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In the glow of the night lamp
They meet outside
Quietly, silently
They hobble to meet
To desparatly reach
But never getting closer
Then twice arms reach
In the glow of the night lamp





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Curled up

Your eyes closed
Dropped into the center

You breath in

You breath out

Till your heart

Beats pulse

You sink deeper

Movement in the dark

A radiant star


From in the void

You watch the star

Rays pulse

Till you feel numb

You breath in

You breath out

And open your eyes

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Reflecting Wreakage


A wreakage but a catastrophe,

To both lost and will never be found,

To be tossed away for slight,

Never to be wanted,

Never to be cared.

As it like sand cast in the wind,

Fades into the empty void before us.

Good riddance one might say,

If not for the wind 

Throwing the sand back

In the face as currents turn.

A wreakage maybe a catastrophe

But forgetting it is the sin.





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When spring comes

It bubbles from within

As sealed energy ignites

In explosive splendour

Color and smells

Come rain or shine

Into the sweltering sun


When summer comes

It srivel's and blisters

But the sun is nice

Till it gives way to rain

Washing the burns away

Come chills and winds

The cool numbing gloom


When fall comes

You sway and weigh

Preparing the way

To warmer cozier days

Despite the nipping

Prey the frost come late

You feast till day gives


When winter comes

Bundled up extra weight

Unless you migrate

Or risk the warmer spaces

Avoiding them

Those mosquitos.

Wishing for cozier days


Comes soon.









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So many words, so much to say

Trapped behind the roaring waves

From their escape clawing my way

Straining to breath but breathe denied

Just left me to drown in cruel demise

Till all life leaves my eyes for the numb

As we depart without a word

Choked back as the waves crush

What little is left, except silence.


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Wandering a scene

Caught in a weiry dream

Walking through warping

City scapes

So many aches

Hoping I don't break

Stand clear of the closing doors please


Rising waves 

And passing trains

Stuck in traffic

Beating the strains.

No gains. People hate that be ok.

I can be better than that.

Stand clear of the closing doors please


Blurred in star struck gaze

Remembering better days

Youth falling fast fading into past
Stuck in the terrors grasp

Not knowing Never Knowing

Where the next step cast

Stand clear...

Stand clear...

Stand clear... there all looking

Stand clear... fury in their eyes

Stand clear... forgoing the knowing

Stand clear... they be moving


Stand clear of the closing doors please...





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I really like these. You write with colorful imagery. 

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Thank you🥰

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Just Lee

Wow. That one sticks in my chest and all I can do right now is nod. Yes. 

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Thank you! Let's me know the words are working.🤗

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