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emily the wolf

i was cutting and like 14 of them were really deep and wont stop bleeding.. i dont want to tell my parents because i am scared of what will happen... they are too big for band-aids... so i dont know what to do... except keep cleaning up the blood..

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Susan R

Emily, please do the following

Get a clean bandage that is large enough and apply tightly to the wound.  Failing that, apply pressure with a clean towel, shirt, or blanket to help stem the flow.  If it’s more severe, raise the bleeding body part above your heart

 

Please if the bleeding does not stop in 10 mins call 911 if you are in the US right now.  I believe you are.  You really need to discuss this with your parents.  Despite the difficulties, this is more important than anything regarding the transition issues they have with you at this very moment.  This is serious. Please help yourself.

 

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Carolyn Marie
3 hours ago, Susan R said:

Emily, please do the following

Get a clean bandage that is large enough and apply tightly to the wound.  Failing that, apply pressure with a clean towel, shirt, or blanket to help stem the flow.  If it’s more severe, raise the bleeding body part above your heart

 

Please if the bleeding does not stop in 10 mins call 911 if you are in the US right now.  I believe you are.  You really need to discuss this with your parents.  Despite the difficulties, this is more important than anything regarding the transition issues they have with you at this very moment.  This is serious. Please help yourself.

 

 

Emily, you are in serious danger of losing enough blood to go into shock.  Forget about what might happen with your parents; you need help RIGHT NOW!  Go tell them and have them call an ambulance for you.  If they won't, then call 9-1-1 yourself!  If the bleeding doesn't stop, you could die!  Worry about the rest of it later.  Save your own life!

 

Carolyn Marie

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emily the wolf

yeah.. stu on the discord chat helped me stop it... i may have cut another 25 times after that tho...

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Susan R

Emily, I’m so sorry you’re in a struggle right now.  But please Emily you need to know that serious infection can set in with continued cutting.  It can not only be extremely painful later on but even fatal. Please seek professional medical help for these wounds. With that many cuts, you need to know there is no infection forming by having them look at these wounds and cleaning them properly.

 

Thank God for Stu!

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emily the wolf

yeah... my boyfriend came over when i told him and he disinfected them and put some gauze on them but other than that ye...

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Aidan5

Please make sure that you are taking proper care and the wounds don't get infected. 

 

As an alternative please put a rubber band around your wrist and snap it, it will release the same dopamine you get from cutting, only it won't leave permanent damage. ❤️ things will get better.  

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A. Dillon

When I was in this sort of low, I would do mental self harm instead - gas lighting myself, convincing myself that I wasn't real, constantly ripping apart any shred of self esteem I had, all in an effort to get myself to give up on life enough that I would be able to let the car hit me. And let me tell you, the results are not pretty. Deep down, all of us just want the pain to go away, but this is not the way. It can be very hard to think about the future right now, I am not going to pretend that it is easy, but you have to do it. Look to the future; will this help? Will this make you happy? No, sweetheart, it won't. I am not going to try to push you in any one direction, but I suggest that you really get help. It is good that your boyfriend can help, and you should always keep in mind that you have us, but that is not enough to put an end to the pain. You need a professional, because this has clearly gotten out of hand. If you are in a situation with your parents where they won't help you even if you need it this desperately, then maybe you shouldn't be in that situation anymore. 

 

This is too much weight for anyone your age should have to deal with, but that is sadly how it worked out. I wish that I could just go over to your house and take you home, I really do, but I can't. Just please stay with us, if not for your sake, then for all of the people who love you and care about you.

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Timber Wolf

Hi Emily,

By this time (12 hours later) I hope you have received medical help for your cuts. If you haven't, please get to your doctors office asap. Infection is nothing to play with,  and if your cuts are deep, they may need stitching.

 

I've heard of the rubber band trick Aidan suggested. Try it.

 

I also agree with A. Dilon. You really should get some professional counseling. You are in danger right now. If your parents won't get you the help you need, please talk with a school counselor, or your schools principal. I am very worried about you. I'm going through a tough spot in my own life right now. I know life can feel completely overwhelming, like we just can't cope with it and the pain of it. But whether we take a drug or cut ourselves, it only gives us a momentary reprieve at best, them leaves us worse off for it. I have to avoid drugs, no matter how much I may wish the pain of things would stop. You need to find help with your situation to stop cutting to escape.

 

Lots of love and a big hug, 

Timber Wolf 🐾

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Jackie C.

Hey sweetie. Traveling today. I was actually in Cincinnati for a little while. I wish I could have dropped in on you.

 

Dillon has the truth of it. You need to get out of your situation... well, mostly. Keep the boyfriend. He's a prince. The rest of it has to go. I'm worried for you baby girl. I'm afraid you'll take it too far and we'll lose you forever. 

 

Please find help, be it through a friend, a relative, school or CPS. You're too precious for your light to go out of the world. We all love you, but there is only so much we can do. Please get yourself safe. 

 

Hugs! So many hugs princess. I'm going in for surgery tomorrow, but I'll check in whenever I can.

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ShawnaLeigh
5 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

I'm worried for you baby girl. I'm afraid you'll take it too far and we'll lose you forever. 

 

Please find help, be it through a friend, a relative, school or CPS. You're too precious for your light to go out of the world. We all love you, but there is only so much we can do. Please get yourself safe. 

Yes this exactly PLEASE get some help and find a safer place and way to express yourself.  You are to precious to lose.

Please be safe.

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emily the wolf

After that happened i have been scared to even touch the blade so I started writing down !y thoughts and feeling... This way when I start seeing my therapist who luckily specializes in gender can see and hear what I have been going through... My boyfriend suggested it and got me a cute little pink notebook to do it in.

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Carolyn Marie
6 hours ago, emily the wolf said:

After that happened i have been scared to even touch the blade so I started writing down !y thoughts and feeling... This way when I start seeing my therapist who luckily specializes in gender can see and hear what I have been going through... My boyfriend suggested it and got me a cute little pink notebook to do it in.

 

That sounds like a great idea, Emily.  Anything that will help you turn attention away from self harm is a good step.  Please continue to let us know how you're doing.  We care, and obviously so does your BF.  You owe him so major league hugs, hon.

 

Carolyn Marie

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Alex C

yeah the rubber band trick really helps...you need to get the cuts look at if they are still bleeding...watch out you cute to deep and that the end of beautiful life...also make sure you clean the wounds everyday, fresh gaze disinfected etc...

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emily the wolf

Yeah.. it's a good thing I have a bug notebook because I just had a breakdown and wrote like 10 pages of my feeling and problems I am having...

 

And to the cleaning cuts I am letting my BF do that lol I am not good at that stuff so I have been letting him do it

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Jackie C.

I also reccomend pink sparkle ink. I found sparkly ink very soothing.

 

Sorry for the long delay. I didn't wake up very fast yesterday and Susan took my phone back to the hotel.

 

Hugs!

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