felt just fine, sat there for over two hours with no complaints!

keeping you in my prayers,

everythingis going to be fine,

Jackie

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1 hour ago, jae bear said:

if you ever thought about having surgery at all don’t be scared of it, it is a big nothing.

I’m going to wait to see how things continue to progress a while longer before I have any surgeries but I think I’m ok with having any of them done.  I’m still very early in my medical transition and there are still many things changing.

 

The only surgery I know for sure I’ll be scheduling in the next year or so is my bottom surgery.  I have an appointment on Feb 11 to discuss this with my doctor.  Like Jackie C, I’m a little concerned about the recovery on that surgery but I’m sure I’ll be fine.  I’m in excellent health but it’s a long recovery and a lot of work.

 

Congrats to both Jackies on your upcoming bottom surgeries.

 

Susan R?

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I have been living full time for three years. I have changed my gender markers, name, legal documents, etc. I recently completed FFS late last year, and I am scheduled for top and bottom surgery in April this year.  Prior to me starting my transition, I asked a distance co-worker who was FTM, they had transitioned many years prior.  He told me that there were as many things that did not change after his transition as did change. What jae bear originally posted is not so unusual, we all have different experiences however our journey is similar.

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