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Mx.Drago

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The void

 

Endless expanse

In hollow feeling

Curled in the dark

A trivial drop

In reality

No way of seeing

No way of breathing

Drowning empty

Forever holding

Forever waiting

Nevermore being

As it consumes

Removing all

Matters of meaning

Till all is left

Is the void

 

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Into Space

 

Not much left

Not much care

Starring into space

Never

Know what's there

Is it worth

Is it great

Maybe

I should just wait

Starring into space

 

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A 1920s jazz song I wrote,

 

'I'm happy... for now'

 

Everything's fine

Everything's great

Everything's sweet like a piece of cake

I'm happy

Oh... so Happy

For Now

 

Everything's well

Everything's swell

Everything's cool like the bottom of hell

I'm happy

Oh... I'm happy

For Now

 

Meeting in the moon

Meeting you in tune

Singing to you my mood

To reach out to you

 

Everything's fine

Everything's great

Everything's sweet like cake

Oh...I'm Happy

Can't you tell

SO Damn Happy

Oh oh so happy

Oh... I'm happy

For now

 

 

 

 

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Another 1920's song

 

Danc'n and a Swing'n

 

Come my little bunny

My honey dear

Danc'n and a Swing'n

Till the night is done

Come my little bunny

So sweet and strong

Danc'n and a Swing'n along

 

We just might get a little tipsy

After a drink or two

Take my hand and come join with me

Having fun till dawn

 

Come my little bunny

My honey dear

Hop'n and a Bop'n

Till the night is gone

Come my little bunny

So cute and fine

Danc'n and a swing'n tonight

 

We just might get a little spiffy

After flirting awhile

So take my hand

And come join with me

Having fun till dawn......

 

Come my little bunny

My honey dear

Danc'n and a Swing'n

Till the night is done

Come my little bunny

So sweet and strong

Danc'n and a Swing'n...

Hop'n and a Bop'n...

Danc'n and a Swing'n and

Hop'n and a Bop'n

Danc'n and a Swing'n along

 

 

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I like "I'm Happy for Now," I listen to a lot of songs and artists like that, a false sense of joy that is hiding a depth of sadness. Hobo Johnson is a great example of that, or you could listen to Anxious by Hippocampus it has a lot of that too. I would like to hear it to music, that would be cool...

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5 hours ago, Aidan5 said:

You are really smooth with words, I really enjoy your work :))

Thank you!?

5 hours ago, A. Dillon said:

I like "I'm Happy for Now," I listen to a lot of songs and artists like that, a false sense of joy that is hiding a depth of sadness. Hobo Johnson is a great example of that, or you could listen to Anxious by Hippocampus it has a lot of that too. I would like to hear it to music, that would be cool...

Took more chorus than to my liking when I was in school, but love music. Like musicals, live music, big sounding stuff. Once in a while I like to think of those small little old joints in a basement somewhere. Cig smoke and other heavy air, you got a piano, maybe a brass, a string, wind, a bunch of grumpy folks young and old drinking, and somebody who sings to reach outside literally grabbing people with their voice to be heard.  Can probably sing a female and male version? It would just take practice so it doesn't sound too terrible. Thank you for the review and the music referral. I like listening to different things. ?

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Rhyming time

 

Stuck in space

Without a place

 

Floating adrift

With no way to shift

 

Wishing for bliss

But what did I miss

 

Rhyming is fun

But easy to shun

 

Like my face

Covered in mace

 

Too much waste

If only for a taste

 

For the simple love

Like a white dove

 

Easy to spot

If only had a shot

 

To keep up pace

To end this race

 

 

 

 

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Out of tune

 

Feel like the whale

That sung out of tune.

Too high pitched

For any whale review.

Adrift at sea,

To oceans deep,

Search for the one

To join in and sing.

All so far now,

Haunts an empty reply

For the whale

That sung too high.

 

 

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  • 2 weeks later...
On 12/6/2020 at 12:30 PM, cananna said:

Those are amazing. I really like the second one. And happy for now it's my jam

 

 

Many thanks, the recognition is most appreciated. ?It can be difficult at times to write, let alone post feelings, gets a bit overwhelming. Tend to destroy more work than make just out of frustration. But I really like the little song "I'm happy...for now" too. Helps me get past the overwhelming feelings of anger and disappointment with a slight admission, even though I'm just not satisfied with the reality as it is, I still need to grin on past and just be happy, even for a second, and it won't last forever. Have another bit I wanted to post for a while but guess "fear is the mind killer." -Dune

 

-Once upon

 

Once upon a dream

I've wondered where you've been

Living in your fantasies

Shooting for the stars

So high above it all

In your warped reality


Are you feeling cold

Are you all alone

Are you even there

For anything at all

Or are you lost


Once upon a dream

I've pondered if you have been

Ever worried for thee

Dancing through the days

All blurred in a haze

In this twisted life we lead


Are you in pain

Was it all in vain

Was it even worth

For what was let astray

Or are you blind


Trapped inside

With nowhere to hide

Caught in the web of lies

The hell we devised...

Resigned to


Once upon a dream

I wondered

Once upon a dream

I pondered

Once upon ...

 

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A rainbow shines like the colors of your mind.

As spectral lights glisten through passing mist, as clear crystal reflects.

Enlightened by the light's rays gaze in gentle kiss.

There's no need to chase the rainbow, though it may fade from sight.

As we traverse and remain aware and prepare.

In the right moment it will be there, as you look for thee by chance.

When clear crystals and drops meet light.

The rainbow will shine again with it's brilliance enchanting life.

 

 

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Thank you for the poetry recommendation will look it up and get some good reading. I like the description they give for the collection.

Lol... My mom was all into the Jane☺️

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If you like it, write her a nice review. I worry about her self-esteem sometimes.

 

Hugs!

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@Mx.Drago I really like your poetry, especially 'I'm happy... for now' I was visualizing sitting at a table in a smokey bar as a women onstage sings the words you wrote. I am hearing it sung similarly to blue skies. Please keep sharing your work with us. It is a balm to my soul.

 

 

I also loved the quote from Dune. I just wish I could control my fear by reciting the fear is the mind killer litany. I sometimes feel like transitioning is our Gom Jabber.

 

Rachel

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On 5/16/2020 at 9:09 AM, Mx.Drago said:

Out of tune

 

Feel like the whale

That sung out of tune.

Too high pitched

For any whale review.

Adrift at sea,

To oceans deep,

Search for the one

To join in and sing.

All so far now,

Haunts an empty reply

For the whale

That sung too high.

 

 

This really speaks to me! Feeling out of place for the last 60 years with no one I could really relate to. 

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