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Thank you everyone for the kind regards and time. To stop your worrying, my friend Dillon has talked me out of it, and I will get my head up back in the game. It may take a bit of time to heal but I will get there eventually. Sorry to worry you all. ❤️

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Jackie C.

Give Dillon a hug for me sweetie. I'm happy you've decided to give being awesome another chance.



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1 hour ago, Aidan5 said:

Thank you everyone for the kind regards and time. To stop your worrying, my friend Dillon has talked me out of it, and I will get my head up back in the game. It may take a bit of time to heal but I will get there eventually. Sorry to worry you all. ❤️


I KNEW you could do this Aidan . Listen to youre friend  Dillon and above all  im PROOUD to get to talk to you  Aidan and my Pm is always  wide open for you


No need to say youre sorry  you did the right thing  you asked  for help and got it  (those that dont is the ones that sadly takes the  wrong way )     

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Timber Wolf

Hi Aidan,

You mentioned that your family doesn't give you much love and caring. But take a look at the posts in this thread. I see a lot of love and caring. The people hear are your family, Aidan. So many of us here have been at that point where we wanted to die. So many of us here have tried to bring that about. There is a lot of understanding hear. That gives us a special ability to empathize with each others pain and truly care. Always remember we are hear for you. You are not alone.


Lots of love, 

Timber Wolf 🐾

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The Viv Element

I'm so happy to hear that, You never have to thank us or apologize :) Take care Aidan.

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Aidan. You are such a cool person, and so many people would be absolutely devastated if you were to die.

Your feelings are completely valid. You have been dealt a bad hand. Your family treats you very unkindly. But there is more to life than what you can see right now. When we are young, everything seems so permanent and final. But if you give yourself the gift of growing into an adult, you will gain new perspective on everything. It will not always be easy even then, but you will have so many cool experiences and meet so many great friends who are just waiting for you out there.


I personally would be devastated if you were to end your life. Please don’t.

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Good for you Aiden. I knew you could do it!


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